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Jem…Chapter 34

Chapter 34

It feels really good to have Raven leaning into me against my back as she holds me while we finish the dishes I just get done washing the sink out when she turns me around and she tenderly kisses me and stares at me.

“You look really nice.”

“You already said that.”

“Well it bears repeating.”

“Thank you. I think that I have a really sweet girlfriend.”

“Say that again.”

“What?...girlfriend.”

I smile at her and this time I’m the one that’s kissing her. And it’s heady…different because she’s not holding me like a girl would hold a guy or I think that’s the case it way more like her holding another girl and then there the other things like her scent melding with mine and the delightful shivery feeling that I’m getting with my lipstick on hers.

“Yeah…I think that like the sound of that.”

“I think that I do too.”

“Oh…”

I kiss her again and then look her in the eyes pretty seriously actually. “Yes…I think that I like being your girlfriend.”

She looks at me and her eyes soften a lot into these dreamy fall into eyes instead of her hypnotize me sexy ones. “I’m…I’m really glad that we’re trying…I want this to really…”

“No…no pressure Rayne, let’s just let this just be what it’ll be…I don’t want to push this too hard.”

“Yeah okay…god you’re so different than Summer.”

“Uh-huh I should think so…Rayne for one I actually care about other people. I don’t think she’ll ever get that mastered.”

“No you’re right but she fakes it really well.”

“Uh-huh most sociopaths do.”

“Hey…she never killed anyone.”

“Well she killed your relationship, and killed the bond between you and your family.”

“…………..that’s because I’m a lesbian.”

“Yes and it had in my opinion a lot to do with just how deep you were into Summer, she ever meet your family?”

“Oh Jesus Christ…yes she did.”

“Uh-huh and given it’s summer just imagine the bad tasted she left in your families mouth about the whole lesbian thing. I mean she wouldn’t even have to get all manipulative and stuff for that she’d just have to be herself and that’d do enough damage right there.”

“So you’re saying that if I had brought a nice girl home like you that things would be different?”

We kiss again smiling at each other and I reach up and move some of her hair and tuck it behind her ear.

“You never know, I know that I’d come at things a lot different.”

She looks at me and she smiles and it’s a bit of a sad wistful one. “Maybe…but I think that my dad might have actually have liked you.”

“I would have liked that.”

“Yeah I thought that you’d have said that.”

I kiss her and push walk her towards the kitchen doors. “C’mon off to your room and go get changed.”

“Huh? Where are we going? We should practice for tomorrow night.”

“We know our stuff enough that we can do a run through in the evening tomorrow. Tonight we’re going out.”

“Where?”

“The Mall, If we hurry we can make the early show.”

“Early show?” she stops on the steps and looks at me. I reach over and take both of her hands and with her being two steps higher that me it’s just right.

“Will you go out on a date with me tonight?”

“Oh…” I love the surprised look on her face. Then her brain catching up and she smiles and leans down and kisses me. “Just let me go get changed.”

“I’ll be here waiting.”

I wait but I also check myself in the mirror and do a bit of touching up, check my money and get these looks from Brooklyn and Kimmie. Brook asks. “Wassup you’re looking pretty tonight?”

“Date night.?”

“Date night?”

“Uh-huh, I’m taking Rayne out to the movies then who knows.?”

“Wow…I…I actually don’t think I’ve seen Raven go out on a date.”

“What?”

“Well her and Skummer were hooked up so they mostly just hung around her except for a few gigs and well going clubbing.”

Kimmie nods. “So shitty Les-relationship death, I think her and Some-Slut went out when she was still living out west but I’m not sure. I’m so happy you guy…sorry you girls…? That you two are like dating and stuff.”

Brooklyn’s taking out her school books but stops to give me a thumbs up. “Very cool.”

“Thanks you guys, nice to know I’m taking things in a good direction…hopefully this’ll…oh wow…you know this is like my first date in my life?”

“Uhm…yeah we kinda figured that out.” Kimmie smiles as she open a can of Redbull.

I blush a bit but notice Kim gesture at the stair with her can and I see Rayne. Yes I guess I’m using her given more. I mean both works but I’m just trying it out.

Oh god…anyway.

She’s got her hair loose and wet and this scoop necked tee that’s like this ballet top and it just…hugs…everything and there’s the peaking out of her black lace bra and she’s in tight black jeans and a wide leather belt that just accentuates her waist/hip area…then add in her touches of her sort of goth jewelry and make up and she’s.

