Beth Williams

I Wanted To Share This

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I had heard of the "Color Personality Test" oh a year or so ago, and tried to take it. Unfortunately, the site had been taken down because of too many hits. It was almost like a DOS attack - except they were all legitimate hits!!

You can find the test at http://www.colorquiz.com/

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Out of the Mouth of My Son

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I blithely expected my kids to be accepting when I told them I was transgendered; after all, I'd modeled acceptance to them all their lives. So telling them would be a piece of cake! Right??

Wrong

My oldest told my wife the only reason he didn't yell at me when I told him was because we were traveling down the freeway at 75 MPH in a driving rain and I was practically comatose huddled against the door.

My middle son said nothing. Of course that means little since he normally says almost nothing.

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A Plea, A Request, Abject Groveling and Begging !!

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A Hope that got your attention. LOL

I like every other writer out there does this for free, nada, zilch, zip, nothing! Well, except for one thing, your comments and Kudos!!

I was looking at the numbers on the stories currently being offered and I noticed something. Well, it's not REALLY hard to guess, but there is no correlation between the number of comments or kudos AND the number of readers. Sooo...

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Thanksgiving?

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Thanksgiving?

Why?

We had Thanksgiving at MY house today. 13 or 14 people around the house, chatting, eating, playing with my son's new baby.

All of them smiling, happy.

I asked what we had to be thankful for. The Grand baby, my son's job, the weight I've lost this year (120 pounds, more or less, thank you very much!), the food, everyone was happy on the outside.

Except me.

My family barely tolerates me, though God Forbid they should show it in public. My son says I'm "disgusting. My oldest commands, "don't embarrass us."

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Transgender Day of Rememberance

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I would like to be certain that our community knows When This Years Day of Remembrance Occurs.

This years Remembrance will occur in most places on November 29, 2010.

Make no mistake this violence has touched out little community. It was this time last year that T. D. Aldoennetti was murdered in her house.

Our community lost the following this year. I don't know of anyone other than Teddi who lost their lives to violence.

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Strawberries, Cherries, and an Angels kiss in Spring

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Hi all,

It's been some time since I let you know what is happening with the doctors.

The had amputated the left leg. Your prayers are MOST Gratefully accepted. Appart from a urinary tract infection every thing went great! The has been some phantom pain which is anything but phantom. I am grateful.

On another front, Miss Cabot let me know some may not know the following: I have to preach the funeral of my brother who died at 44. If you think of it and are inclined that way please remember his two sons. The service is October 17.

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With Sorrow

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I had asked a number of you to pray for for brother Jeff. It is with Deeppest sorrow I share with you that at sometime around 2:30 this morning PST my brothher died.

While rough around the edges Jeff absolutely addoredd me growing up. I was his big brother. Please keep the family in your prayers. This has been a horrid shock to the whole family. He was 44 years old.

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Three Peas in a Pod

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Three Peas in a Pod 

by Beth Williams
 
Edited by Holly H. Hart

 

It was a dark, cold and windy night, blacker than the inside of a closet, which was were I lived. No one knew me — like this. It was blacker then the clouds hovering over my heart, so dark I couldn’t see my hand in front of my face...

Thank you And...

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I'd like to thank those of you who've prayed for me or the past 3 weeks. I have recovered as well as to be expected. Thank you.
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I believe strongly in the power of prayer. And I have a prayer request for you all. My youngest brother, Jeff, is in the hospital. His kidneys have ceased functioning. He has a perforated intestine.

They are trying to match up a life flight with a hospital near that can handle his condition.

Thank you for whatever prayers you might have for Jeff.

Beth

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A Prayer Request

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I would covet your prayers. After four years of fighting to save it, I will be losing my left foot sometime in the next month. I've done all I can do. I've lost about 100 pounds and have had over 16 surgeries. My doctors have all been excellent, and I bear none of them ill will.

I am transgendered. I am in transition.

I am a pastor and chaplain

I am scared and brokenhearted at what's going to be happening.

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If you are so inclinded, Please remember me in prayer

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Some of you know, I damaged my ankles playing football, in a vain attempt to please my father. It took years to manifest it'self, but in the past 4 years I've had 16 operations trying to salvage the ankle, so it would work.

