I am ashamed

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I haven't posted in a while because I am ashamed of myself. When my internet went out mid July I thought it was going to be a month or so to get it fixed. My roommate would not hear of using my phone to tether the net to my computer to my phone (in her world the phone is better) I snapped I tried to hurt myself with a fork in what amounts to a temper tantrum. It shocked me to something closer to sanity. I didn't succeed because I was not serous, like I said it was a temper tantrum, pure and simple.

So instead I called Frontier Communications and promised them as a bored paralyzed woman with nothing else to do in life but call them each and every day early in the morning to check on the progress, which I did. It was fixed within a week. Turned out some hardware on their end had died. Funny how that works. They now know my name and life story. They never did send the email survey they kept promising me? I wonder why? I was so looking forward to it too.

Since then I have used my newfound skill with my insurance provider. Used the same line and technique, it worked there too.If bureaucracies realize they can't wear you down they will move, albeit very slowly.Being very lonely I liked to talk, I did everything but asked them, Will you be my friend? Their call log showed I had been their the day before and I promised them in all sincerity I would be back tomorrow. I also kept a call log and would refer back to the people I talked to and when. Most effective. Was I a bad nag?

Since then I have gotten much more serious about exercise, my abs are responding nicely. I stand by myself at the sink then slowly lower myself back into the chair it gives my arm and core a great workout both legs are sore whilst I go to sleep. Sleep better and deeper too. Still fighting the killer depression, The nightmares as I am going to sleep are not helping. I am looking forward to the psychologist visit, Will he/she be my friend?

On a side note could someone please explain how to display images (pictures in posts here on BC?

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Here's a link

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https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/blog/15860/school-hard-knocks...

A later addition to this is that there is another way to get to the upload screen now. Above the Edit window there are buttons to use various macros. The button that looks like a miniature painting of a sunset will bring up the add image menu mentioned in the above link.

Hugs,
Erin

= Give everyone the benefit of the doubt because certainty is a fragile thing that can be shattered by one overlooked fact.

You had a stroke?

Recovery from one of those is hard, and I think that you have been doing marvelously. Most of us have some dark days, some worse than others, so please don't be hard on yourself.

Hi ho hiho, off to the Dentist I go ... Have a better day, OK?

Gwen

Funny thing about dreams and nightmares.

It is _extremely_ dependent on your legs to head direction when you sleep.
It is quite individual, but when my head points west or north I get strange dreams boarding on nightmares, like me running around with machinegun trying to avoid bad guys, or nuclear fallouts or just some gluei feeling slow and disturbing dreams.
If my heads points east or south, bright interesting entertaining dreams (makes me oversleep sometimes as it is more interesting to watch the next bit of dream, than to shutdown the alarm...).
Also, belly, back, left or right side add different kinds of flavor to the dreams...
So to my strange advice.
Just move your pillow to the other end of bed. Try sleeping with your head pointing in the opposite to you usual direction for several days. There is no guarantees, but it is very easy to try. If it does not help... It was not too much of the effort. If it helps - then the trouble comes - total repositioning of the furniture in the room is a major scare even for the young and healthy people...