NOTE: IF YOU HAVE PTSD, YOU WOULD PERHAPS NOT WANT TO BE READING THE STORY I AM ABOUT TO TALK ABOUT.

I've got an old short story called "Extreme" that I published on Storysite as an excercise in a creative writing class. I wanted it to leave the reader feeling breathless and emotional. It is about the most extreme combat that anyone could come up with; a really, really despirate situation that repeats every day until the poor soldier is either killed or is pulled from duty.

It is really quite sensitive, and presented an opposing view. The child was very natural acting.

http://www.cnn.com/2011/09/27/health/transgender-kids/index....

I was surprised that the nasty comments were not that many.

Gwendolyn

What ever you use as a computer, and no matter what your politics are, I think that most will find this youtube vid to be really inspiring. I won't say that these folks were lilly white morally but one can not dispute their contribution.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=39jtNUGgmd4

Peace

Gwendolyn

Katia dear, please behave yourself won't you?

At first when Hurricane Katia came on the scene, I thought for sure that someone at the National Weather Center was a reader on BCTS, and that may be so, but upon doing some more research, found that I did not originat the name at all, but some Greek dude. :(

Well, I have introduced a new set of characters into my Katia story and need some help with names. They are about a foot tall, fly, and live in the woods on Malok's home world. So far Malok's race have just considered them to be about the equivalent of mosquitos but have not engaged in an eradication campaign on them, rather choosing to stay away from them.

So, I don't know a lot about 'puters and don't want to know more than I have to about the Devil's machine. :) I just wanna use one.

So, I have this CD called "Tabla Turbo" that is belly dancing music, and not on I tunes or any place like that. So, my roomate told me that I could just buy a thumb drive and use my computer to copy the CD to the Drive. I did not think I could do it due to copyright crankiness, but he insisted I could, so I tried. Well, as you can probably guess, that did not work. So for music CD's that are not main stream, how can this be done?

I was just reading a story and it seemed to jog something in my memory. Ever wary of false memories, I am fairly certain that this one is the real McCoy.

I was a tiny, effiminate boy, in the 5th percentile on weight and 25th percentile on height at around 12 years old. I know that this was post pubescent because I started at 10, but Mr Wiggly required very infrequent attention.

Along about this time, Mom started bringing home "Vitamins", little gell pills about the size of a pea. By the time I was about 17 I was about 5'6" and around 135lbs, I think.

I saw a CNN clip about Commic Con, and OMG, my imagination is like totally captured ! Wow!

I was thinking that if I get involved in it, I would like to be "Katia" in my girl rambo story. Of course that means losing the 30lbs I have been storing on my body, but I can just see myself in a butt length Black wig with blood red highlights, a black costume with black leggings with all sorts of dials and vents on the leggs, a sexy top and a holster for my "Noisy Cricket" and of course my enhanced sword! No stillettos, though, you can't really run and fight in those things!

Yep, I'm gonna go work the hot stuff again, poking around in live electrical panels, climbing a few poles, pullin some wire, and changing some 10,000 horse motors. Yep, it will be back to $36 dollars an hour and all the beer I can drink after work. Anyone got any idea how bad it hurts if I slip a spike and mash my tits on the side of a big old oily pole with giant splinters?

Well, that is not the truth ... but.

I started my journey first reading at Fiction Mania, and then both reading and writing at Storysite. I think I was lurking at this site sometime around 1999. I am not sure when Erin started this site so I could have been here as soon as the site existed, but I do not know when that was.

One of the stories here got me curious about the "Star Wars" series, for purely technical reasons. :) So, I began to watch the entire series again from I-VI. In Epi IV, Han Solo mentioned that his ship would do 1.5 light speed. Hmmmm that is just plodding along and is really not much good for space travel. In Lili's present story, she mentioned that the drive she is peddling is capable of 100,000 times light speed; something just barely useful considering the scale of the Universe, or even our own Galaxy.

I just got word that my estranged son has kidney cancer. It is what killed my older brother.

I'm sorta sad now. I would appreciate your prayers.

Gwen

So, I just need to vent, A LOT !

So here we are, moving on Monday. Last night the girls both graduated college and I am happy for them. So, today Hindi took her family and went to see Niagara Falls, that monument to the arrogance of Man. Alexa came in with her Mum and Dad and BF and began packing her things. I was alone at the house until they showed up and enjoyed the quiet.

I've had a PM that makes me think I should clarify my opinion on the use of Prescription Drugs. After 9/11 their use way more than doubled, and I was one of the people who was put on them.

Gwendolyn's Muse, "Khadijah" is really confused with me right now, wondering just what I am up too. Those who have been following "Lt Katia in Afganistan" may have perhaps felt that she would end up a Nigab'd once warrior living in seclusion in the home of her love intrest. And to be frank, I had been thinking that she might too.

I have been thinking about cleaning up some of my unfinished stories. After Ch 4 of Lt Katia, I was going to write the final chapter of MS Frankenstein but when I looked at the comments and reads, discovered that it just did not sell that well. I had thought it was a very good story but perhaps not. So, I guess I will ask for input from the readers.

Is this story worth finishing? If I get a few comments saying that it is, perhaps I'll do the final chapter. If not, I will just let it die a natural death.

Much peace

Khadijah

MS Frankenstein

Eh what with all this talk of family crests and such, it prompted me to explore mine a bit. If the "Sun" can invent outraveous lies then I ought also.
So I went looking on the Internet for the "Boucher" place of origin and family crest. Gads, we actually have one! It looks like they were part of the Norman invasion around 1066.
http://www.houseofnames.com/boucher-family-crest

I was so astonished to day when I posted Ch 3. It went up just as I had written it!!! Thank you Erin!

This story is a horse of a different color, and in looking at the two previous stories, I am satisfied with the Kudos and read counts. I did not set out to be a star, but to write from my heart.

Ch4 will be the last. I hope that you will enjoy it.

Much peace

Khadijah

Here is a neat web page done by a trans woman. I hate using that term but must because if I just called her a woman, as I call myself, you would think that she knew nothing.

http://www.secondtype.info/bodysize.htm

This highlights the struggle of larger T folk very well. I know that they can not change what is in their heads and they are stuck with a body that they feel considerable pain over. My only, heart felt, suggestion is to do the best you can.

I was sitting at the post office today, waiting for it to open as a woman with three children walked past.

I was wondering if any of the professionals here know anything about cases where female hormones were used on male children at a very early age; say, starting about one year old? I am looking for development of the wider pevlic bones, shoulder structure, and the seemingly more flexible ligament structure of a genetic female.

It is part of a story idea that is growing in the dirt in a dark place in the basement of my mind.

OK here's the deal. I am taking a break here; rethinkin what I am gonna write, and I am sort of tired of the ideas that some people are pushing at me. No drama here, I'm just standing up for myself. I am finding that certain things I do just retraumatise me, so I'm not gonna do them any more. That would be dumm. I'm not answering any more calls that are unlisted.

I'm gonna finish Lt Katia and write an end to Ms Frankenstein. After that I don't know what I am gonna write. And no, I am not on skype all the time anymore.

As part of the continuing saga of computer woes, I have been completely unable to find a phone number for Norton. There is the Norton Community Forum, but so far the posts there are mostly complaining about Norton's unresponsiveness to their problems. Did the founder of the company sell out or something? Maybe I should buy a Mac?

Much peace

Khadijah