It has been awhile since i last posted and i do apologize, alot has been happening in my life in the last while, that prevents me from doing much more then reading blogs.
Erin Fletcher's blog
I would like to thank all of you for your help and advice, regarding my last few posts, i know i dont often comment, that has more to do with limited time, and typically not always knowing how to repond to all your lovely grand comments which i whole heartedly thank you all for it.
My health at least feels like its getting much better. even though it is uncureable, but the puffers help so at least the infection has seemingly subsided.
Well I have very good awesome news.
an anti-discrimination film project being produced by Egale Canada (it's called: Courage in The Face of Hate). This film will be distributed to all high-schools in Canada to educate and sensitize students against LGBTQ discrimination.
Filming will take place on Wed, July 18th starting at 6:30pm in downtown Toronto (either a university or community centre setting, to be determined soon). There is a $25 stipend paid to participants.
I went out today, got my blood work done so my endo will have it when i see him in think in august, had to give a lecture at the nurse because the sticker thingies with my name on them, was my old name, she was arguing that no its the same as my ohip and i pointed out, hell no it isnt, erin amelia and derek joseph are two highly different names, fix the problem!!!, etc, so she did.
I had a great day today, i went and visited one of my best friends, shes totally cool with me and treats me like nothing is different from me then her, though asks some awkward questions to learn which although awkward makes me very happy that she enjoys learning, about my transition.
I apologize in advance, for what i am about to tell u all, fair warning this is very sensitve announcement and im scared, im so scared i fear what i thought i concered,
I am shaking and crying, i feel my end is coming near.
I have had 3 spine operations in my teen years and at the last one i was led to believe i never had to worry again of scoliosis.
today i went to the er, to see why my namonia hasent went away
I was told i no longer have namonia,
My name change application has been approved and am now Erin Amelia Fletcher, still with the silly M in the sex section, but the guy at the counter was soooo kind omg he has been doing this forever and even gave me a hug about that silly M, he said he knew a woman from britain a former cop that immigrated to canada, and then after all her procedures decided she had to move back to britain to settle things with her family. made me soooo sad, i hope whoever that woman is found what she was looking for.
Happy birthday to me happy birthday to me, closer to 6 feet under at 23 lol huggles everyone :) It be my birthday today, I am 23!!! i hope u all have a great day too, cause me bones r cracking which is funny, see im getting older and in elven years im 137 lol
I am pleased to announce that after 3 years of having dusty forms, almost 23 years of having this god awful name 'derek joseph fletcher' and 2 years of being tooo scared to go alone downtown. I have as of today submitted my name change application, so its on its way to thunder bay pending aproval. 4-8 weeks and I will Be Erin Amelia Fletcher legally , my patience will be tested like its xmas....I am on cloud 9 now wait till then and cloud 9 will be an understatement lol
Happy thanksgiving everyone, or more or less my fellow canadians huggs alot and kisses
Erin Amelia Fletcher
As you all know that I have been careing for my 84'year old grandmother with my dad for the past well over half a year. Who has been going altzy, unfortunitely its getting worse, and worse and worse. I am on call 24/7 even with dads help it is literally overwhelming us, especially me. I feel like I am about to blow, not scream or hollar but like some serious mental and emotional breakdown. I can't even take a 15 minute shower without her banging on the door for help. the past 3 days alone i must have gotten maybe 8 hours sleep total.
Thank you all that commented andleft Private messages in my inbox all your help is greatly apprecitaed with all the love to you all hugs
Erin Amelia Fletcher
I would like some advice all please
It is the Time to Act!!! The Time to wish and to ponder, the time to the time to desire and the time to quest!! We all have a life time to accomplish so much and everyone either belives they have the time to accomplish there desires or the time itself not worthy to waste on desires or even that there desires are ou of reach for some either honest or made up reason. Well that stops now!!
im officially on hrt
premarine conjugated estrogen 0.3mg 1 tablet a day
and teva-spironolactone 100mg anti androgens cut in half 1/2 tablet twice a day
im soooo happy i feel like i wanna party :)
I'm freakin crazyly happy, of course its last minute but hell if i ain't smiling...the long wait for my first appointment with my endocrinologist is here friday afternoon, I am so syked I have been waiting since february 2010 and livin fl time (without name change)(family doc retired just before i went to book the appointment needed to sign a section in the application) :( since April or May woot woot hormone train is just around the bend i can't wait :)))
I just watched the movie conviction tonight wih my dad, was pretty great sad depressing entertaining serious etc. But a question that was raised in the movie made me think it myself.
