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Sad Smiles Chapter 15

Chapter 15

We didn't get the chance to talk again until we were walking back to the RV after the after party. We said our usual goodbyes to Noah and his band friends and then allowed The Bleeding Heart Boys to get enough ahead of us so that they couldn't hear our conversation. I was orchestrating that manoeuvre, so Ellie and Sarah were waiting for me to start the talk.

“Ellie, I couldn't help but overhear you talking to Gabi about further feminisation surgery. Does she have issues with the way she looks?” I asked.



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Star is a big hearted 14 year old runaway with anger issues. Life for Star has been tough, but it has created a strength and resilience in character and a strong drive to protect family. With an incredible mind, Star shows that size and strength can be trumped by clever thinking.

Sad Smiles Chapter 13

Chapter 13

Sandra disappeared on her hunt for the doctor and Lisa jumped on us for information.

“Tell me, tell me, tell me!” Lisa exclaimed.

“Let's get back to the waiting room, I only want to say it once,” I told her.

She hurried me to the room where everyone was waiting, even Aaron was sitting in one corner.

Sad Smiles Chapter 12

Chapter 12 Buffy's POV

High Notes had just about finished their set when Trish came to us and asked us to follow her.

“What's wrong?” I asked her.

“Lisa has asked me to get you. Drew has disappeared.”

“What happened?”

“Lisa will tell you, I don't know.”

We rushed back to find a frantic Lisa, holding a crying Mia.

“What happened?” I repeated, this time to Lisa.

“I'm so sorry. We thought it would be alright, but then Aaron was an idiot and Drew ran away and I tried to follow, but he disappeared.”

Sad Smiles Chapter 11

Chapter 11

I woke up the next morning a little bit excited in the hopes that Gabi would be joining us. Sarah didn't say anything until we had gathered around for breakfast.

“I've decided that Gabi will be joining us today, so first order of the day is to get her ready. After we have finished breakfast we will need to go through some clothes and see what we can find that will fit her,” Sarah stated in a firm voice.

Sad Smiles Chapter 10

Chapter 10

The show was a great one. High Notes had gotten over their nerves that was quite noticable for the first few shows, and were gelling better and better. The Bleeding Heart Boys were their usual polished selves, but in the after party I could tell that Damon was in a depressed mood. I'm guessing Lisa had ripped into him again, after seeing Drew's hand and knowing the emotional trauma that he was suffering.

Sad Smiles Chapter 9

Chapter 9

I was the first to wake up the next morning. After our exhausting but very satisfying bedroom antics we had all ended up sleeping in the one double bed. Hardly enough room for two let alone four. I woke up on my side with my arm over Sarah, reaching far enough to lie on Gabi and Ellie's arm and leg were drapped over me.

Sad Smiles Chapter 8

Chapter 8

The next morning we were all feeling worse for wear. The only thing that any of us seemed to regret was the amount of alcohol we had consumed. I'm not sure I regretted even that, as last night probably wouldn't have happened without that lubrication. So, although we had headaches we all had smiles and little touches of affection.

Sad Smiles Chapter 7

Chapter 7

Author Note// This entire chapter is a sexual scene. Not done in ridiculous detail, but what goes on is very clear. If this is going to offend you, please don't read it.

Sarah called 'shot', so we all had another round.

“That is not a dare!” The drink was starting to get to me and certain, sexy, naughty thoughts were beginning to become thoughts that I wanted to share. “The traditional dare is a kiss, so pucker up.”

“Hey, not fair!” Sarah exclaimed. “He needs to kiss all of us, right Ellie.”

Sad Smiles Chapter 6

Chapter 6 Buffy's POV

I couldn't believe that arsehole. I saw it all. Drew was happy and considering he had so much to be sad about at the moment, that was a fricking miracle. And then that Neanderthal tried to crush his hand in some weird male dominance stupidity. I considered myself a dom, but this display reinforced my belief that dom and sub behaviour had nothing to do with gender, because that was some male shit that I was never going to understand.

