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Happy Solstice!

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The solstice marks the beginning of summer on our calendars, but back when people thought about these things differently, the longest day of the year was called "Midsummer." Whether you call it Litha or Midsummer (or, for my antipodean friends, the start of THAT season), I hope that yours was lovely.

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Reading Your Own Stories Aloud

I've had enough of my complaining off topic about the sins of Micro Soft and the billionaires who victimize us.

After pecking away in MS Word today at "Andromeda Smith" I was feeling doubtful that it was any good, and started to read it out loud to myself, then found out that the software will do it for you. So, after I sat there and listened to the less than 1000 words, any flaws just jumped out at me. The AI that does this is rather limited in places so I don't know how I can get it to interpret stretched out pauses, that I would normally write as ...

This is fun.

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My Computer not MicroSoft

Last week MS automatically installed two new programs on my computer without my permission. A year earlier I turned Win updates off via Registry Edit. Somehow with reboots over the past year Win 10 refreshed all it's command prompts for Win startup. I didn't catch it as it was stealth. The programs MS installed last week was MS Edge and One Drive. I only noticed because my HD was running excessively. Started a search for the guilty program taking up loads of memory and HD intercepts. It turned out to be MS Edge and One Drive. Searched for the install date and it was last week.

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Allison Zero - State of Play in a WIP - (as of Part 12)

Allison Zero is turning out a little longer than I expected. Maybe 35/40%-ish extra to get to the point Part 12 makes it now, at least according to standard sci-fi novel word counts. Although I have added some elements that should make the later parts of the novel more accessible, as well as to answer the primary medical transition questions — which I decided not to hold back on quite as much. Part 12 is, though, a significant turning point, something I’ll deal with later in this blog.

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May 2024 Anniversary Contest Follow-up

Sorry for the delay on this folks!

So as of Saturday night the contest was officially closed. But what does that mean for things from here on out?

We'll be giving everyone 2 weeks to catch up on stories from the contest, and later this week I'll create a blog with all the stories linked just to make them extra easy for people to check out.

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I'm back

I have been away doing some Army things for the last two weeks. I wanted to assure those that read my stories that I am continuing to write. I am starting off this week by working on Chapter 9 for Change of fate. I appreciate all your support while I continue on this journey.

Kisses Su Shi

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Not Real Fun

I can't say what has happened to the Internet. I thought it was only in the last two weeks, but it may have been actually going on for much longer. ONE person has actually reached out to me, offering help and I gave them all my contact information.

It's been nearly 20 years, and along the way several people have asked for help, and I have done my best to respond. I've tried very hard to be responsive to the site administrators. The record is there, if they kept any.

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Quantum Leap in Life.

Sadly, every interaction I have recently had with those on BCTS and elsewhere shows that most or all of those who use any sort of computer technology are simply unaware of the shake out we have recently experienced. It has been a huge education for me. Some of those I have talked to have been quite blunt and tactless, treating me like I am an idiot.

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2 encouraging dreams

I had 2 rather encouraging dreams last night.

In the first one, I was in a contest where I had to climb up what looked like a life-size pinball machine.

In the second one, I was back in university and realized I had forgotten to write down the location of one class, so I went to the office to get it.

So what was encouraging?

In the first time, I wasn't afraid to take a breath and plan each step I took.

In the second I wasn't afraid or ashamed of asking for help when I needed it.

and that's encouraging.

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Had a fun interaction on social media

I was recently in a discussion on line, and I was called a 'snowflake.' Here is what happened:

Holly Snow

Thank you for the wonderful compliment! I am a proud snowflake, unique and beautiful.

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Holly Snow actually, that's a pretty good come back. You got me. Enjoy your day.

I would love for more people to embrace the term 'snowflake,' and respond like this.

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Being Who You Are

It is profound to me that some are just busy about being who they are no matter what the self-proclaimed experts say. We all know them, and it is not about gender, though sometimes it is. They are just born that way. Some born leaders, some are followers, some are healers and others are warriors. Some have a high need for order knit right into their souls, so are police whether there is a badge or not. Some tear clocks apart all their lives. There are those here who are Wordsmiths and others want to be...

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May 2024 25th Anniversary Contest Ends Saturday!

Just a friendly reminder that the contest ends in only a few days!

