A Step, a BIG one

Today, I took a very big step. I opened my front door and stepped outside dressed as myself.

That isn't completely accurate. I was wearing a dress, a bra with breasts, necklace, and tights. Now, on top of that, I was wearing jeans, and a men's shirt. The dress was tucked up in my coat in such a way no one could tell I was wearing it. I drove to my therapist, took the covering layers off. put on some earings, and changed shoes into some mary janes. After the session, I didn't put the covering back on, only my coat. I walked out to my car and drove home.

Scared? I was petrified.

Uncomfortable? Not for a second.

I am almost 49. I have lived in the gender of my body, with a mismatched mind. Today is the first time in my life that I have gone beyond the beyond the boundaries of my house. It will not be the last, but this is only my first baby step as I learn to walk (talk, dress, act, etc.). I must take down the wall that I have been building for 49 years. Not an easy task.

Wish me Luck.

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