Sad Smiles Chapter 5

Chapter 5 Aaron's POV

I can't deny, I was feeling a little bit frustrated. The concert went great and I was feeling really pumped. It was in the after party where we met our diehard fans that everything started going downhill. All my friends were starting to settle down, either in a steady relationship or married with kids.

Sad Smiles Chapter 4

Chapter 4 Drew's POV

I had to sit in the front as the girls got themselves ready for another concert. It was a strange contrast to how they acted after I had dressed female. I sort of understood it, as they were completely uninterested in my male body. I did get the impression that they were almost flaunting their bodies after my transformation. Buffy had even told me that I shouldn't look away when they were getting changed when I was also female.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 27

Chapter 27 Final Chapter

The journey was long and convoluted. It was way too long to do in one go and I couldn't offer to help since I couldn't drive. When I first woke up I found that we were parked in a rest area. Abby had leaned her chair right back and was sleeping. I manoeuvred my chair to go back as far as it could and dropped back to sleep myself.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 26

Chapter 26

I was feeling nervous and excited. It felt a little bit like a spy movie, sneaking away to escape an evil villain. Before Helen left she showed me a picture of her personal assistant, Abby, who would be the person waiting for me in the nearest stairway and gave me directions to get there. Because of the elevator system and the time of night, it was unlikely anyone would be using the stairs.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 24

Chapter 24

I slept on my side again with Jenny spooning me. This time she stroked me gently for a while, almost like our talk had given her permission to allow her to do what she had been wanting to do, but had been to scared to attempt. It was somewhere between comforting and slightly sexually charged. Maybe that was because in my mind I had agreed to start a relationship with her which means you open yourself to these types of experiences.

Sad Smiles Chapter 3

Chapter 3

Finding the right clothes for Drew was surprisingly difficult. I don't know whether it was because subconsciously I thought of him as a girl and my conversation with Sarah may have put similar thoughts in her head. Anyway, finding items that we all agreed on was an infrequent occurrence. It didn't help that he was not particularly forceful with his opinions and wanted to be lead by a female committee of fashionistas who couldn't make up their minds.

Sad Smiles Chapter 2

Chapter 2

I managed to get Drew in for a full body wax at the first beauty salon on my list. I was curious as to how he was going to react. He obviously looked like a guy and was entering a traditionally female establishment to get a procedure that was usually only done on women. I know times are changing and some guys have various areas waxed, but Drew had told me that he never had. He was a bit worried about the pain and was understandably nervous.

Sad Smiles Chapter 1

Sad Smiles

Chapter 1 Buffy's POV

This was going to be the best summer ever. Ellie's brother had hit the big time and their band High Notes was going to be the opening act for The Bleeding Heart Boys tour. We were going to follow the tour at least for the US and Canada section. We had passes to all the shows and an allotted parking space in all the locations for our RV. We were on our way travelling from Las Vegas to Phoenix where the first event was to take place.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 23

Chapter 23 Jesse's POV

I do wonder how much of attraction is psychological. Since Alison had mentioned it, I became very aware of when Jenny was looking at me and could feel the caring in her eyes. It didn't feel lustful or make me uncomfortable. I have noticed men looking at me in a certain way that almost made me want to take a shower. In Jenny's case, I felt like she really focussed on me, like what I said or did was really important.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 22

Chapter 22 Jesse's POV

I struggled to sleep again, but I was comforted by Alison and the knowledge that there was a guard outside my door. I did sleep, although it was more of a light dozing type sleep where I was sort of aware of the room around me and sleeping at the same time. I remember a nurse coming in to check on me and I am pretty sure we interacted and that I even spoke to her and yet, at the same time, I was asleep.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 21

Chapter 21 Helen Smith's POV

“So you're telling me that I have to prove my relationship to Jesse and even then I would have to prove that I am a better guardian than her grandfather?” I said irately to Karen's lawyer, Sheila.

