Trismegistus Shandy

Two First Times

“If you’re sure... I don’t want to pressure you or make you feel like you owe me.”


“Tell me what you want,” I said. “I can’t promise I’ll do it, but I’ll at least consider it. And I won’t judge you for it.”


He was silent again. Then: “All right... promise not to laugh or freak out?”

You Could Go Home Again, part 16 of 16 (end)

“Come in... did it fall through, what you had planned with your friend who was coming back early...?”


“You’re the friend who was coming back early,” she said, putting her arms around me. “I love my family, but I’ve had enough of their chaperoning to last me a while.”

You Could Go Home Again, part 15 of 16

Katie had told me some about her family during our dates, and I pieced together more from what people said during the weekend. Katie’s dad had stayed male for the first five years after the Divergence, and he and Katie’s mom had married Gus a year or so afterward, who’d been his best friend, and changed into a woman right after the Divergence. Then five years ago, Katie’s dad became female as well, and rather than break up the family, they decided they’d all stay together and find another man, and if they took too long to find one, maybe one of them would turn male. They married Katie’s stepdad Iris a little over a year later, and things had been stable since then except for a couple of the children changing sex when starting a new grade.

You Could Go Home Again, part 13 of 16

I got the phone call just after lunch, and I was late to my next class, sitting in a restroom stall until I got my tears under control. I couldn’t concentrate to pay attention to my afternoon classes anyway; I might as well have skipped them.

You Could Go Home Again, part 12 of 16

“I’m ready,” I said firmly, though I wasn’t quite sure I was. I’d been on the birth control pills long enough for them to be effective, anyway, and if I didn’t do it now, I wouldn’t have the chance for months. Of course, once I was thousands of miles from the nearest Raleigh rabbit pheromones, I might not want to anymore... but I wasn’t thinking about that.

You Could Go Home Again, part 11 of 16

“If you go off and leave her alone while you dance, maybe you don’t deserve her.”


“She’s still my girlfriend even if we’re not glued at the hip every minute. Go away.”

You Could Go Home Again, part 10 of 16

“How far do you think you want to go this time?”


“I still can’t have sex,” I said. “But... I wouldn’t mind if Larry put his hands on me, in some more exciting places than my hands and shoulders... and I’d like to touch him more too...?”

You Could Go Home Again, part 08 of 16

“I’m not an expert on Raleigh rabbit body language, but I’ve been here long enough to figure out that when your ears are twitching like that, something’s wrong. You’re nervous about something.”

You Could Go Home Again, part 07 of 16

“Look,” I said, “I know this is a shock to you, and maybe I’m expecting too much for you to get over it in a day or so. God knows it’s taken me several months to get used to the idea of being a girl... But what about if we pause the game, and you just stare at me for as long as it takes for you to get it out of your system? Instead of, you know, glancing at me out of the corner of your eye and then trying to pretend you weren’t looking.”

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You Could Go Home Again, part 06 of 16

“It’s okay if you call me a boy and ‘he’,” I said. “Or girl and ‘she’, either way. I’m wearing skirts for now but I think I’ll go back to pants when I stop growing and can buy stuff that will fit me long-term.”

You Could Go Home Again, part 05 of 16

Later, when we were getting ready for bed, Radhika said: “So, has my brother made another conquest?”


“No,” I said, my ears twitching. “He’s... I guess he’s kind of hot, but he’s too old for me.”

You Could Go Home Again, part 04 of 16

“I thought I was getting used to the idea of being a girl, but... I guess I wasn’t as used to it as I thought.”


“Hmm. You said you’d wanted to be a boy. Why do you care which you are?”


“I was a boy before the Divergence. And... I’ve lived as a boy ever since, even though I technically wasn’t. My aunt and uncle and all the kids at school treated me like a boy, and the idea of being a girl is hard to get used to even though I’ve known for a long time that it might happen.”

You Could Go Home Again, part 03 of 16

“It’s official,” I told Amy when I got back from the shower. “I’m going to be a girl.”


“Oh,” she said, and then she came over and sat next to me on my bed. “Are you going to be okay?”


“I... I think so. It’s something to have the uncertainty out of the way. I don’t know how much longer it’s going to take before I have to start wearing bras and, um, and tampons. And start noticing boys.” Or maybe girls, but that wasn’t likely.

You Could Go Home Again, part 02 of 16

“It’s too late to back out. Even if I got on a train to Nebraska tomorrow, I’ve still been exposed to enough Raleigh rabbit pheromones that I’m going to go through puberty one way or another.”

You Could Go Home Again, part 01 of 16

“And be sure to tell us as soon as you know how you’re changing,” Aunt Ellen said, an anxious look on her face.


“Of course.”


“And... if you develop into a girl, be sure to remember everything I told you.”

