I read this quote from the latest chapter of "You meant it for evil" and It just describes the choice of transition for me perfectly:

 

“What happened to you is a dream come true for someone with a mind like yours. Reality for most people like you is harder and sadly, with the intolerance of society, born to some degree from the way most of us are put together, ends up being a decision between two bad choices. Either hide who you are inside and pretend to fit in or make the change and live with the consequences."

 

That's how I feel. And right now, I am in limbo, stuck somewhere between who I need to be and who will be accepted by the most important people in my life. Ah, well.