I had arrived in Adelaide two hours ago, getting here as quickly as I could. After my meeting with Karen and Sheila I was jumping into a limo to travel to Mildura. I wanted to meet my niece immediately and every delay was irritating me. I couldn't believe the nonsense I was hearing. There had to be a way to protect Jesse.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 20

Chapter 20 Jesse's POV

By the time Belinda came back into the room we had finished our discussions and sorted out our plans. Tonight was the night. The girls wouldn't be able stay very long as they all had a part to play to enable my escape. That was alright since I wasn't very good company anyway. I was so emotional and cried when I thanked them for being such good friends. So when Belinda returned she found me lying on my side in my bed with all my friends gathered around me offering me comfort one way or another.

Publishing Star on Kindle

I will be publishing Star on Kindle and in order to have it in the Kindle unlimited category, I need to remove it from this site. I thought it would be nice to give advanced warning before I remove it and figured this would be the easiest way to do that. In two days (lunch time Wednesday Oz time) I intend to remove the word content. The only way I know how to do that is to edit each chapter and delete the words. If there is another, better method it would be great to know what it is.

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Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 19

Chapter 19 Rose's POV

Whilst I was waiting for Belinda to return, I took the opportunity to speak to the nurses at their desk.

“Hello, how can I help you?” said a young nurse behind the nurse's reception desk.

“I've just come from Jesse's room and I noticed that she seems very tired,” I replied.

“One second, I think there are some notes on that,” she said, as she read some notes. “You're right, she didn't sleep very well at all.”

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 18

Chapter 18

They all gave me so much love that I felt surrounded by it, but, in the end, they all had to leave. I told them that I would be alright and tried my best to put on a happy face. I'm not sure how convincing I was. The nurses tried to be just as reassuring. They promised me they would not let 'that man' come back into my room, and intellectually I could acknowledge that it was highly unlikely that they would allow another breach in hospital security. Emotionally was a different matter.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 17

Chapter 17

Rose sighed. “I've got some good news and some bad news. The bad news none of us really understand.” She breathed out heavily. “When we spoke to child protection here, they spoke about obvious child abuse, now the person who has taken over your case calls it mildly excessive force for a discipline technique.” She moved to hold my hand. “Don't panic, we are not going to allow that man to touch you again.”

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 16

Chapter 16 Jesse's POV

I was sore, embarrassed, angry and sad all at the same time. When I arrived at the hospital they gave me some medication for pain relief. I'm not sure whether I reacted to it funny or it was meant to make me feel stoned, but the next couple of hours were a real trip. My memory of the time is very foggy and I have no idea what I said.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 15

Chapter 15 Jenny's POV

I stared at the phone as if it could give me all the answers in the world and I really needed them right then. What was the right thing to do? Do I tell the adults? Do I ring child services? Maybe the lawyer that was representing Jesse. If I did any of that what were the chances of worse happening to Jesse before anything could be done. At least Lilith had promised to phone again tomorrow night.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 14

Chapter 14 Jesse's POV

I had no clothes except what I was wearing so it didn't surprise me when I was immediately sent off with Nona to get some more. With Papa already calling me Bob, I wasn't expecting any more dresses. I think I was supposed to be embarrassed about going into the men's department dressed as a girl, but I had fully accepted my truth, so I just thought they were being ridiculous.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 13

Chapter 13 Jesse's POV

I sat outside the courtroom while my fate was decided. This wasn't even for the full hearing or whatever they called it, just for temporary custody. The decision today was going to have a big impact on my life for the next four weeks. Intellectually I knew that this was really important, but emotionally, I felt numb. I was depressed and only when my friends managed to distract me or I was running was I able to pull myself out of my deep funk.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 12

Chapter 12

I had a great photo session with Mark on Wednesday and wanted to tell mum and the girls all about it. I managed to have a chat with Jenny but mum didn't answer her phone. At the time that didn't worry me too much, but when I couldn't get hold of her on Thursday, I started to worry. I tried to phone Karen and she was unavailable as well.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 11

Chapter 11

I slept well and woke up all excited. I think I was still buzzing because of the money I had received yesterday, let alone what I was going to earn over the next couple of days. I had spoken to mum last night and told her about the money and she was very happy for me. I heard her coughing a few times which worried me and she didn't want me to send any money immediately. Apparently, she had to be careful of money coming in, or the government would think she was still earning.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 10

