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Once again I can hear the church bells ringing in the distance; I walked onwards through the village heading for I don't know where.
The service had started by the time I reached the church so I paused for a while to listen to the singing, while pleasant to listen to the choir the mixed congregation was different, although I had to admit they tried their best.
The sermon began and I almost laughed as the vicar preached the usual goodwill to all men sermon, Goodwill to all men? Here I was homeless and jobless and being driven out of any place I tried to settle in.
What did they fear that I would contaminate their lives and families? I had never harmed anyone in my life.
It all began a few years ago when I came out and decided that I would no longer live a lie, I declared to my friends and neighbors that I was transsexual and would be changing from living as a male to living as female and straight away the whole world turned against me, or so it seemed.
I was shunned by everyone I knew and inevitably driven from my home, I had moved to several places since with the same results and now live where ever I can find temporary shelter which usually turned out to be a clearing in some bushes somewhere.
Yes preach religious man, preach about goodwill, tolerance, love and forgiveness, like the rest of your congregation you are no better, just a bigger bigot. You preach the Bible, Talmud, Koran or whatever your holy book is, yet you fail to understand those same books.
Isn't there a passage that says “Do not judge lest you be judged” or something like that?
Well you have Judged me and found me guilty of some in your eyes heinous crime, yet I’m not a thief, a murderer or liar, I don't covet another man’s wife, wealth or property, so what crime am I guilty of, tell me? All I want is to live my life the way I want and I don't want anything to do with so called Christianity.” “Goodwill to all men indeed.”
So once more I set off to God knows where leaving sounds of the service dwindling in the distance, where I will sleep tonight I don't yet know, I have a little food so hopefully I can find somewhere sheltered enough to keep the wind out and maybe where I can light a small fire to get some warmth into my body
It's been a cold winter this year the rain and snow I can put up with but that biting wind will be the death of me yet, I have to find somewhere sheltered enough and soon the wind is getting stronger and with the falling snow it's getting harder to see any distance over a few feet.
The moors seem to stretch on forever, and I can't go much further when I find a small cave hidden behind some bushes, I enter the cave and with freezing hands attempt to start a fire which I know will smoke due to having to use wet wood that is lying nearby but I eventually get a fire going.
Everything is still outside and deathly quiet; even the dogs I heard from the distant farm have gone silent. The fire gives no real heat but it does give me some comfort and I fall asleep still hungry, I was too tired to be bothered to cook a meal, I hadn't realized the toll the cold took on my body.
I don't know what woke me, but I awoke with a start, outside the cave there is a light getting brighter. “Oh God don't tell me I'm going to be forced out into that awful weather again” I waited and the light got brighter and brighter and illuminated the small cave.
“Come child, a voice ‘calls out’ your trials and suffering are at an end, come we will take you home”
I leave the cave and see two of the most beautiful people I have ever seen, they seem to glow with a brilliant white aura, and I look back into the cave and see myself lying in the corner with a smile on my face.
“Come child, no more will you be hounded and persecuted, no more will you judged, the Almighty has sent us to bring you home to rest for eternity” said the voice
The figures take my hands and I look back once more, the suffering and pain has left the face of my once earthly body, but I looked old before my time, I had been alone most of life with few friends that had abandoned me, I had been reduced to nothing but a figure to be humiliated, persecuted and abused. I only wanted to live true and free a and now I see a emancipated body that look a lot older than my twenty eight years, the clothing was clean but ragged and not suited to the harsh winter weather, Yes I had died alone in the middle of nowhere, but now I was free from earthly suffering.
I look at the two figures, male or female I couldn't tell and to be honest I didn't care.
“Let us leave this place, you earthly body will be discovered and buried, you are beyond earthly things now,” the voice said.
I smiled as everything around us turned slowly grey and disappeared and was led away into the light.
The End for Now!
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