If you still have a story you want to enter, then here's a reminder of the rules. We've had a couple entries that break the rules so far, and we'll be giving them an honorable mention when it comes time to list the contest stories.

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Ladies GTG

I’m inviting you to my weekly Sunday Zoom meeting. Only trans women are invited. If you have an invite feel free to invite others I include a link to my local time standard so that you might match it up to yours, Some of the ladies in the past are from Great Britain and Germany. Most of them are writers who post stories on a Big Closet Top Shelf. Though that this is no way a requirement.

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Lynn Conway has Passed Away

This breaks my heart as I loved this lady so damn much for what she has done for all of us who were caught up in the gender-blender. I conversed with her many times and she was so sweet to take the time to talk or text me. My only desire left in this world was to meet this amazing lady before I checked out. Lots and lots of tears, I'm going to miss her so damn much.
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/lynn-conwa...

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some good news to share

Well, I have some good news to share.

First, I got the results of the CT scan done on my brain back, and it showed no signs of damage or anything. While that is good, it means we still don't know why I have word drop and brain farts.

Second, I am now on stage 2 of dealing with my dentures, which means I can now have solid (if soft) foods.

Step by step, I do what I can, and its great to make progress.

huggles for everybody

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Help a writer out!

I wanted to share something that's been on my mind. I've now published over fifteen times on BCTS, and it's been a bit disheartening.

All I desire is for people to enjoy my work and share their thoughts. If there's something I'm not doing right, I'd really appreciate your feedback to help me improve. Is it the type of stories I write? My writing style? My charachters? It's tough not getting much help on that front.

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Every Woman is Not a Beauty Queen

Sometimes it is funny to bring them up to speed if done right. Yesterday I was picking up goat panel from Atwoods, a farm and ranch store. Each panel is five feet wide, sixteen feet long of four inch by four inch welded, grade six rod. They sent one guy out to load it. Not happening so it was up to him and me. One had to be there to see the problem and understand. I'm five five, picking up my end of that panel meant I had to climb up on the pile, pick up my end, slide it off to the side, get down, help put it up on the flat bed, and do that all over before the next panel.

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Aria Book Three is out!

I’m very excited to announce that Doppler Press has just published the third book of Aria, Bring Down the Curtain. Cami’s efforts to juggle staying in the closet at work, planning her eventual transition, and settling into a new living arrangement were hard enough. But as the calendar ticks over into March of 2020, the world grinds to a halt, and the global pandemic changes everyone’s plans. Here’s the link: Bring Down the Curtain.

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Less than two weeks left in the 25th anniversary contest!

That's right folks, we've got less than two weeks left on our 25th Anniversary story contest!

I'll admit, I'm a little disappointed we haven't had more entries so far. For such a big event, and with us wanting to go fairly big for prizes, I was expecting a lot more interest. That said, at least part of that has to be on me, since I haven't been pushing it particularly hard.

THAT BEING SAID!

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I could loan you a black cami

We had to go to my grandson's wedding this last Saturday. As family we were invited to the rehearsal dinner on Friday as well as the wedding. It was a three hour round trip to the venue. We decided to spend the night. As we were packing for the two events. My wife was dithering over what to wear. She picked out a nice top but the neck line was a little loose and she was concerned about "down the blouse" views if she bent over a little and was wondering what she could wear under. I offered:

"I could loan you a black cami."

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Attraction

In working my way through "A Change Of Orders", the idea of sexual attraction has reared its ugly head. As a an author, and post op, there is no physical attraction, at all. No male, or female that I have wanted has passed through my life. My body seems completely immune to responding to even a simple 'wank'.

I'm about halfway through the story and the subject of attraction has come up and the protagonist has the same view as I. Does this mean that a complete lack of erotic response is not uncommon? Is this a new direction in stories?

Gwen

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"I'm the fuse, she's the bomb"

I have to share my latest dream, while I still remember it.

In the dream, I was on a quest, and had gathered a group of people to be part of it.

Once the group was assembled, I told them that one of them, a young woman, had a connection to me and to what was going to happen

I told them, "I'm the fuse. She's the bomb."

I didn't seem upset about this. In fact I told the girl, "Come on, lets go boom"

Then I told them we had to get to a certain location up on top of a hill on the outskirts of the city, and we began to travel.

