For all who read my story earlier and noticed it was cut off halfway through, I re-wrote the missing part and re-submitted it. I apologize for any inconvenience.
I had an interesting dream last night. I dreamed I was staying over at my friend, Tracy's house and trying on clothes. I was wearing a pretty pink dress and looking at myself. I was a teenage girl!
I just heard some very sad news a few minutes ago. Wren Phoenix passed away this afternoon. I will miss her and her wonderful friendship.
Today I am celebrating my 7th Birthday as a legal woman. I remember that day well. I got up that morning and felt like a weight had been lifted.
I guess I don't feel any older. It's so nice to be 21 with 21 years experience. That's the way I look at it!
I have some wonderful news! I start a new job in 3 weeks working for an organization that provides job training for veterans who are transitioning out of the Military back into Civilian life or have been out of the military for a while, but need re-training to meet the demands of the modern technological job site . I am so excited for this wonderful opportunity!
I had a sobering dose of reality delivered to me by four of the women in my life today. My, mother, sister and two sister's -in-law pretty much told me I have been fooling myself that I could ever think I could ever be successful as a woman the way I have been going. I went to our family reunion yesterday and today my sister-in-law proceeded to chop whatever self confidence I had left in myself to shreds. She told me that I just "existed" in that room yesterday and my body language showed I didn't care. It seems like I am doomed to failure in the make up department too.
I have had a lot going on lately. I am working with my sister-in-law who lives in Colorado, trying to get my career off the ground as a Mary Kay consultant. I am trying to get enough orders to buy my starter kit and some inventory to get started with. She gave me a task to find six women to place orders this weekend, but so far, I haven't had much luck. If any of you would like to place an order, you can go to http://www.marykay.com/kcampbell98934. Just let me know if you do, so it will count toward the total I need and I can offer you my sincerest thank you.
I have a question for the computer techs among us? I have an HP desktop computer that I purchased for my work from home business. I got on it last week to check emails and then clicked shutdown in the start menu and it completely shut down. A few days ago, I happened to come in my room to get something off my desk and I noticed that it was turned on and running in "hibernate" mode. I touched the keyboard and the screen came up to my login page for Windows. It is Windows 7, Professional. I logged in and it went to the desktop page. I clicked on the start menu and brought up "shutdown" again.
There is a law being proposed in Tennessee that would allow bullying in schools by people who feel they are justified based on their own religious, philosophical and political views against LGBT students.I wonder if they have figured out that federal Hate Crimes laws would trump any attempt to violate the Civil rights of these kids? This comes in the wake of the suicide of a high school student who was being bullied for being gay. I have heard that Michigan just passed a similar law. It is sickening that any State would legally try to justify violence against someone else as a RIGHT!
I went to my uncle's visitation tonight. Most of my family already knew about me and it wasn't as big an issue as I thought. Of course, there were some who avoided me, but that was no surprise. My aunt Susan paid me the greatest compliment I have ever had. She told me that she loved me even more because I am living the truth in my life and not shying away from telling the truth no matter what. Those words meant so much to me and I vowed to myself and to others that I will always live my truth, because for so many years, I couldn't out of fear for what others would think! Never again!
My uncle passed this evening from heart failure. He was my dad's second oldest brother and had suffered from the effects of Agent Orange for many years. My problem is this, I want to be there to support my cousins who know I have transitioned and mostly haven't had a problem about it. The rest of my dad's side are the ones I am worried about. They are mostly strict Southern Baptist and Pentecostal and they do not like anything that doesn't conform to their narrow minded view of the world.
I have had a tough week. I started training for my new job with the IRS last Monday and had to take a very difficult test on Thursday to advance in my training. I failed the test and was disqualified for further training. I am once again trying to figure out where to go from here. Added to that, I am being blamed by my mother because we had to sign up for a new phoneline and DSL for my Home Office and we got a bill for that that was far more than the agreed upon amount.We signed up for a bundle plan through AT&T that included the new line, DSL and DirecTV in one plan for $97 a month.
I salute all my brothers and sisters here on BCTS that have served in the military and the sacrifices they have made! Thank you all!
Andrea James posted a link for a wonderful organization called Trans Youth Family Allies on her page today. I have contacted them to see if I can volunteer. I have seen and read stories here locally about parents who were totally clueless about what it means for their child to be Trans. One case resulted in suicide from being bullied and rejected by their mother. I tried to get our Trans support group involved in this worthy cause, but they didn't want to "Rock the boat" and chose not get involved.
