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My, my, the changes that have taken place since I've been away....

Some sad, like Katie Leone's sudden passing (and more on that after I've had a little sleep--RIP Katie) and some pleasantly surprising, like these "mini-contests."

Where are the rules for each month's contest posted? I've looked in the usual section for contests, but have found nothing. I doubt I'll be able to contribute anything for this month, but May is a possibility.

Hal 9000 is back on line!


well the hard drives are in and I got back up!

I just put up that latest chapter of Vantier for all of you, that has been waiting for a few weeks.

I had to work and that killed my time off....then add, I work with my hands and typing at the days end is Nye impossible! at times. Then next, when I was done with my assignment. The hard drive failed!

Opinions please... Bathroom debate

This showed up on my wife's Facebook page. She asked my opinion of it and I looked it over and thought, "What would the gang at BCTS think?"

Transgender in Women's Bathroom (Social Experiment)

Let me know if you feel this was a fair experiment or does this guy have an agenda and is he trying to appear sympathetic while joining the anti trans bathroom argument?

Is this sort of thing possible?

I haven't been stopping in much lately, as I've spent much of the last several months binge-watching online movies and videos (an activity which, sadly, has taken the place of writing). Ironically, the movie I was watching last night might very well summon the writing muse again.

Contributing to the Hatbox

Since I cant give money to the Hatbox at the moment, I've found a different way to help out here.

I've asked Erin to put my story "Quest for the Silver Cleric" in the Hatbox story collection, in the hope that my readers might join the Hatbox to check it out.

So please do!

A forlorn hope perchance


Hi all,

I am spending far too many hours on a project by making assumptions, or, better said, approximations, and then having to spend so much time smoothing out the approximations to give vaguely meaningful results.

It would be so much more simple if I could just enter the variables into a spreadsheet and sit back and let it do the work for me.

Back Home - worst luck!

Well I'm back in England - for a few weeks at least, so I present to you the next part of Culture Clash.

My trip to the Spreewald Marathon was quite successful - a total ride time of 6:35 for the 203km was a new personal best for the event despite the damp on the day. My actual ride time gave an average of almost 32kph/21mph which I'm quite proud of, I doubt i'll come close to that next week in the Tour de Yorkshire event!



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Lots of good conversation going on in the news and on places like Facebook, where Target, the American Family Association and other sites feature homophobes.

Though participating in the commerce is exhausting, I think a lot of good is coming of it. I'm just too snotty and sassy to let some of what the ignorant are saying just go by. Though, the time will come when I need to step back and take a break.

Many on the news and in Facebook are sympathetic to our plight, something that surprises me.

Counting is HARD! (Only for me)

Thanks to everyone who pointed out that I mis-numbered the last two chapters of Secondhand Life. I can only quote leaders and CEOs throughout history in saying:

"Mistakes were made"

...."by ME."

Okay, that last part is not a quote of any leader or CEO anywhere, ever.

But how I wish it was. ;-)

Check two-four (times many, many days)


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Well, gee. . .

it has really been three years. Time flies when you really don't have much to mark its passing. Saw my name in one of the blog posts today. logged on to my account (took me three tries to remember the password!) to reply and saw I had two unread messages - both over a year old.


My sincere and heartfelt apologies for my inattentiveness. As a much younger man was taught to say, "No Excuse, Sir/Ma'am."

Help! some one packed away my brain!


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Well I finally got into my new home. Very little problems with the move. Now I only have to deal with finding where everything is packed. At this point I think someone packed up my mind and I am drowning in a Sea of BOXES. If anyone has seen my mind and know what box it is in PLEASE tell this poor author where it is at. The good news is now that the move is over I should be posting new chapters here shortly.

Some good news on the job front


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Some good news on the job front.

I had an interview with the new cleaning company on Wednesday night, and they impressed me. Enough that if they offer me a position (they are supposed to be coming back Tuesday with the offers), I will take the offer

so if you heard

so if you heard via nuaan

my comp died via a hard drive going to the place where ----- digital stuff dies

well I am waiting for a new hard drive via the mail and I did save ---as far as I know all I have written! So with that I will be back to writing soon? this weekend maybe?

