Some of you know I'm a pastor. I've been available to anyone who needs me. Usually I've been able to say something reassuring, helpful, etc... Now it's me, I'm feeling adrift, and unable to control the way my life is moving.

Some facts. First, I'm not taking any hormones, second, I've been actively losing weight.

My dilemna. My doctor gave me spironalactone to help control my blood pressure. Yes I knew gynecomastia was a possiblity. It was something I'd watched for, asking my wife, especially after things got really sensitive in my breasts. Constantly my wife has said nothing's happening. Then last night she saw my naked chest and exclaimed, "Your boobs are bigger than mine!" doh.

Not only are they approaching the size of hers (though I'm already a bigger cup size), they are getting VERY sensitive. A bra will soon be a requirement, not just a fashion choice.

She has been more supportive than I have any right to expect. She suggested living for a year as a woman; which is exactly what my next step in transition. We have been planning (more or less) a cruise in 2014 with our best friend.

She is now (post boob talk) asking me how I'm going to tell her mom and family. Things are getting scary, and she has been talking with her friend. The question now is will I be included in the cruise.

I am looking to have my right ankle operated on later this month. That means the earliest I can actually begin RLT is Feb/Mar. That is what I've been planning.

Nevertheless, things are happening faster than I can understand.

Any prayers, or good thoughts are really appreciated.

With Love, Hugs, and Blessings,

Beth