It's been 6 monrhs since it became abundantly clear I would lose the leg to just below the knee. Doctors, insurance companies, etc. have had me hanging and waiting

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It Occured To Me

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It occured to me,

There are many people on BC that I call friend. Many I chat with, some I talk with, and more that I correspond with. Among those some are Brilliant writers and some are well... let's say they try hard.

BUT, I realized that I haven't read stories by many of them, and RARELY looked at their old stories.

SO, I ASKED SOME if they had read any of my stories (Frankly I'm very slow in finishing things) and most of them hadnn't

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Another trip around Mt. Sinai

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In the mid 70's there was a song on "contemporary" Christian Radio. The Refrain was
Take another trip around Mt. Sinai
Till you learn your lesson...

So, I'm taking another trip...
It's been a horrid month. A couple of people I thought were friends turned on me once I came out to them. Go figure. Somehow I didn't think it would happen. They knew about my TG issues, but a month later I'm chopped liver.

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Songs I Never Heard - Who's Your favorite designer?

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The Cowboy in a Pink Armani Suit

How I wished this truly was a Song I Never Heard. My Mom used to play country music all the time while ironing, and teaching me to iron. Oh my such simple times. And such simple minded songs. This was a favorite, along with other Marty Robbins Songs. Though somehow I don't think this is quite what he had in mind. LOL

Broken Glass

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If you haven't read the story Broken Glass by Jenna Hitch and Shalimar you simply must. It is, without a doubt, the most spiritually moving story I've ever read on a TG story site.

For me, it is even more moving, for my wife, my children, and I would have followed the Blau's to become dust in the wind...

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You guys are pobably getting tired of this

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::::: Doing Happy Dance ::::: (to the tune "Dance of the elephants"

You folks are probably getting tired of me, but I use the blog to remind me I'm working on Transition.

I've now lost 70 (that's SEVENTY!!!) pounds since January first. I've now reached 33% of the weight I HAVE to lose before hormones, before surgery. I just KNEW I was going to not have made it this week. My mom's 75th birthday, (awww I shoulda lost 75) was this weekend, and I had CHOCOLATE cake with frosting on Saturday. I was prepared to not have lost any this week, and I'm down another 5 pounds this week!!!

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Some Good News (for a change!)

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Hey all,

First, Thank you ALL for being here. The last few months have been horrid for me. Many of you have become closer to me than some of my "real" family. When I've needed you, you've been there, and I THANK GOD for each and every one of you, though some more that Others!

Good News: Yesterday I hit FIFTY pounds lost since the first of the year. That means I've lost 25% of the weight I need to before RLT and hormones (THANK YOU GWEN for the tidbit on estrogen making weight loss harder!!)

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It looks like it is getting to be time!

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to quote Scrooge (more or less) "I'm as giddy as a school girl and as light as a feather!" well the light as a feather part is still some way away 40+ pounds lost this month, more to follow.

I've found a recommended therapist, and HALLELUJAH!! she takes my insurance!

Thank you all for your help.

Beth

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Another stressfull request

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Folks, I ask for your prayers or whatever your belief system uses.

I plan on introducing my 3 sons to the type of counseling I'll be receiving. The little angels would may totally wig on me - or rip the wig off! They're loving kids, I've been the nurturing one all their lives. Please Oh Please remember me between now and Saturday afternoon!

With fear and trembling,
Beth

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Transition Psychologist

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Ladies,

I've reached the point in my life where I need a good psychologist. I'm certain of the outcome, but you know "Standards of Care"...

Does ANYONE have a suggestion for a p-shrink in the Greater San Diego area?? I'll go as far as LA if I have to. But San Diego, Orange County, Riverside county would be best.

For me, it's time.

Beth

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help Help HELP Editor Needed

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Good Evening ALL,

I am in need of an editor or two. I have two stories actively being worked on, one a Serial Comdex...(eight chapters, 3-5 more) and the other a much shorter story, "Between Christmas and Hell."

What I'm looking for in an editor:
1) Someone who will smack my nose with a newspaper and say no no no! Bad Writer
In other words someone who isn't afraid to make suggestions or tell me I'm wrong!
And then won't get bent out of shape if I don't always take their suggestions.