“Wow, oh my god you look beautiful.”

She smiles at me and I step up and take her hand and link our fingers but in this reverse thing where our inside arms are sort of touching so it’s like arms in am while holding hands.

Gosh it’s really romantic.

We get our coats and we head out and she opens the van door for me and makes sure I’m in alright. I know I asked her out but she’s driving so…and there’s this little sort of something in her eyes as she does that and we drive uptown to the main mall and park and lock things up.

We do the arm in arm thing again as we head into the mall. We get a few looks but not as many bad ones as I though we’d get and there’s a few people there that recognize us from the band and our stuff on You Tube and other blogs. We even pose for a few pictures with people so that they can post them up on their walls. The new autograph I guess. It’s so strange though getting my picture take with Tina McKinley and her friends. Not Adams crowd but still a bunch of people that’s have never given me the time of day before.

I pay for our tickets and then the concession stand stuff. Small drinks…Guys girls get the smalls because of the whole bladder issue thing, a really long movie is torture if three quarters in it you back teeth are floating. We both actually go for water and Rayne gets popcorn and me I get a whole bunch of red licorice.

We actually go and see “The King’s Speech.” which isn’t my usual kind of movie but Rayne’s been dying to see it and I’ll have to admit that I really liked it and came away from the show really enjoying it.

We do the arm in arm thing and walk through the mall just looking, talking about the movie and the clothes in some of the shops. Most of the smaller stores are closed or closing but we stop at the Tim Horton’s there and get an hot chocolate each and keep going taking the long way which is down the length of the mall then out through the doors by Superstore then down the sidewalk back to the van.

“You want to go home right yet?” I ask her.

“We could why you have something else planned?”

“No, but maybe just go for a drive, head downtown.”

“Sure.” she smiles but she shrugs and we just drive for a bit and we listen to tunes on the stereo and I see where I want to go.

“Hey lets stop off at Trudeau Park.”

“Uhm…where’s that?”

“Yeah you’re still new to town?”

“Not new but I’ve been too busy working to see stuff.”

“Right up here hang a left at the next lights.”

We pull into the park and it’s one of the oldest parks for the town. It’s about two city blocks wide and three or four long but right on the edge of the lake and there’s maple trees and there’s a gazebo but there’s playground stuff here too. It’s almost ten at night and there’s no one here but us. I mean we’re not breaking the law and it’s public and stuff but it’s just there’s nothing quite like being at a park at night.

“This is nice…” Oh she sure has that I don’t get it sound in her voice.

“C’mon.” I get out and open her van door and help her out and lead her to the swing set. “Get on, I’ll push.”

“Angel?”

“What? When was the last time you did this?”

“I dunno years.”

“Me too but it’s fun.”

“Fun?” She asks getting into the swing and I’m pulling her back.

“Yes…fun.” I tilt her back so I can give her a kiss on the swings.

“Oh…okay that was fun.”

It really is, and not just the making out but we go right passed this stuff a lot as we get older and we just don’t let ourselves try to find some of that spark of who we used to be before life happened to us all.

We swing, we laugh, we kiss…we try to kiss while swinging and laugh when we screw up and we…

Oh….the last bit on the swings was when we grabbed each others chains and held each other together and kissed until the momentum had stopped. It really added this romantic edge and this world moving thing to the whole thing. Or it did for me…

We get interrupted by a car driving by and doing two passes with these two really rough looking guys in the front and they looked really mean too. Dad knows some tough dudes and strange and rough and tough people and these guys fit the bill. Once would have been okay but the second pass and the looks they gave us…

“Let’s go honey…I don’t like the feeling those guys gave me. Maybe we’re crotch blocking a deal.”

“Really…uhm…yeah they look like they’re coming back for another pass.”

We get in the van and I look back now and then in the mirror and it’s them and they don’t pull into the park as we leave but they keep coming and they follow us.

We don’t take off fast. It’d be stupid to speed away because that might make them nervous and give chase.

But…

Two turns, four…yeah they’re following us.

“We should go someplace really public Rayne.”

“The Tim’s at the bus station?”

“Yeah, there’s always people there.” It’s a good spot and it’s the place where a lot of the greyhound like buses come and stop and we’re actually a pretty bust transfer place so there’s a 7-11 and a Subway Subs and of course a Tim Horton’s.

We head there and they speed up and go to pass us and they gun a big engine and then they’re gone.

We go to Tim’s anyway.

