Small baby steps, this is how I'm doing it.

Everyone is posting pictures, I'll give it a try. I am still in male mode, but this is week 3 of HRT for me.

I had given up on my previous endocrinologist, with good riddance. Two of the three visits I made to her office I left feeling pretty bad about myself, and I was already pretty low.

Well, I hit a new low, a good one. I am now down to 192 pounds, and holding.

Recently I made a post that was pretty down. I am getting better, working with my GT helps, but still it creeps up on me sometimes.

I am sitting here at a new low, or maybe the same one I was at before. The long sleep is very appealing, but not for me, not yet.

An interesting but long article. Where is the FDA (a rhetorical question)?

http://vitals.nbcnews.com/_news/2012/08/06/13146097-prenatal...

It as been a while. I talked to my GT about the total cessation of reading, she mentioned it depression can do strange things. It isn't the only thing I've changed on either. I'm getting better, just not there yet.

I am slowly walking down the path, fearfully, afraid, but moving forward.

The depression has receded, but it still lurks. Having accepted that I will probably transition, just not today, seems to have taken a load off. My boy says he thinks I am becoming much happier. I think he is right.

This is basically more of an explanation than a rant.

I have shut down. I barely read (that is when I know I am really down), I don't write or do electronics. I do my electronics forum moderation duties, but that is a duty, not just pleasure.

I saw this, and was saddened. A father beat his new baby girl to death for being born a girl. He is in custody, I wonder what his sentence will be?

WARNING, PICTURE OF GIRL IS ATTACHED TO THIS LINK! DO NOT CLICK IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE IT!

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/47019898

Words can not do this justice.

We all have them. Lately I've been getting lag. I usually do a scan about once a month, more if I need it.

Having had a sex starved teen I have had the chance to get lots of experience fixing various problems. After a while I made him fix his various problems, and kept him off my machine. Anyone who has a kid knows how well that works, they usually do what they want to, and deal with the consequences later.

Mine learned quite early I could access the cache through the house network. It saved me a lot of issues, though I don't think he was impressed.

My story scrolled off the front page today. It is still part of Short Story Month - February 2012,, which ends soon. I did not put a teaser on the story, which means it does not show up there, and when I looked on the Stories it is deeply buried.

A thought I had several decades ago, and has been reiterated more than once here is the idea of wearing a mask. Nothing physical, just the emotional face you show people under different circumstances. We always have one on. Sometimes they are thinner than other times, but we always wear it. I think couples occasionally drop them, but even then it is rare.

This is my first entry. There is a lot about using BCTS I don't know, I will try to learn over time.

Allow me to introduce myself. Over time I will talk about me, then branch out. I will try my hand at fictional writing eventually, I already do a lot of writing of a different nature, text books and electronics. I am in my mid 50's.