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I've been trying to obtain a Mirena IUD since my son was born 10 months ago. It's a long complicated story, but I was told it is finally shipping to my doctors office today. I was also told once before that it was shipped by a different company. I have severe endometriosis which is why I desperately need it.

I'm in pain from it every day, but it's worse at that time of the month,it's so bad I sometimes can't walk, plus I'm normally exhausted for at least two days during that time

IT IS FINISHED - kind of

I just finished the first round of editing for the biography I am co-writing. I have to rearrange a few things to get a major agent on board with the project, but it will be worth it. I mean, it's an undercover narcotics detective and army intelligence officer who is not only transgender but had SRS, I see a movie. So, today is done. Tomorrow and the rest of the week I will reorganize and rewrite and then, me and pinky will conquer the world. Oh, oops, you weren't supposed to know that last part.

Some General Help Needed

It's been a few months since I posted so I wanted to put his out there before I did. I have two parts of a three part story written and in the hands of my editor. Thing is because of the nature of the story I have no clue how to tag it. It's very science fiction with multiple transformations in it, open dialog about sex and sexuality and at least one sex scene. On the other hand the story plot itself is very much along the lines of Gentleman Jockey wins the derby, with some self-preservation thrown in for good measure. I'm not trying to pre hype the story I just have no clue how to tag it.

Alone again - naturally


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It's been a long time coming, but I've decided to end the relationship with my FtM boyfriend Felix. It started out well, but it is going nowhere and I figure why waste the next couple of years being polite. He will always say what I want to hear and do whatever the hell he pleases anyway. I am constantly frustrated in my own house and I don't want to live that way. I am tired of being annoyed, tired of living in filth, and tired in general. I think this is for the best. I am also thinking of putting my house for sale and moving from the state.

BigCloset Picnic - November 1


In memory of Holly Hart, today is a good day to announce the upcoming BigCloset picnic. I will be in New Jersey the weekend of November 1, this year. Piper lives there and Cat will be visiting from Old Blighty. November 1 is a Saturday.

Holly organized the meetings in Northern California two and three years ago and they went very well. I hope we can do as well.

Very Sad Day


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VERY SAD DAY TODAY . I had to put my best buddy HERSHEY to rest today . He has had Cushing Disease for the last 2 years and the last 2 days he crashed we took him to the Vet and found out he lost 17 pounds in 6 weeks . He no longer had a good quality of life . I had him from 10 weeks old found him at the Humane Society fell in love at first site to a little black Lab/Pit Bull/plus a few other thing mixed in a heart of gold. Long live the Memory of HERSHEY . :-( BIG TEARS - BROKEN HEART .

Bull Shit Filter Clogged

There are a number of very good authors here who essentially work for free here and there are some who are just beginning who need our encouragement. There are some whose work does not appeal to me for various reasons, and those of you who like their work should be supportive of them.

The Science of a magickal gender change

I began to wonder exactly why the trope "if woman is pregnant she cannot be turned into a man through magick" existed. After some deep thought I at first thought it was the magick had some sort of morality issue with it, but then realized magick doesn't give a damn about morality, it has no ethics it just does what it's told to do within it's realm of control.

Romance or Erotica

I am wondering something. I know romance and erotica are usually separate things, but can a work be both. I just wrote "The New E.D. Treatment" and am wondering if it is a romance. Can a romance have hot and heavy graphic sex scenes and still be a romance, or is the sex scenes that make it erotica. I notice that my smut is different from the standard TG stories out there. There's an anger that is missing, there's no sense of revenge. My stories tend to be about people who find each other. In this new story Jacqueline and Nelson find each other.

It Helps to Know Where You’re Going

Recently a maxim I like to adhere to when writing was brought home to me in a most dramatic fashion. When writing, I have found it helps immeasurably to have a clear idea how the story is going to end. In this way I am able to guide both character and plot development in a manner that leads to the preconceived end game.

Skype problems redux

Well, once again, skype is playing f# %king games. Now it's telling me that I have been signed out and cannot connect to the server. Apparently the workaround I found on the Apple forums was only good for a few more weeks of using the older, more user friendly, simpler version of skype doesn't agree with their new version, which my computer won't run!

Loving our Sisters


The presence of Transgender Sisters is growing stronger in our country. I know of no less than 4 such souls in my neighborhood in the wild reaches of barely civilized Oregon. Tonight I ran into two Sisters in a Safeway grocery store. One is the Night manager there, and the other was standing in front of the Pharmacy perhaps waiting for Estrogen? She was perhaps 5'10" with long luxurious black hair, budding breasts, and the studied face of a woman. She was dressed "female" style but not over stated.

for those who have been waiting... Tracy is back!

That's right. It's been since October, well, August and Through the years is back. Hope's ranch is almost done, at least the next part and maybe, just maybe, I'll try and post something tomorrow. I may drop to a post by the week schedule. Work has been hard and with our backroom at work, being like an oven, I have felt very off lately. Heck, spent almost an hour and a half in that humid room the other night, sweating like a hog.

New Kindle Release - new name - new genre

For years I have written stories where the main characters were young and have dealt more with the psycho-social issues of being transgender. A lot of my stories deal with acceptance and that is all well and good. I think I have produced some mighty fine stories. But, I am also an adult and have adult tastes and desires and to merge that with younger characters would be downright icky. So I decided to leave my comfort zone and head into my pleasure zone. That being said, it would be poor of me to combine the mainstream writing I do with some of the more erotic tales I want to tell.