Keep Wren Phoenix in your thoughts and prayers. She is awaiting news about her arm and it doesn't sound very good. I know she has had her ups and downs lately. I am really hoping that she does get some good news because she really deserves it.
Today we had a woman reported missing here in town. The 911 dispatch center put out a bulletin using the phone system with a description of the lady and said that her likely destination was the next street over from ours. Anyway, I told my mother and she thought it might be a good idea if I walked around the block to see if I could find her. I did that and didn't see her, so I turned around and headed back to my house. I had gone out and come back through the garage door. I wasn't home 5 minutes when the police came to my door.
There is an episode of "True Life" on MTV now about a MTF transsexual woman who is living Stealth, but afraid of what will happen when people find out. Her family is concerned for her too.
My Grandma passed away this morning at 4:20 AM ET surrounded by my aunts and uncle. The next few days are going to be difficult, but I can take comfort that she is no longer in pain. Please keep our family in your thoughts and prayers.
Over the last week, I have learned that Hospice has been called in to care for my grandmother. She is in Stage 5 Kidney failure and fluid is building up in her system making it difficult for her to breathe.The diuretics she has been taking no longer work. The doctors all thought she would pass on last Summer, but she defied the odds and made it for 10 months longer. She is on high dose pain meds to keep her comfortable and I expect we will get the call sometime within the next week. I'm really saddened by her impending death because she is my last grandparent left living.
Is there something wrong with the Kudos button? I just tried to leave one and it wouldn't register at all.
The Australian Documentary "The Gender Puzzle" is currently showing on Documentary. It is one of the best programs I have seen at explaining the scientific reasons behind Gender issues such as Intersex conditions and Gender Identity.
I got a surprise phone call today from the hiring coordinator for the company I recently did Customer Service training for. The IRS is hiring for positions beginning January 2012. The training starts September of this year. I went through a phone interview and I have been given a conditional letter of hire, pending a background check. I am wondering if those Federal agencies like the IRS would refuse to hire you if they find out what your former status is during the background check?
I read an article that talks about how the Tennessee State Senate has passed a law making it illegal to say the words Gay or Homosexual or discuss any related issues in the classrooms of Tennessee schools. Just when you thought people couldn't be any dumber, this just adds another layer of stupid. They already get made fun of for other things, but now they will really get it big time. I guess the birthplace of the KKK wants to ensure a new generation of bigots continues for years to come. Unreal! This is the 21st century, not the dark ages! It's time these people figure that out!
on how Transgendered people are portrayed in the media. Her name is Amy. I have been helping her by citing a few examples. She turned in a rough draft to her professor yesterday and she is supposed to get that back by Tuesday to rewrite it for the final version due on Thursday. I talked to her about how newspapers cover hate crime reports against the Trans community based on where they are in the country. Could anyone give me a few more examples to use just in case she needs more refined material?
I have come to the conclusion very clearly that I am no longer welcomed where I am living. My mother told me she is selling my only means of transportation to get to a job and everyone in my immediate household is mad at me now. I am nothing but a burden to them. In a few days, I will pack what I can in a rolling suitcase and set off on foot. I don't know exactly where I will go yet. I have $3 to my name right now, but no other choice but to go. I have a sleeping bag to sleep on the ground if I have to. I have needed a change of scenery for a long time.
I finally solved the problem that caused my computer to spontaneously sign out of Yahoo. I found out that it was the AVG toolbar. I disabled all my add ons and then went through by process of elimination until I found the one causing the problem. I downloaded session manager too, so I can log off and come back the next day and continue reading stories from open tabs without starting over. I'm so happy I figured it out!
I have had a frustrating day staying signed into my Yahoo home page. Every time I go to another webpage and come back to my Homepage, I find out I have been signed out. I went in and changed my password,and it still does it. I also have trouble with my Bookmarks tab. I have had to sign back in multiple times on it. Once I'm signed in I can click on the bookmarks icon and the drop down menu will show my quick links and then at the bottom I can open up the full list. It works a little while and then it tells me I have to sign back in.
I just tried to go to Fictionmania and it won't load. I wonder if it's down? I tried one of the stories in my bookmarks and it worked. I'm wondering what the deal is?
I was at my salon today getting a cut, color and eyebrow wax and my stylist brought me a magazine to read while I was under the dryer waiting for my color to set. Anyway, it was the issue of "Allure" magazine from November 2010. I flipped through and found an article about how Androgny has played a role in history from Greek Mythology to films made in the 1970's. It cited several historical examples of how women have lived as men to be treated better in the societies of the times in which they lived.
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