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The Casa Susanna weekends

I might just be the last person to learn about this and I know the place and people have been mentioned on here before.
This morning I found a BBC video about the wonderful past getaway place for crossdressers in the Catskills. I hope those interested can get to this:

Casa Susanna programme 93 minutes, personal stories, many pictures.

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The Psychology of Transgender Stories

I went for a long leisurely ride today that stretched to over 2 hours. I've an ebike so there is no justification for saying it was in any sense of the word, "athletic". Along the way part of the time, I mused about why authors write TG stories, real or fiction. There have to be dozens of different motivations. No time was wasted on sussing out the reason for pre-pubescent incidence. Thinking about it now, is it genetic, environmental, resulting from abuse, who can say. Not to criticise, I am sure that some stories lend to wanking off. Questions, questions ....

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At Last Something Uplifting About US Transgender kids

It seems transgender children are the easiest target for the self-righteous rightwing parties to target, so it's good to read a positive story for once. It may only be a drop in the ocean of hate that seems to exist these days, but it made me feel glad that someone is trying.Here is a link to the Guardian report:https://www.theguardian.com/society/article/2024/may/29/tran...

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adventures with dentures

So on Thursday, I got all my top teeth removed, and my dentures installed.

The reason they put the dentures in right away is they use them as kind of a bandage, to protect the area from infection, and keep the shape of my mouth the same as it heals

So the last couple days have been kinda less than fun, but I'm slowly getting better,

Anyway, hugs still appreciated.

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If You Drive

The world has changed from hardly ever meeting anyone on the highways to a constant stream both ways. X amount of years back I never gave it a second thought about things going belly up. Different times I asked strangers who stopped to call Daddy and tell him where I was and what went wrong. Broken axle, lost duals on a Bobtail, tractor lost it's axle and rear tire, front axle fell out, rear tire on PU threw all it's rubber off, and so many others lost in time and memories.

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How much fun can a girl have?

So I was having some pain in a tooth that was damaged many years ago by a 2x4 and a truck axel. I went on vacation the beginning of April, and while on vacation, I started having more and more pain, and even started getting daily headaches. To make a long story short, I had an abscess in the gum, and the infection was causing bone loss. Now, I've got a nice 2 tooth gap in my mouth, and I keep sing "all I want for Christmas is my two front teeth."

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discord

looks like my discord is not going to be working for while .someone in the Philippines hacked my account and was using it to send out spam . they are investigating it but there is a chance discord will end up doing an ip ban as this has been going on for along time with out my knowledge .i spent 4 hours working with discord support it may take several days to fix this .in the mean time my discord is locked so no access .

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too many characters?

I have an idea for the 25th anniversary story contest. The problem for me is that it will mean writing twenty or more characters. I don't like writing "spear carriers". I try to have some feeling of every person in the story even if it isn't obvious (Did anyone catch the leather biker's "craft" magazine in The Worst Day?). I'm afraid of having four people and a bunch of cutouts. That's the kind of story I have trouble finishing. How do any of you deal with making secondary characters real?

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As the years roll by...

There are a number of unfinished stories here that I would dearly love to see completed. As the years roll by, however, there are two for which I constantly look for status updates and new episodes; Catwalk Confidence by Connie Alexander and Sarah Carerra by Megan Campbell.

Kelly Shannon Driscoll

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May 2024 25th Anniversary Contest: Just Over 3 Weeks Left!

The contest is now live! You can find the tag above, and I'm excited to see your entries!

For many of us BCTS is a huge part of our lives, or has helped us pull through rough times thanks to the community and stories the site has helped to foster.

Well, what better way to show our appreciation of that than a 25th anniversary contest?

Yep, that's right -- BigCloset turns 25 in June! And to celebrate, we want to give back to the community with some prizes and a contest.

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Story Suggestions

It's just after 3:30 am here, so around 11:30 am in the UK, and I'm thinking about some of the stories I have most enjoyed. Of course, it goes without saying that "Bike" is one. "Twice Removed" was another. "Somewhere Else Entirely" is one... My mind is too foggy this time of day for perfect recall of dozens of others... "Deception Of Choice" came at a time when I needed it and it probably saved my life. Stories of 'Pete' have provided a welcome distraction.

