You know, days go by and time and time again I'm surprised by the friends I manage to make.

It's funny really, I remember a time where I used to spend my time alone. Lost in my thoughts, and my pain. Friends came and went, and no one seemed to want to be near me for more than a few months. I was alone and decided it may have been for the best, yet I still opened myself to the abuse. and the pain repeated itself ever since I started Elementary School. Yet....when I started be true about myself to others....that stopped. Instead of pain, I felt a new feeling. I begun to realize in time that the friends I made in middle school even, 10 years ago from today....weren't ever going to leave. They had ample time in the 6 years I knew them.

So I started questioning why. 'why if friends abandon friends, do they stay?' My original assumption of them was wrong. Thats my answer. And it's as good as any answer if not better. They do care, they've laughed with me, they cried with me. They cheered with me. Through all of the ups and downs, through all my stupid mistakes, They waited, watched, and helped. I was just too stupid to realize it at the time. Even today They still watch me grow beyond that cocoon I kept myself in for all this time. Even now, they tell me how strong I am for surviving this long in the race, despite the disadvantage I was given. Though I think they're full of crap honestly, =p I do what I can with the hand I was dealt.

I guess thats my greatest strength though, even though I'm the bounce back queen, self proclaimed, I need help sometimes too. and, my friends are always willing to help me pick up the pieces in my drama filled life. Even though I hate asking for help, they understand why and just keep on smiling through.

Edit: I should mention that my group of friends keep growing too. At College even when I try to remain in a corner hidden away, there's always SOMEONE to pull me out of it now. Which is weird, in high school and middle school I didn't have it that easy. Now in College it's like the exact opposite. Guess I don't blend in as a lonely person anymore.