Alone again, naturally!

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Yesterday I came home for work, my roommate was up and about (sort of weird for her, she normally sleeps until noon). She told me she was going out for the day and would be back in the evening to help me with Sunday papers. I told her cool, but she wasn't obligated (I appreciate the help, but every time she comes she has the look like it is utter torture).

I didn't think much of it during the day. However, she comes home at night and tells me that she got back with her girlfriend (the one that kicked her out which required her to move into a strangers house) and that she was moving. I figured she meant, you know, eventually as in a couple of days. Nope! She just gathered most of her shit and left.

Now, I had set in my mind that I was going to set a January deadline for her to have a job and start paying rent, (she is 5 months behind at 400 a month) but I never told it to her. It is a real inconvenience to have someone else around, especially when they're not pulling their own weight and they never leave the house (the last few weeks she did start spending the day with her gf, under the guise of looking for work, like I didn't know). So, I should feel happy, right?

But, I don't. I feel rejected. I think that is the most accurate description for my emotions. I am angry, a bit bitter, but mostly hurt. I let a stranger into my house because a friend had asked for a favor, I even got the person a job (which they only lasted a week at) and even though they never paid me a dime, I never pressed them for money. And all I do is look back to see if I did something wrong. It really ruined my night. I was suppose to go to a transgender meeting last night, but didn't. I think being rejected once a night is my quota.

So, now I have the house to myself. I can strut around naked all I want and I can save on my electric/gas/water bills. But I feel sad. I keep doing and doing and doing for people and all I wind up is broke and friendless. Oh well, I'm going to bed and have a good cry.

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i usually enjoy no roommates

Raff01's picture

I like being alone at home, mostly. And I really hear ya about the rent thing. I live with two other people and one of them is so far behind on monthly bills, like 22 months worth. Now you're all wondering why we don't just boot him. Well once reason is he is on the mortgage paperwork and we think it would be a royal pain in the hind end to remove him. The other is that fear that if he goes, we never see the money. Here is the sad part. I'm on un,employment, so is the other paying roommate. The one who don't is an insurance salesmen but must not do good buisness.

Roommates are a pain in the rear

I now own my own house, when I was in an apartment I had a roommate, a genuine slob, I finally had to ask him to leave. there was no hassel he left that day. I would rather have visitors who come for the day or stay overnight. I don't mind living alone and I don't mind hosting small get togethers with my friends. I don't have to wonder if anything is missing, are they smoking in my house?
I am not anti social but smokers and drinkers are not on my guest list. I don't allow smoking on my property and certainly no drunks allowed.
I quit smoking over 26 years ago and quit driniking almost thirty years ago. I don't need those two things in my life. I don't preach about how bad smoking is nor do I tell people how one or two drinks are okay. I am recovering and the peopel I associate with are adults so why burden them with things they hear constantly.
Katie, its not rejection when some one who has been in your home and not made any effort to reciprocate your being a generous person for opening your door, decidess to leave. It suddenly becomes a financial boost to you as you are only taking care of yourself. People come into our lives for a reason or a season, some will remain others will come and go, its the way life is. It is not rejection its closing a door that you did not need open and soon another door will open for you.
You can still Pm me and I'll give you my phone numbers. I'd be glad to chat with you, I am an ear waiting to listen and I will never reject you or make you feel rejected.

Jill Micayla
Be kinder than necessary,Because everyone you meet
Is fighting some kind of battle.

Rejection, really?

What you described doesn't sound like rejection to me and I'm pretty well read on the subject of rejection, both actual and perceived.

They had no direct connection to you, they were in your house because they had no other place to be, you gave them a place to sleep, tried to help them find a job and as soon as they found somewhere else to be they were gone.

You made the adjustment to them in your life and now you just have to adjust to them being out of it, a pain yes, rejection no.

Hugs
Cat

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You can't choose your relatives but you can choose your family.

Alone again, naturally!

Maybe you need a pet. A cat is lo maintenance.

    Stanman
May Your Light Forever Shine

Low maintainacne cats

I have a cat and she has never been low maintainance. Its a daily thing to keep her littter box clean and food and water for her. Yes my cat sleeps alot as she is nocturnal and at night her energy level can be equated to a small herd of horses running through a canyon, which when she does run sounds just like that. I don't think there really is a low maintenance pet. Maybe one of those that people buy that are electronic, but then even they need attention or they die.

Jill Micayla
Be kinder than necessary,Because everyone you meet
Is fighting some kind of battle.

Umm, uhhh, okay, so!!!

dont get a cat cause they leave stuff all over da place and then the barf alott two. itZ much better two get a pig cause they eat and get reel fat and then you can kill them and cook them and feed the hole place. da onlee problim with pigs is that they tend to explode if they eet two much and then U have a mess all over the place. also they make a lott of gas and reely stink alot.

feedingly,

TT