Tigger lost?

I was a bit bored a bit earlier this week and decided to go looking for a story, any story by Tigger that caught my eye. As I looked, I started looking at dates and to my dismay saw that December 2012 was the last post of any kind by him. Has anyone seen a post by him or heard if something happened? His stories were always interesting and well written that it would be a shame to not see anything new by him.

So crazy, so insane

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Life is bigger, too bigger for me right now. Why is it that the "50 Shades" trilogy makes so much sense to me; that I see myself in Anna, Christian and his subbies? Why do I vainly hope for that good ending? Why do I inwardly "rage against the dying of the light"? I've been tasked with writing a letter, my final appeal to a group of men that I have little respect for, and further my friends ask me to not be insolent and sassy, and disrespectful. They tell me that even if this last effort fails, at least it will benefit those behind me.

Hugs needed :(


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Can my life get any more hectic? College graduation is right around the corner, Moving houses with my boyfriend, finding work near the new house, and having a friend in the hospital! I'm at wits end and need some support. FYI Broken Phoenix is continuing, I just haven't had much writing time of late.

Why Do I Read Stories on Big Closet?


I read TG stories because they affirm my belief that there are a lot of people in the world who think somewhat like I do. I feel threatened by what I see as a less than compassionate attitude expressed by many in RL. The more I believe there are millions of TG people, the less I fear my own reality.

So why do I come to Big Closet for TG literature?


Transgender kid is tormented by his older brother growing up. His brother almost beat him to death when he caught him in his room in heels.

His older brother grew up to become a world famous scientist. He had a wife who died delivering triplets.

The transgender girl (who her brother insists is a man) found love and invited her brother to the wedding.

Her brother refused to acknowledge his sister as a woman, kidnapped her on her wedding day, and took her to his lab.

he tested "cures" for what he saw as a disease until his sister died on his lab table.

Blog Entry 20th April 2016- Across the Universe 2

No song this time as I'm reusing the blog entry title. :-p

Ten months ago (to the day, actually) I wrote a blog post detailing five stories I had in mind to add to the expending 'Jamieverse': 'Stephanie', 'Ian', 'Simone', 'Karsten', and 'The Playboy Club'. Here's the link to said post-

More makeup magic


Most of us, yep that includes moi, can't afford forty or fifty dollars a week on makeup. Even the basics like eye shadow, mascara, lipstick has become expensive. We find our favorites and age and the world changes what works so we try several others seeking that which we lost, our youth. Makeup is good but it ain't that good.

Just for fun, here are some makeup magic tricks.

Have fun with life, it's too short to take it seriously

Court overturns Virginia school's transgender bathroom rule

Still more appeals to go through. This is the same court that would review North Carolina's law.

A Virginia high school discriminated against a transgender teen by forbidding him from using the boys' restroom, a federal appeals court ruled Tuesday in a case that could have implications for a North Carolina law that critics say discriminates against LGBT people.

Found out something about myself while researching for a story.


So I was researching some of the modern terms coined by the asexual community because one of my characters has only desired our protagonist. I was reading the definition of demisexual, meaning that you only desire sex with someone you're in love with. Now, many people would only have sex with someone they feel an emotional connection to, but the desire is there. Not so for demisexuals. I spotted a link for a quiz. Realizing that this term seems to describe me, I took the quiz. It tells me that I am demisexual! So I'm not just a prude after all!

You learn something new everyday!

Anmarian Appendices

Hi all,

as you Anmar fans are aware, Penny has just started a new thread called "What Milsy Did".
I happen to know that this is also a multi-part tale, but not as long as SEE - nowhere near!

So I have created another entry for it in the "Anmarian Appendices" to provide a simple click mechanism to leap straight to any one particular chapter. This entire portion of the Appendices I shall then order by author name. Unlike everywhere else I have done, these entries shall NOT be in alphabetical order.

Painted Ladies, by P R Ellis

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I've just finished reading "Painted Ladies" by P R Ellis. Even without a transgender main character, it is a good police/detective story. For those of us in this community, the transgender heroine is frosting on the cake.

I'm Back!