We go in and use the bathroom and I look at her. “Well that was effed up.”

Rayne nods. “Likely a bunch of assholes, they seen us kissing or something.”

“Or we interrupted something.”

“Huh?”

“Drug deal, the park’s out of the way a bit. It’s late…”

“Could be, but it wouldn’t be the first time for me getting followed when they see two girls together.”

“Yeah…hell might have been both.”

“Maybe…”

“It didn’t ruin our night did it?”

Rayne smiles at me and turns and puts her hands on my hips and picks me up and sets me on the counter. I “Eeep.” when she does that and I keep forgetting she’s a pretty strong girl.

Then she leans in and kisses me her body between my legs and keeps kissing me and her fingers graze up and down my thighs just in these really shivery-delightful ways and she breaks the kiss and nuzzles my face a little and we rub noses in this sexy cute Eskimo kiss.

“Nope, not at all…best date I’m been on in a long, long time…” her voice is low, right down to this soft sexy purr and I’m all tingly and breathing a bit hard and something else is too…

She kisses me again and again then we get into it so fast and deep with that full on making out thing where I feel utterly boneless in her embrace. Rayne’s so leading the way in this part of our night and we might have been doing that for ten minutes before a Tim’s staffer comes in.

“Are you two oka….y…oh…sorry.” The poor girl’s blushing and we smile at her after breaking the kiss. My eyes feel all glassy and I swear I’m a little high on all of this.

“Oh we’re fine right Angel?” She purrs again…god she can just sound so sexy.

“Wha..huh…oh…yeah we’re good….”

“We shouldn’t loiter honey, lets get a drink and head home?”

“Yeah, um sure it’s pretty late.”

We follow the poor girl out and to the counter and there’s lots of people there and…I look at the girl. “We’ll have two small Iced-Capps.” That’s Iced cappuccino if you’ve never been to Tim’s.

I look around and I turn and slide my hands onto Raven’s sides then turn her around a bit of Grr sexy like and push her against the counter and right there where everyone can see us I plant a long slow sweet kiss…not just a kiss but a really long over and over again lesbian full on PDA that’s at least rated M. I pay for the drinks without breaking the kiss and take the change and sexy like tuck it away into Rayne’s front pocket…sliding my finger along it back and forth then dipping my fingers into it with an “Mmmm…tight.”

She blushes but her eyes dance and she push walks me away from the counter backwards until I turn around then she hugs me and we spoon walk out to the van.

I’m almost twitching because…I’d…Jase’d never have dared to be that open. And I’m sexcited…oh yeah that’s the word…

It’s a fast drive home and we get out of the van…

Thump…Uh…she pins me to the van kissing me…touching me…up and down my sides, rubbing in circles on my hips and that’s actually rolling the sides oh my panties up so they’re getting tighter….then down my legs and up my legs…

I push off and kiss walk her to the house…up the steps backwards.

Thump…she goes. “Uh..”…I pin her to the door…Kiss her run my hands over her hips…into that curvy hollow of her waist…sink my knee between her legs just pushing up…Rayne grinds on it all on her own. I cup her breasts through the shirts gently and it’s not a squeeze but I lift the weight of them off of her chest gently but firmly and run my thumbs over the nipple area of her bra….

She’s moaning into my mouth as we fumble for keys.

Once we’re in it’s that bounce off the walls and rolling along them until we get to her bedroom….

Rayne opens the door and as we go in I turn us around so I’m in the doorway instead of being in her room.

I break the kiss…breathing hard…panting a little and I stare at her. “Good night Rayne…”

“But…You’re not spending the night?”

“No beautiful…not on our first dates…I loved this, I really, really loved this and I’m so fucking going to dream about this but…I don’t want this like this…too hot, too fast…too soon.”

“But…last night…”

“Proved we can be together…that we can get passed it.”

“Okay…Angel…if that’s what you want.” She sighs, that deep catching her breath sigh and I step in and actually grab her shirt and a bit of bra and pull her close and kiss her pinning her to the doorframe.

I break the kiss.

“No Rayne, I want forever.”

I let her go and walk backwards staring at her the whole time before slipping into my room.

I close my door and sway stagger over to the bed and turn and fall backwards on it and almost lose it…I’m panting, sweating now, feeling tingly and dizzy in that full of adrenaline way and flecked with need and desire and fear.

Was this the right call?

Did I turn things sideways?

I really, really wanted to but I want this to be…I want this to be something special, something real….please, please let this be the right thing.