Chapter 10 Jesse's POV

I was waiting for some time. The receptionist came to check on me occasionally and explained that because there was such a time pressure, they were trying to nut out a contract, then and there. When they had finished, Jim collected me and we travelled to Mark and Jean so that Mark could sign my contract as my guardian. I still had to sign it so I read it thoroughly, but it only seemed to confirm what Jim had told me earlier.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 9

Chapter 9 Philip Wright's POV Mildura Lawyer

I was meeting with Charles for the second time and not looking forward to it. Father Geffory had asked me to take on this case, so I knew I was doing the right thing. At the same time I knew the law and we would not be successful if Charles insisted on calling Bob a boy and telling the world that was why he needed full custody.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 8

Chapter 8 Jesse's POV

That night Marie showed me around her apartment. I was exhausted. I must have done twenty foot massages today. My hands and arms were getting tired after the third one, but they all seemed so eager and looking forward to it, that I couldn't say no. To help my hands, I varied my tasks with washing feet, playing with the toe joints and stroking as well as the main event which was to get the muscles to relax.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 7

Chapter 7 Marie's POV

I really wasn't sure what to think about having a young teenager living with me again. I had cleaned out Annalise's possessions including a very full wardrobe, not long after she had passed away. I couldn't bear to look at it all the time, yet, at the same time, I couldn't bring myself to throw it away. It now languished in the attic. That did mean that the room was easy to clean and get ready for another guest.

Who the hell am I? Book 2 Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Wednesday was a fun day. My run felt great, giving me a nice early morning buzz, then we were off to the salon. Another mani pedi with hair styling and full makeup. Then Jean took me to a designer friend of hers who treated me like her personal barbie doll. After that Mark joined us and we went to the beach.

Star Chapter 2

Chapter 2 Star's POV

I could hear a clutter of feet going down the stairs and then shortly afterwards Janice was coming towards me, smiling after she recognised me through the window in the door. Kayla was standing behind me. I didn't place her there, she was just a bit nervous, so she stayed behind me and then popped her head around me occasionally to see what was going on. It was so cute.

She opened the door. “Star, what happened, I was getting worried.” Then she noticed Kayla. “Oh, hello sweetie.”

My UEI (Unknown Entity Intervention) Epilogue

The Epilogue

I couldn't phone Chelle since she was in school, so I sent her a text saying I was back in the land of the living and looking forward to speaking to her. I did manage to speak to Gem. The real question was what to do about Eve and Laura. It was obvious that they both wanted to get together, I just needed to come up with something to get them over their self created barriers.

My UEI (Unknown Entity Intervention) Chapter 41

Chapter 41 Sophia's POV

I woke up and struggled to open my eyes. For some reason my eyelids were really heavy, but I managed to blink a few times and finally open them properly. I looked around trying to work out where the hell I was, who I was and even what the hell happened. The room was clearly a hospital room and it was empty. It being empty was comforting for some unknown reason.

My UEI (Unknown Entity Intervention) Chapter 40

Chapter 40 Sophia's POV

I had another great night sleep. Two in a row was a new record for me. Sleeping all the way through without waking and I could only put it down to Chelle being in my bed with me. I wish she could be there every night. Whether it was the great sleep, or the wonderful weekend that I had just had, I woke up with such a feeling of elation. My life was turning out to be amazing.

My UEI (Unknown Entity Intervention) Chapter 39

Chapter 39

We jumped into the limo and drove to my house. I was feeling nervous and a bit scared that mum was going to muck this up for me. On the other hand, Eve had this grin on her face, ready for a confrontation and looking forward to it. I think she was trying to keep me from freaking out by keeping a conversation going. We talked about music generally, favourite songs and artists.

My UEI (Unknown Entity Intervention) Chapter 38

Chapter 38 Chelle's POV

In the middle of the night I woke up, not quite sure what had awoken me. Then I felt Soph breathing fast, almost hyperventilating and occasionally twitching. I started stroking her and telling her that she was safe, that I was here to look after her and protect her and that her mum was nearby and wouldn't let anything bad happen to her.


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