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I'm back for now, I'm living in a assisted living facility as almost died this last January and with the stroke I had three years ago this month I'm not doing real good. Then trying to log back on the system refused to accept the log-on info I had written down I had to start a new account. Richard

Mixed Weekend


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Quite an active weekend despite I think having a continuing UTI which gets uncomfortable to painful at times and can be embarrassing as well especially if I don't make the loo in time. On Sunday which was a beautifully sunny and warm out of the cool breeze, I visited with a few others of the mammal group to one of the committee members garden which also happens to be a nature reserve. They have dormice in their hedgerow, which was why I was there along with the others hoping to see some.

Strange dreams


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I've had a lot of "searching" dreams - dreams where I'm looking for a place, a person, or an object, but last night i had a slightly different version of those dreams.

I was at some kind of combination carnival and sporting event with my brother and some friends, and when we got to our seats for the game, I realized I was hungry, and so went looking for a concession stand.

There I met a man who knew me, and he took me into secret parts of the site, and then I won a carnival game, and he seemed kind of sad about that for some reason.

Words to Live By by Megan Campbell


I am finding new inspiration every day because of this site.

I saw a Sarah Carerra blog post and after reading the comments decided to check out the story. I am loving every installment, but about halfway through book 1 I was so touched by these words. It is such a defining sentiment for anyone who has lost themselves only to discover who they really are.

I see singing as a metaphor for self-awareness.

"It felt so good to be singing again. It felt so good to finally let other people hear my voice and not be ashamed by it"

Sarah Carerra: Where is she? and other FAQs

Sarah Carerra: Where is she? and other Frequently Asked Questions

Hi everyone! It’s been a long time since I posted anything here, and for that I am deeply sorry. A number of things have led to my absence, but I’ve recently started writing again and I’m excited about what will hopefully be coming soon. I’ve put together a small list of answers to questions I frequently get asked and thought I’d post it for anyone interested.

Finally caved

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So I consider myself rather efficient in keeping healthy. I try to eat right, exercise (maybe too much). Sometimes I have issues sleeping, but it always seems to be "enough" when I get it. Over the years I've adopted too many feminine beauty regimens to register myself on the male side of the gender spectrum.

Trans Author on BBC website

This is an article entitled

Living with Peter who dresses as Penny

He's also a local Counsillor and Author (At least three books on Amazon) with a very understanding wife.

Here is another link to him on the Daily Flail/Fail/Mail. (Sorry)

Update on Denise


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Just to let you know, Denise is improving rapidly. For a while, letters were squiggly lines with no meaning. Now, although they have to be larger, letters and words are making sense. The cognitive difference had made typing difficult, bu now she's pluggin along really well.

We are in the process of writing a saga - a five volume story, should we live so long. Don't expect the first chapter for at least six months. After that maybe one complete story a year. At least, that's the plan at this time.

Denise thanks you for your good thoughts and prayers.

Touting Someone Else


I normally do not make unsolicited endorsements without first communicating with the author;however, I log in to Amazon daily through the BCTS link to benefit the site as much as I can. I recently read a book that is listed there called, Chained Melodies: A transgender romance by Debrah Martin. It is free to Amazon unlimited users and only a dollar to anyone else. It is a very compelling story and is well worth the time and expense.


God Bless the Child - An Opportunity

K.T. Leone recently passed away. Coincidentally I was reading her God Bless the Child. I haven't read much that Katie write for the last ten years or more. I didn't care for some of her themes and we "spared" years ago.

I just finished God Bless the Child. If you haven't read it, you should consider allowing yourself this treat. It's graphic and not for the faint of heart. It contains some religious sentiment, but not more than what is needed to be true to the story.

Bimbos Sanctuary is back


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Feeling Femme Sanctuary, AKA Bimbo's Sanctuary, AKA AmberChalise is back!

Apparently the Host didn't tell Amber, AKA Candi Shinne that they changed how the database they were using works. That made the website inaccessible.

Here's the link now:

Candi will be posting more info soon.