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Comdex - 7 - Rebound

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Comdex

Chapter Seven - Rebound

 
 
Thanks to my editors, Wendy, Holly, and Stan. Thanks Maggie for your encouragement.

     
     
“Yeah, and like so many great inventions it was accidental. Well, shall we open it up and see what we have?” Mark asked as he removed the bucket lid. Pulling his gloves back on, he reached in and removed the hemostat holding the plastic bag. “Will you look at that? You just don’t get prints any better! Looks like a thumb and forefinger on the top, and thumb and two or three fingers on the side.” Mark carefully photographed the fingerprints, and then sealed the unopened Ziploc ® bag in an evidence bag. “If the apparent stains prove to be from the victim, I would say Mr. Maxwell is going to prison for a very, very long time.”

Comdex - 6 - Recuperation

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COMDEX

     

CAUTION This Story contains the clinical retelling of a Rape scene. CAUTION

     

Seconds later, I felt someone else grab my hands, and squeeze them tightly. “Please don’t hurt yourself. I love you, too,” I heard Lisa plead through tears. “I can’t imagine what it must be like, but please don’t give up? I need you, Daddy! I don’t care whether you’re my daddy, my aunt or my mom. I need you!” she cried. Like my mom, Lisa reached down and kissed my cheek, leaking tears on my shoulders. Then she let go, and someone else grabbed my hands.

I was beginning to feel they had lined up, no, ganged up on me. One after another, they battered me with their love ... brutalized me with their compassion.

Comdex - 5 - Repercussions

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They say everyone has a twin somewhere. What do you do when your twin is dead and her rich husband fixates on YOU?

Many thanks to my original editor Wendy, and my new Holly and Stan. Props to Maggie for her encouragement.


COMDEX

Repercussions

Though no more than 10 minutes passed since Linda left Kate sitting on the toilet, it seemed to take an eternity to find Dr. Tom. As he rushed to Kate’s room with Linda and Meri, he called Pat and Sheila.

When Linda opened the door she immediately knew something was horribly wrong. There was blood everywhere. She rushed to the bathroom only to find the door locked. “Kate, Honey, open the door,” she shouted, pounding as hard as she could. There was no answer.

Comdex - 4 - Interlude

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They say everyone has a twin somewhere. What do you do when your twin is dead and her rich husband fixates on YOU?

Many thanks to my original editor Wendy, and my new Holly and Stan. Props to Maggie for her encouragement.

COMDEX

I awoke in a hospital bed with an IV drip in my right arm, and I could hear the incessant beep of a heart monitor. The lights were low, I was pretty well swaddled in blankets and felt warm and kind of fuzzy. Jeeves was setting in one corner of the room. When he saw I was awake, he quietly left the room. Linda sat next to me, holding my left hand. I felt calm, tranquil, and more than slightly light headed. “I’ve been sedated, haven’t I?” I asked.

WARNING This scene contains a description of the rape of one of the characters WARNING

Comdex - 3 - Prelude to Memories

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They say that everyone has a twin somewhere. What happens when your twin is dead, as well as being a lady. The following story is fiction, more or less. Enjoy.

This series began a couple of years ago, and like many I set it down unfinished, uncompleted. The original Title was Comdex, Clothing, and Confusion. The first few chapters are rewrites.
Comdex — Prelude to Change
Copyright 2003/8 Beth Williams

Comdex - 2 - Prelude to Confusion

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They say that everyone has a twin somewhere. What happens when your twin is dead, as well as being a lady. The following story is fiction, more or less. Enjoy.

This series began a couple of years ago, and like many I set it down unfinished, uncompleted. The original Title was Comdex, Clothing, and Confusion. The first few chapters are rewrites.

Comdex - 1 - Prelude to Change

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They say that everyone has a twin somewhere. What happens when your twin is dead, as well as being a lady. The following story is fiction, more or less. Enjoy.

This series began a couple of years ago, and like many I set it down unfinished, uncompleted. The original Title was Comdex, Clothing, and Confusion. The first few chapters are rewrites.

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