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A favorite!

This and Evanescence, are my favorite of your myriad stories, though all of them are good, I just seem to connect better with these. I hope you will always have the time, and resources to pursue your writing, because your writing is a good thing in a world of mediocre things.

Draflow

That was a great compliment Draflow:)

I'm so glad that you liked these stories. Jem has really taken off and I'm really enjoying this and Evanescence too. I hope that you'll feel better to enjoy things for so much longer.
*Big Hugs*
Bailey.

Bailey Summers

Sweet, sexy, lovely chapter

HOPE the jerks in a car were exactly what Jem thought and not goons of that rich guy and Scummer following them to beat them up.

The NOT staying the night, NOT having sex was very classy. Angel by calling her Rayne and treating this as a formal date is proving to her she is worthy of love. Self esteem is a huge issue with Rayne and Angel is doing his/her best to reestablish that in the best way possible. Damn it *I* could love Angel, who wouldn't? And I am only attracted to girls. There is something so chivalrous yet womanly about Angel's treatment of Rayne.

Not one or the other, Angel, is clearly IMHO dual souled. UM, I can hear the gears turning. Will Angel try to repair the breach with Rayne's parents? Sounds like something Angel would do. He/she is a bridge builder not a slash and burn selfish person like Scummer.

Hum, was Scummer always this way or did she learn to be a manipulative BIT** from her mom? Sad because she does have some good points buried under all that nasty. As to the rich ass behind Jase having to hide in the first place, a son of rich asses and irredeemable.

I agree, Scummer probably deliberately pissed off Raynes parents to ensure Rayne was devoted to Scummer as she then had no one else top fall back on. At the least she did nothing to hide the fact she is bi/lesbian.

My only worry, other than Scummer and those rich bastards is does, can Rayne love Angel for both Angel and Jase as she is both, dual natured/souled. But I get hints Rayne IS trying to love and to love both sides of Angel. That is also why Angel is going slow after the big break thru love making of the previous night. As Angel says he/she wants forever.

Please let them win.

Brooklyn has found love because of Angel, why not Angel and Rayne? So who next will Angel find a love for, dad, or ...

John in Wauwatosa

John in Wauwatosa

Amazing comment John:)

Angel is really determined to do right by Rayne and she has thought about the stuff with her family but she's wise enough not to go there without knowing more about all of them and what really happened.

There is so much I see for this story and comments like this drive me forward happily.
*Great Big Hugs*
Bailey.

Bailey Summers

I want forever

I think she knows what she's doing. they both want forever.

the guys following, after all of Adams crap, Angel has got a great sense of situational awareness.
so were they random lowlifes or Adam lowlifes?

anyway, great chapter, thanks

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Jemima Tychonaut's picture

It's the right thing Angel. :-) *sniffle*



"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."

Yeah Jemima:)

*Sniffles*
Oh and...
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Bailey.

Bailey Summers

"please, please let this be the right thing."

She's trying so hard, wanting it so bad, so afraid of screwing up ...

I loved this chapter. The emotions were so real and I just rode along with Angel hoping the magic would never end ..

Good stuff.

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Thanks Dorothy:)

That's so where I wanted to take all of you:)
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Hope your knee feels better.
Bailey...A Proud Big Brother.

Bailey Summers

A little time is needed still

I think it is wise of Jem to not have things be rushed. I get the feeling she is a bit discomfitted by her erection, speaking plainly, and is trying to give Raven time to truly understand what she is getting into. Also deep down she knows what a compromise Raven is making to accommodate her 'difference' and is humbled by it and may feel a little undeserving. Obviously if Jem had already had the surgery they would have what may be a negligible difference that the relationship can go forward with little more than a hiccup. Not that approaching a relationship with a lesbian or bi woman as a post-op T-girl is a minor thing.

I was kinda on the other side of that one time when I went to a local drag event approximately 15 years ago. I met a T-girl there who may have been TV or pre, and she asked me if I might consider a relationship with one, obviously not knowing that I was trans myself and I said maybe. She was relieved at that and gave me her number but I did not have the heart to tell her I already had a relationship and that I was Trans also as she seems to had have her heart set on a genetic girl.

edit: Oh, and thank you for having a character named Kimmie in the story. I have only read a handful of stories that have a Kimmie in it :). Of course she had to be Japanese though :P

Kim

God Kim, you are so close to reading my mind sometimes.