You Could Go Home Again


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Joel is eighteen, and just about to start college. But he hasn't gone through puberty yet because he grew up in isolation from others of his species. He's looking forward to growing up and developing a gender and a sexual orientation, though he's a bit apprehensive that he might be a girl; that could take some getting used to.

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I knew I had to obey, but he’d been pretty vague, so I changed myself into a girl I didn’t think he would be attracted to: acne-scarred, scraggly-haired, and flat-chested. But he wasn’t satisfied, of course; he gave me detailed specs on his ideal woman, and I changed myself to match.

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Wanderer and Homebody, part 6 of 6

“Mom said supper’s almost ready, but I think I’ve got time to scrub the toilets...”




She shrugged. “They’ve been used several times since this morning. And Craig has terrible aim.”

Wanderer and Homebody, part 5 of 6

“This name origin stuff isn’t as helpful as I thought it might be. About half of the names seem to mean ‘good’ or ‘pretty’ and it’s one thing for parents to name their precious newborn something like that, but it would be arrogant for me to call myself ‘Agatha’ or ‘Jolie’ or whatever. Not that I like the sound of ‘Agatha’ anyway, but, you know.”

Wanderer and Homebody, part 4 of 6

“The usual punishments don’t work,” Steve said. “No sense giving her extra chores when she’s already doing way more than her share, or grounding her when she doesn’t want to go anywhere and she’s quit playing games or watching TV on her own. I said we should stop her from cleaning something, but —”

Wanderer and Homebody, part 2 of 6

When we went out clothes-shopping, she didn’t fuss about trying on bras or skirts, or insist on buying only jeans, like some people. And you saw how she was dressed, just now — she picked that out herself. But we didn’t have time to buy very much because she got so anxious about the housework she’d left undone.

Wanderer and Homebody, part 1 of 6

“Jack, it’s Mindy. Tim has — gone through a Twist. You promised you’d come if — when — it happened...”


“I’ll be there.”

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This story is set, with Morpheus' kind permission, in his Twisted universe.
It's a sequel of sorts to my earlier novel Twisted Throwback, but it
should stand alone tolerably well (though it features three characters
from Twisted Throwback). Thanks to Morpheus for his feedback
on the rough draft.

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The Other Half of My Soul, part 09 of 11

“Well, that was a complete waste of time,” Taylor said. “Do you know why the Knowing One used an illusion instead of a transformation when he came to see the portal here in the women’s quarters?”


“Um, I thought we’d decided that was because he’s a wuss?”

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We sat up and stretched our arms and wings. “Okay, we’re up,” we said with both mouths, and were sorry when we saw Taylor’s startled, worried look.

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Taylor looked so worried and guilty that I had to give her a hug. “Come on. We can’t do anything until we talk to the Gray One, but for now, you need to relax. How about a game of — Tag! You’re it.”

The Other Half of My Soul, part 06 of 11

I know it’s bad manners to laugh at one’s own jokes, especially hoary old chestnuts like that, but Serenikha’s amusement poured through our link so strongly that I couldn’t suppress my giggles for more than a moment, and then we kept setting each other off.

The Other Half of My Soul, part 05 of 11

“I like being a nagini well enough, just on the physical level, but — well, I don’t know how other people in my country will react.... Even if people are getting used to seeing magical stuff happen, they might stare at me a lot.”

The Other Half of My Soul, part 04 of 11

The guards wouldn’t let the Knowing One in to the women’s quarters, though, until he transformed himself into a woman, or maybe put on an illusion of being a woman; I had a suspicion it was the latter, given how fast the change was effected and the way “she” walked.

The Other Half of My Soul, part 02 of 11

“Shall I go and turn him over to the guard? Or castrate him myself?”

“Take him somewhere else first,” one of the other women pleaded. “I can’t stand the sight of blood.”

The Other Half of My Soul, part 01 of 11

My psychic link with Serenikha had held steady all through high school, growing no stronger but no weaker, ever since my first trip to her world. I still shared dreams with her, and I still had occasional moments of aphasia, where I couldn’t think of a word in English, only in one of Serenikha’s languages. And then, my first semester in college, it suddenly seemed to get a lot weaker — I shared no dreams at all with her, and had much less aphasia than usual.

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Nora and the Nomads, part 4 of 4

They put one last pan of cookies in the oven, and Nora concentrated for a few moments on the way she wanted them to look, feel and taste before pulling them out again. “All ready,” she announced after taking a bite of a snickerdoodle. “Let’s go.”

Nora and the Nomads, part 3 of 4

The minotaur in the petting zoo was an adorable toddler-calf, at least the last time Nora had seen him — not this creature out of nightmares. And at his side, there was something even more terrible, a vast maw full of fangs and slavering tongues with no body attached; it hovered along keeping pace with the minotaur and its prey. “This won’t do,” Nora said.


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