If your sibling brother or sister was convicted (hopefull wrongfully) of anything that would separate the you. Would u not do any and all thing/s in your power to get them out (say become a lawyer yourself like the sister in the movie did based in rl btw)even if it meant sacrificng everyone and everything else in your life to do it just to bring them home?
Spent and hour in a half in the washrrom this morning to make my hair and makeup perfect,come upstairs and my relatives dogs decided to lick my face clean and mess up my hair with there claws, before the funeral service today. I love em but hey i think i was alright to get a little upset with them, afterall who likes to build a buildin and for 3 years and have it torn down in a week, for no reason right. Silly but eh, cant get this pretty without work and effort and deffinitely dont like to spend another hour fixing it back up grr. I hope next time they leave the dogs at home.
My Grandfather passed away today, i might not be on very much the next little bit. I am not sure how to feel in something like this though, all i feel atm is hollow and heavy not sure if it is normal, my grandfather was one of my few first real supporters in my family towards me, and now that he is gone i hope he went to a better place, not sure where or how or what or anything.
Maurice Archibald Fletcher
RIP Grampa i will miss u :(
My sister had a bundling baby today, of course at this time biologically is believed to be male, and no questions otherwise, so i am happy...thought to share it :) hip hip harray :)
with love and ligth and smiles so bright
Erin Amelia Fletcher
I am finally back, got internet again. A new computer and a new place to live, thank the heavens and the earthly Gaia :) rofl... I lost again the drafts to my continutation of the Morwen Cronicles, though I do have my memory which will help to get it back up and running again. I do hope all are well, as I am doing better myself. With the light that so abounds on day, the moon so shines with on all during night...with it I smile bright to all of you with thanks :)
With love and Light to all
Erin Amelia Fletcher
After a year of being totally stifled, and unable to begin my transition, I am finally about to start, come March 11 or this year. I am moving with my dad and grandparents, after his telling them about my predictament etc. So I will be busy for the next little while, though I do hope to post 'The mother in me' soon, though a date is yet established or determined yet. Hope you all good wishes
With love and light and smiles so bright
Erin Amelia Fletcher
For all that have been waiting patiently, for the editing etc, unfortunitewly i had/am having computer issues so instead of pure reposting i'll be editing them by the instalements already here at BC-topshelf. The next instalments may be posted before I edit the rest. I had seceral more instalments, well about 2 or 3 idf i remember correctly, but a virus or something in my computer has totally swiped my writings all of them. So once again, the lepricauns arent all that in my favour lol.
Just came back from counseling and found out by my counselor that OHIP (Ontario health insurance plan) only covers transition if you go through a specific trans-clinic. They make you go through RLT for 2 years before you can even have hormone therapy. Yet they have a 90% decline rate. They make you go through 4 years of HRT before the Srs and still can decline you.
If you dont go through the clinic, you can have it all sooner however its more expensive. Either or however Hormones come out of own wallet/purse.
Hey all, been doing some overview of my storie 'The Girl in Me' accessing the many of mistakes, tribulations and problems regarding my storie. So I have came to the conclusion that I will revise it, re edit, add and change some things.
Firstly as from the start I wanted to make it as a series, of cronicles and Thus it will. I will be naming it "Morwen's Legacy: The Girl in Me".
Secondly The editing is going to be slightly difficult for me so if there is anyone that would like to volunteer to assist in the edditing of my storie, please let me know.
I would like to know if I am doing something wrong, or doing something right with my story.
I am getting concerned that maybe others are loosing interest in it, and am thinking of possibly pulling the plug on it seems how, The comments on my story, is getting rarer and rarer, and sometimes none at all. examples (13 and 16)
I enjoy writting the story, in fact I was hopeing to contiinue it for a rather long time, its hardly just begun, even where it is now, as I planned to continue wtritting it for many more monthes or even years, like an episode as each instalment.
Posting within the next half hour if planned, definitely by the next hour.
bring your tissues, as it may get a little teary!
please remeber to comment on my stories, please, i know its asking alot, but i look forward to comments, as it muses my muse to muse for me to muse for my stories.
erin amelia fletcher
I cut my bangs bymyself today, and screwed it all up, to such a point I hid the shame by taking my raizer and shaved off the stubs of my bangs. It was my first time ever doing it bymyself, mum usually performs that task on me.
Never went to any form of hair establishment since i was 7. scared and excited, don't know what to do. Some sites say grow them out but hide them though is difficult. other sites say cut all hair to length with the bangs bad idea, as i have finally for the first time in my life besides having my bangs cut been able not to have my hair cut.
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