Computer is sorted

A local computer shop had the required power adapter for my HP laptop and it was competitively priced to those I'd seen advertised on the internet. Took me moments to fit and test. I'm glad I have the netbook as back up but it runs Word Perfect and I prefer Word, far less fiddly. So I'm back up and running, well limping along as usual.


More Changes


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So my life continues to change. I am far enough in my transition to finally accept what others have told me all along, I'm cute, I'm pretty. I'm no longer self conscious, I have friends and family who accept me. I get correctly gendered as I'm out and about. even in male clothing. I have so much going for me. I'm also however moving back home. Whether this is a good or bad thing I do not know. Money is an issue so I can no longer attempt to live on my own. Dad has agreed. So long as I present myself as "normal". He's the only one who's had a problem so far with me being transgendered.

Light of Fury allowed me to post some stories

Light of Fury wrote several Whateley stories. At first, she claimed they were only for my amusement, but eventually, she said to go ahead and post them as fan fiction at Crystal Hall. So, if you're a fan of her writing, head on over to the Crystal Hall forums and look in the fan-fic area. They're being posted (chapter a day) under my name, but attributed to her.

(If you feel the need or desire to comment, do so in the fan-fic discussion forum instead of at the fan-fic page itself).

Seven Year in Nine Weeks

Going over things and erasing persistent log-ins, and noticed I will have been an official member for seven years in just a few weeks. I am still writing, but slowly. I might have the latest novel completed by the end of he year - no promises. I won't say much other than it starts out pretty dark. It complements (with an 'e') The Redhead and the PM but brings out much more that was thought to be hidden but wasn't. My other stories are still there if anyone wants to look them up.

Got confronted in Walmart about being trans and don't know if I should b


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I don't know if it is a good or bad sign to be mistaken for an FtM transsexual. Someone stopped me in the store today and said "honey, you were born a woman, you should remain a woman."

Those numbers

As a self confessed comments and kudos slut, I've reported the unusual figures my kudos totals show. Just now it was 164,164 so I've accumulated a few of them probably about one per hour I've spent writing and posting stories here and one or two other places. It's poor reward but all we get as authors here, so please give generously to all of us story tellers and wordsmiths.

The Family Girl #72: BCTS Mystery

The Family Girl Blogs
(aka "The New Working Girl Blogs")

Blog #72: BCTS Mystery:
A clarification on 'School of Hard
Knocks 101: How to put pictures
in your story'

To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link:

A BCTS friend sent me a message, where she talked about some old stories that she just discovered in the site.

In the same message, she also made mention of a recent blog of mine entitled "School of Hard Knocks 101: How to put pictures in your story," and what led me to post it. And I had this to say about it: "Huh?"

The Family Girl #71: About loneliness and other things

The Family Girl Blogs
(aka "The New Working Girl Blogs")

Blog #71: About loneliness
and other things: checking out
the chatroom

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A bit of stress all around here.


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Things are a little stressed around here. My mom is sick, my dog is sick, and I had a tough moment with Sharon. See, the other night I took my daughter and her mother out for groceries and mentioned I had just written a story and was pretty happy with it. My daughter, who loves stories, wanted to know what I named it, and Sharon butted in and told her "You don't want to know that stuff. It isnt for kids."

So apparently, I cant share the one part of my life I'm actually proud of with my daughter, and it hurts ...

And the bride wore a white dress - so did the groom!

Despite threats from the officials at the Moscow registry office, the two turned up looking like twins, considering Moscow's very strong homophobia, this wasn't against the law. See link to Daily Wail below.


Can I ask if anyone else is having problems with pictures in stories. This past two weeks I only get about half the pictures to show when I open stories up. This happen about a year ago and I know I have not made any changes to my computer when this started a couple of weeks ago. Richard

I'm going to a dark place for my next story

Well, I am going to a dark place with my latest piece. I am writing a story that involves a suicide attempt, pulling from my own experiences. I might need people to hold on to me so I don't lose track of the fact its just a story ...

$1500 in bills coming due before end of the month


We're a bit over $1000 short of our goal for this month and the bills are coming due. The big one, $528 for hosting is due at the end of the week. We've already paid bills for cloud connectivity, ISP, renewal of domain names and bought a switch to replace one our network has outgrown.

Income from Janglewood/QnEZ/Cyberbrats so far just goes to expenses directly related to services offered to our clients and to expanding our access to new services, donations at BigCloset are more than 80% of what we bring in to keep all our TG websites operating.

Sound the trumpets! A complete story!

The following was written at about four this morning, but I, in an example of supreme boneheadedness, kept it in edit-mode limbo until just a few minutes ago. Read on:

Yes, folks, it only took two years and change, but I did manage to submit a complete story to this month's TG Mixed Tape.

I imagine the feeling of "What the hell have I done?" will follow in due course, but for now, I prefer to ride the high.

Who’s the Fairest of Them All

From time to time I ask myself which character I created is my favorite. Often I enter this quite, internal debate with a preconceived notion already in mind, one that is quickly dismissed as the logic gives way to the same emotions and feelings I opened myself to when I created each and everyone of my fictional children.

Queen of the Mountains

I spent ages looking for this story of mine which had been wrongly attached to some other stuff, probably by me, and thus not obvious on my non-EAFOAB stories, so I've added a link for those who might have missed it. It was written nearly two years ago but I enjoyed reading it again.

For those who weren't aware of my stories other than Bike, I offer a link to them here.