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User interface woes

I'm getting confused by the checkbox at the bottom of the new story submission page, I think.

It's labelled 'Ongoing' but it also says "Click to mark as completed story", so is that a 'yes' or a 'no'?

I never submit incomplete stories, but a tick against 'Ongoing' appears to apply a flag called 'Completion'. But there's also a way to toggle 'ongoing' when viewing the story itself, so, uh...?

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Cara Malone plays piano... well... kind of...

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So, for any of you out there who remember my far too wordy musically indulgent story, No Half Measures, and who wonder what Cara Malone on piano might have sounded like, if you are bored and have nothing else to do, then you could check out a little video of Cara's muse - aka Jenny - having a go on the ivories.

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Home Again and Cancer Free, for now...

Hello friends. I am now home from Cobb WellStar Hospital, two tumors and a fair amount of intestine lighter. But the cancer is now out of me and we have some breathing space to plot the battle. From here, it will be 6 months of chemo to be sure anything too small to have been seen is dead and once we're sure of that, a follow up surgery to repair my lightened intestines.

Tired, sore, beat up and sobered.

Almost died on the table, but thanks to the quick thinking and decisiveness of my surgeon, I'm still here and home. And I got news an old college buddy my age died.

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Reading recomendation: The Opus Magnus of Teddie S.

After having shared on one of the first “BCTS Recommends” at the start of this year (2024) among others the Opus Magnus of Teddie S. with the title Tommy - The Trials and Tribulations of a Girl?, I decided to dig up this story and re-read it. It is truly a Opus Magnus, counting 253 chapters and approximately 1,400,000 words. So buckle up for the long haul!

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Too Lazy For Biking Kit

Too lazy to dress properly to ride my bike, so I just stayed in my Ankle length A line skirt, a top, with a pretty flowery Jacket, and of course HELMET. Of course my ebike has a drop frame, so my exhibitionistic efforts were not as blatant as I had hoped. I went into a market for some goodies, and a woman told me she had not seen a woman in a skirt on a bike since Amsterdam. :)

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Off tomorrow

So I'm off to the big smoke tomorrow to have some work done in the body shop (on Thursday morning).

Regrettably I won't be getting the body I want, nor will I have any desirable mods. Just a decoke and some pipework replaced.

I should be back on Monday 20th but I don't know if I'll be in any fit state to login that day. Or maybe even the next, who knows?

Anyhoo, I won't be looking at BC from now on for a while, so I would suggest not adding comments.

Penny

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Moonstruck by Tosca and Carmen

I remember watching the movie Moonstruck starring Nicholas Cage and Cher in 1987 when it first was released, probably by streaming. It remains a very good movie. And a key part of the plot is when after an over-night fling Ronny (Nicholas Cage) promises to never bother Loretta (Cher) again if she attends a performance of La bohème at the Met with him. Loretta is deeply moved by the opera and eventually breaks up with Johnny (Danny Aiello) and accepts Ronny’s proposal.

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Looking for another story

Ok all will tell what I remember it starts out a boy goes to Florida to stay with friends or family ends up dressing as a girl acts in a Christmas elf meets a rich family and goes out with the son there is a chase and caught on film becomes known back at home stays a girl and goes back home and has to deal with the kids at school as a girl that's all I remember think it was on fiction mania not sure
Charlize

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Long Time coming.

I’ve been on BCTS for just over 8 years now. I’ve been here through the struggles, I’ve seen a lot. I’ve met a lot of people in this community and tried my hand at writing and never really got the feel for it.

This post is one I really didn’t want to ever have to make. But as I sit here typing this up at past 1 am this morning, reminiscing about all the things I tried to do and failed. I’ve made friends and I have my enemies. Newer people probably don’t even know who I am and that’s ok with me. Im from a different era of the site.

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Online Scammers

I've been debating this blog post for most of the week, but I believe it needs doing as a warning to folks who may need it.

Before I go on, I must preface with a few details about my father - he's a brilliant man, a scientist, full of great heart and wisdom. He is now in his 80s and he still does meaningful work for a university. But my mom was lost to us a year and a half ago (has it already been that long??), and he is beginning to really feel his age - and at times says he feels lost in a world that has changed so much from what he's known.

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