Elton John, Eric Clapton, Anmar, Palarand and Julina

At one of his concerts, George Michael was singing his version of Elton John's 'I Won't Let The Sun Go Down On Me.' Half way through the song, George announced to the surprised and delighted audience, as the lights came up on the piano player, and with a rising flourish: “Ladies and Gentlemen – Mister Elton John'. The composer himself was on stage playing along and he joined in the singing at that juncture. The live recording of that track went on to be a big hit.

2016-04 (1)


Well the amount of pension I'll receive has been approved as well as the first date of payment (end of April for April, backpayment of March somewhere in May). It's around what I estimated. So good (not enough for an happy dance).

On another positive note. Due to the fact I haven't got a bachelor degree I can ask for student support which doesn't impact my pension. (which is good enough for a happy dance > going to school almost for free till I get a bachelor and Uni / College is now manageable).

Tamara series/Shiraz followers


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Stop press!

I was watching a Television program on a guy walking around Scotland following old original tourist guides - I was so excited to see he was going to call at Thurso, the setting of a great deal of the Tamara series. Disapointed that he didnt go into the town and harbour and give a glimpse of this distant place. However, it would appear that Thurso is one of the top surfing spots in the UK, for masochists or rubber fetishists! boy does the north sea look cold. Will any of our characters be taking to a board?

Tavistock Clinic referrals double


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Some interesting nuggets of information have been revealed by the Tavistock Clinic.

The number of young people referred to England's only gender identity clinic for under-18s has doubled in the past year to nearly 1,400, figures show. The data also shows that nearly twice as many biological girls than boys were referred to London's Tavistock and Portman NHS Foundation Trust last year.


New Book In Amazon Pipeline - Charlie's Twist

Hello all,

Sorry, I've been a bit busy... here is the result.

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This book was originally meant to be a short story for the 'Adventure' category last month. I over ran, and it went on a bit more than I intended. It is now Book One of a series.

I have just uploaded it onto Amazon Kindle, so by the time I awaken (it is midnight here) it should be available.

There is no link available yet. Please remember to buy through BCTS.


It's Sunday, it's four o'clock, it's not Crackerjack

but it is Gaby time!

Yes you can now read another thrilling (!) instalment of Gaby by clicking here!

In other news - the first two chapters of Book 16 are now with my editing team - more Tales of the Unexpected in Gabyland!

There won't be an update next week as I'm away in Germany (again!) to ride the annual Spreewald Marathon 200km event!



Another homophone laugh

G'day all.

I spotted a new (to me) homophone the other day, when an author used the word 'hoard' instead of the correct 'horde' ...

"The hoard of parents swarmed onto the football field ..."

It made me wonder where 'they' had stashed all these parents.

But the follow-up to this made me literally LOL.

I had mentioned it on another site and got a reply from a friend who lives in Las Vegas.

She said: "Here, we would have written 'whored'."


Enjoy your weekend folks.



New Illustration to Bridesmaid for a Friend story

Found a new version of Thomas Robbinson's Bridesmaid for Friend romantic crossdressing story on a site called Transbride. I added the story to my blog and also added a new illustration to compliment it. I'm a big fan of the tender story!

I'm pretty depressed today and I think I know why.

This is, I'm afraid, gonna be a long one, so if you don't wanna read it all the way through, it's okay with me. There's just some things that have been building up in me for a long time and I finally had to acknowlege them last night so I could maybe find a way to deal with them in a rational way. If you're not interested in my life or the state of what I laughingly refer to as a mind... read no farther.

Bruce Springsteen cancels show


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It seems the Boss is backing the campaign to overturn the ridiculous law passed in North Carolina about public toilets and biological sex - didn't know toilets had a biological sex - says a lot about me as an ecologist! But then this is North Korea, I mean Carolina - are they the same people who are trying to build a missile to hit the US? I thought North Carolina was in the US, just as well I don't teach geography.

Ebook Management Tools for the Mac?

I’ve had to restart my computer, twice, when Calibre screwed up my computer and wouldn’t let me forced quit.

I need to be able to convert drm-free azw files to epub, to be able to read them on my e-reader.

I would also like to be able to convert html files to epub, for the same reason. I can easily convert them to txt, if that helps.

I would also like to be able to strip bad formatting, correct metadata, etc.