Angel really is humbled by Rayne and her taking this chance. There are times when you just have to take these huge leaps of faith in life and embrace things that are scary and Rayne's doing that with taking the chance on her.

I've always liked the name Kim even Kimberly.
I would have to guess that you're of Chinese descent?
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Bailey.

Bailey Summers

Yes!

Pretty much what John said.

I am loving this story and in so many ways Angel/Jason reminds me of me.Huggs,

Joani

Thanks so much Joani:)

I'm really happy that you are getting so much out of it.
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Bailey.

Bailey Summers

It's good Angel is pacing the

It's good Angel is pacing the relationship rather than rushing and making it all about sex, I'm sure in the long run it'll make the relatipnship stronger, it'll also show Rayne that there are more benefits to a relationship that she no doubt missed whilst with Scummer. Taking Rayne on a date is already breaking new ground, it sounded as though Rayne's never been romanced, I'm sure Angel will ensure there will be many more nights like this.

Those guys wouldn't perchance be the ones Adam brought in would they? I'm sure we'll be seeing them again. I have hope Angel might help restore Rayne's link to her family if nothing else at least start some dialogue.

Looking forward t more

Big hugs

Lizze :-)

Yule

Bailey's Angel
The Godmother :p

Summer gave Rayne intensity...but not a real relationship.

And Rayne being very new to everything had mistaken that for love and ended up getting used. Rayne's had a few dates since but very short term, very nearly just hook ups. Angel isn't like anyone she's been with before. She just had one of the best nights in her life and no one's ever said or done the things that Angel has with her. Angel want's more, Angel wants to be on those swings with Rayne when they're seventy.

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Bailey.
The Godfather;)

Bailey Summers

Pacing

As others have said, it's a very good idea to pace the relationship, not sleeping together or engaging in "bedroom aerobics" until both are completely ready for it. Apart from the slightly hair-raising incident with the jerks and the mild embarrassment of the girl they met at Tims, it was more-or-less a perfect date. Rushing into the aftermath could be disastrous - and not just because of an almost forgotten part of Angel's anatomy.

It's far better to wait until they've got over the heady days of "We're in love - isn't it cool?!" and their relationship's settled down before thinking about genitalia (both the use of, and the discrepancy between how the rest of Angel usually looks and how her genitalia are configured...)


As the right side of the brain controls the left side of the body, then only left-handers are in their right mind!

Angel wants to pace things, to fall so deeply in love that

everything else is just the small stuff...she wants what her parents had even though she's seen the pain her Dad's gone through with losing her.
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Bailey.

Bailey Summers

addy

put a 'very' in front of the button ;) I like happy things :d

Thanks Lynne:)

I'm very glad that you liked this chapter.
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Bailey.

Bailey Summers

I Think Jem

Should get a good tight gaff, if she doesn't have one, and wear it all the time. I thought it made me used to not having that thing there. She should keep it on when she and Rayne make love. Maybe she should tell Rayne that's what she wants to do, so Rayne doesn't unconsciously worry.

Jem could wait until Rayne takes the lead to find out what's under the gaff. Even out, Jem shouldn't get it anywhere near Rayne's crotch without Rayne pulling it their. Maybe even then Jem should abstain. She could just let Rayne play with it for awhile.

Does Jem even have the beginning of breasts? Largeish nipples? She's had quite low T for a long time. If she just had a bit of breasts, it would be something Raine could connect with, to make Jem more of a girl for her. Like their relationship would not have to entirely depend on an intellectual conclusion that Jem's a girl (only)(?) inside or only with her clothes on.

Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee

Nope no gaff for Angel...

she doesn't need it, she doesn't really want it and it's pretty much a non issue for their relationship. They both know what's there and neither one really needs the illusion of flatness there. Both of them are more mature than that.

But...the low T thing and her breasts, nipples and stuff I've never really thought of. I'd have to say that Angel doesn't have breasts really at all but her nipples could be effected. I mean would Jason have known the difference? I'll have to think about it.

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Bailey.

Bailey Summers

Smoken

Smoken O God Bailey that was hot. I am making a guess here but I feel Angle is making peace with the Idea of becoming physically the women she is portraying in the story. That coupled with the extreme passion they both feel needs to be handled with respect and caution.
Love the story
Misha

With those with open eyes the world reads like a book

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Angel's not sure about an actual change but in her head...

Angel's a girl and that girl is in love with Rayne and there's so much on the line there...she has to show this respect and honor the love they have.
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Bailey.

Bailey Summers