I have been places, seen things, hell, I've done things that truly challenged my faith. There is an old saying that there are no atheists in foxholes. To be completely blunt - that's bullshit.

I can't remember a single day where I didn't look around myself at least once and ask myself what God would allow this to go on? There is truly evil in the world, and there often seems to be no end to the purveyors of evil. How can a benevolent God not only allow people to do unto others as they so often do, but even more so, how can that same God allow the innocent to suffer so?

But then I would see that one shining act of kindness, that one unbelievably selfless act in the midst of death and destruction, and I couldn't help but believe.

Yes, the world is often a shitty place, and yes, there is evil all around us, but somehow we find it within ourselves to be greater than we truly are. That is my definition of God, and I put my faith in the acts of my fellows.

So remember this - when you find yourself struggling, when your faith wanes, and when you think you no longer can trust in anything........

Take the time to stop along the road and admire the wildflowers, listen to the giggle of a child, or watch for a random act of kindness among strangers. That is where you will find God. God doesn't live in a church or even in heaven - no, God is all around us. We just need to take the time to admire his works and to realize that even in the worst of places we can find a reason to believe.

Take it from one who has much to atone for in this life, or in the next - the signs are there, you just have to allow yourself to see them.

I hope that this has helped, and I hope you find a little peace in your life.

Dallas

Dorothy,

You didn't elaborate on just what you were struggling with, so I can only generalize in my support. But know this: God loves you and will never leave you nor forsake you.

I pray that his angles will camp round about you and comfort you.