Unreported World

On tonight's episode of 'Unreported World' on UK Channel 4 (7.30pm) Abigail Austen returns to Afghanistan where she served after her transition with US and Afghan forces. Here is a link giving further details.

This should be an interesting episode

Love to all

Anne G.

Cost of living

Well, it had to happen. As a state employee my pay has been cut every year since this government took power, and I am now taking home less money than I was in 2011. At the same time, available housing here is quickly snapped up by the well-off for "buy to rent", and with no controls on said rents they charge what they like and bump it up each year simply because they can. Their costs aren't increasing, just their avarice. My landlord has just put up my rent again, and it now exceeds 40% of my income.

Good News

So a funny thing happen to me today. There's this story I've been working on for a while but haven't touched in months. I hit a snag with this scene I just couldn't seem to write. No matter how I worded it, it just didn't seem to fit. So after taking several months away from it, today I decided to just delete what was bothering me and just roll right into it with a new scene and it seems to be working just fine now ;)

Logic Puzzle: The Solution


The correct answer is YES.

On the face of it there doesn't seem to be enough information to solve this problem. After all, we don't know Anne's marital status.

What we do know is that she is either married or unmarried.

If Anne is married, and she is looking at George, who is unmarried, then the answer is yes.

If Anne is unmarried, and John, who is married, is looking at her, then the answer is also yes.

An open invitation.

With the recent interest in my Home That Love Built universe, I am re-issuing an open invitation to any writer who would like to try their hand at adding to the wonderful stories already posted in it. There have been many stories written so far in the universe and I'd love to add more. There are some very talented writers who were not members here when I first opened THTLB universe and I'd be pleased and proud to add them to the roster as well as inviting writers who have already made their wonderful additions to THTLB.

Pennsylvania governor expands protections for transgender people

Pennsylvania governor expands protections for transgender people

By Eliza Collins

04/07/16 05:00 PM EDT

The governor of Pennsylvania signed two executive orders Thursday that expand discrimination protections related to employment, including for transgender people.

The Big 20!


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Today is a big day for me as I hit the 20 year mark. My boyfriend treated me to lunch and my Grandpa has a surprise for me tonight so I'm excited! My Grandma and Grandpa were the only ones in my family that didn't disown me when I came out. I've lived on my own since graduating High School. I lived with my grandparents from when I was 4 up until graduating high school. They supported me and I'm very grateful. School wasn't very enjoyable for me because I had no friends and I was always an outcast.

Our own stories are mysterious

Having gotten to what feels like a secure place in my own estimation personal identity, it is quite nice to not worry about it.

Lately I have seen the use of simile and metaphor in stories that I feel is quite clever. There are likely other literary tools that I don't even know about. I smile at the thought that some of you simply thought you were writing something that appealed to you, or you thought you were just writing out your pain, and along the way some of you have become very skilled at wordsmithing.

Logic Puzzle


This puzzle appeared in The Guardian a couple of days ago. The author claimed that approximately 80% of people get the wrong answer.

It’s not a trick question, nor does it involve lateral thinking.

John is looking at Anne.
Anne is looking at George.
John is married. George is not married.

Is a married person looking at an unmarried person?

Not Enough Information

I’ll post the answer later today.

Sara's Story, The Sequel. A writing crisis.

I've written several stories. Some better than others, some worse. It's always been pretty easy for me to write. Just sit down at the keyboard and try to keep up with what my brain/muse are feeding to my fingers.

I feel like an idiot :(


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For all the women on here, let's hope you don't do what I did in the shower this morning..... I've neglected shaving my legs for a while and my legs were "moderately" hairy. I get done with one leg no problem but about halfway through the second one I cut myself with the razor and it hurt like hell(keep in mind that I had never cut myself with the razor before this morning). My boyfriend was cracking up when I came out of the bathroom with a bandage on my leg saying "Looks like someone got a bit messy I see?"

I hope I don't have to deal with that again.......

Got a new job


Well I got a new job I am a skip Tracer for repossession company most of the time I am writing in one of the repo truck so please keep me in your prayers keep the driver awake in your prayers as well we have a fairly stressful time while taking people's cars because most of the time they do get angry with us