Due to Agent Orange, A medication I take for Migraines and my vascular Disease and a myriad of medications I take which gives me problems with my short term memory and I have to stop writing.

Since January I have been taking on a new outlook on life. I've been making amends with family members and people I have wronged.

I am doing better, however; my kidneys are over producing potassium, so I am drinking some foul tasting gunk.

I am a diabetic by chemical exposure, I've had problems maintaining a normal blood sugar. My weight fluxuates from normal to obese.

After a long deliberation I have decided to do a sequel to "The Pawn" I haven't started it yet but will be starting this week.

I have another story I will be posting after I get it back from editing.

I have recently posted a new story, after over eleven months of trying to write I managed to eke out a short story. I have one comment out of over 350 reads.

If you are on Facebook there is a new group formed for Christians who are Transgendered, Transsexual, and Intersexed. Katie and I chatted and we asked why there wasn't such a site.

I will be out for most of tomorrow and tomorrow evening I am going against the grade and actually going out with friends to celebrate New years.

Today is Tuesday and after being homebound since Saturday ensuring that Hurricane Sandy wasn't going to devastate me I was able to go out this morning amidst some light rain and light wind.

I come to this site almost daily. I see blogs that seem to pique my interst and others that don't.

I have recently learned my left leg has several blockages in my vascular system. My walking has come to going about twelve feet and then pain up from the heal to the hip and as if it were on fire. I'm scheduled for Surgery in November. When my left leg has healed they are going to operate on my right leg below the graft they put in in April of 2011 . I'm doing as little as possible but I have a riding lawn mower so I have some me time as I ride about my lawn.

I ecently blogged I was willing to let another author work on my unfinished stories. Somme one suggested I hold on to them and when I felt better complete them. Today I opened one of my stories and spent some time following the them I am writing about and within two hours I felt better and my story is close to completion.
It was nice to have that cathartic feelng of accomplishing an endeavor.

I have several stories I have begun but they need to be finished. I'm going through a rough depression and am unable to remain concentrated to finish the stories. They are all meant for solo's but if somebody wants to expound or embellish I have no problem.

Wednesday the 28th of March, I went to the Privacy Officer at the VA hospital where I am treated. I went in to ask about the directive I mentioned in another blog.
I was handed a form written by the VA that requires a Doctor who has treated a transgender individual.
I took the form to the endocrinologist who has been treating me today to ask him to fill out the form.
He did so after reading the directive 2011-024 and the new policy for changing gender on the electronic medical record.

I was on line earlier today and found a site that had a report of a Trangendered person harassed by the VA Police because she used the womens bathroom she was ejected from the hospital and given a TRO. She currently has an attorney and is seeking damages.
One of the commenters on the article talked about Veterans Health Administration Directive 2011-024.

AS an intersexed individual or fro any veteran who is using the VA Healthcare system tthis directive tells the VA Health care system how to treat transgendered patients.

I reside in Delaware and am wondering howI can meet others like me with out having to join an online porno site (my idea of what the sites are). I am not looking for a one night stand, I am looking for people to talk to to be able to discuss how I really feel somedays.
I went online and the sites for Delaware are listed but the meeting places no longer exist.
Driving any length of distance outside of Delaware is almost a day trip.
Any one with any ideas?

I read the most wonderful story by Cindilee,"Mermaid First Class" I usually don't do a blog about someones story, but this time I felt it was neccessary. I started to read the story yesterday, being retired Navy I had a slight misunderstanding. I left a message with the author at the end of the story, but ensured it was a flaming comment or deroggatory. I read the complete story a few hours ago. I pm the author to let her know I thought her stroy was wonderful and I wanted let her know I appreciated it, even after my attempt yesterday.

After a year of deep intense therapy, psychotrophic drug adjustments I am finally beginning to settle in. I had two stories I wrote under an assumed alias now under my name and a friend who is searching their archives for a story we penned together.
I am not out of the woods yet, I've learned that people who have any sort of vascular surgery tend to get depressed often.
I am awaiting vascular surgery on my left leg some time this year and if it was like the surgery on my right leg I am going to have three to four months where my memory is going to be vaguee.

In my years of trying to connect with someone to be my friend and confident I've made many online friends, some just for a season, some for a particular reason and some who have been with me a lifetime.
I enjoy the blogs and the stories and I often comment or leave a remark on a blog. There are several here who pm me, but what I miss the most is face to face contact with someone who is like me.

I decided to see how long I have been a member. I
ve been with BCTS for seven years and two weeks. just 12 years and 50 weeks to go to have made a career here.

A year or so ago I got upset and removed my stories, the only one left behind was I, Actor,
I did write two stories under an alias they were A Bitter Wife and The Pawn, The name I used was Marcie Diane.
I am now at peace and contentment, my meds work for me and I learned to ask some simple questions for my self:

Did I do something to make the situation go bad?

Do I have control of the situation?

Is it my fault?

When I can answer no to each of them, I go about my business and do not rant or rave.