“Hey!”
Teri smiled. She was staring at Jenn. A few minutes ago, she’d been having a moment with Grace that had left her breathless. Minutes later, she greeted Jenn and Gina outside the Comcast Building and tried to act normal.
Thinking about the word normal, she realized nothing would ever be normal. In less than six months, everything had been flipped on its head. Male, female, intersex! Twelfth grade, rock band, record, band house, girlfriend, new friends, new body bursting from within! Terry to Tasha to Teri!
“Hey!” She tried hard to focus on Jenn and smile. Act normal, act normal, she said to herself. She kept trying not to look at Grace. When Grace had been discussing her relationship with Gina, she’d talked about true love and separating that from sex. She remembered Grace smiling and saying the difference between the two of them was that she was discreet.
Discreet! Teri kept reminding herself to be discreet about what happened with Grace. But what did just happen? They held hands, an innocent enough gesture. But something seriously happened to me, she thought.
Jenn got very close. Looking into her eyes, she said, “Are you all right? You seem strange. Is something wrong?”
Teri shook her head. “No, not really. I’m just a little shaken. We did some role play and I’m still feeling kinda lost. I’m okay. How are you doing?”
Jenn linked her arm with Teri’s. She pulled her along. “We’re going to lunch with beautiful Grace and wild Gina! C’mon, babe. It’s gonna be fun.”
Teri turned and focused on Jenn. “What did you and Gina talk about?”
“Sex!” Jenn had a big grin on her face.
“Huh?” Teri realized she wasn’t paying attention.
“Just checking to see if you’re paying attention. But we did talk about sex. Gina was giving me pointers and even offered to play with me!”
Teri almost choked and started coughing. “For real?”
Jenn squeezed her hand. She leaned over and whispered, “Why not? You and Gina have plenty of time!”
Teri drank a whole glass of water as they sat in a booth. She knew her eyes were wide open, like saucers! She wanted to say something, but everything was spinning. “Uh, Jenn. For real?”
Teri watched her shrug. Then she held up the menu. “Isn’t this place cool? Gina said it was Grace’s favorite.”
She looked at the menu. The place was called Say Cheese! She smiled. Grace had just mentioned that she wanted something gooey at the end of their session. Teri was still trying to understand what had happened. They’d just held hands, but she had an orgasm staring at Grace’s face. Teri also knew that it was their secret.
She scanned the menu and saw macaroni and cheese with options like truffles, lobster, crab, and even bacon. There were grilled cheese sandwiches with assorted toppings. There were pasta dishes with cheese, a cheese soufflé, risotto, a white pizza, fondue, and cheddar grits. So many things all anchored by cheese. “This place is crazy!”
As the waitress took their order, Teri watched everyone else and finally chose the mac and cheese with bacon.
She leaned over to Jenn. “Seriously, you and Gina?”
Jenn smiled. “You know. I figured it could only add to our relationship. I mean, you and I, we’re both innocents. I mean, all we bring to our relationship is what we’ve fumbled around and discovered. Maybe we should play with Gina and see what we can learn together.”
Teri stared at her. “You know, you’re the smartest person I’ve ever met and are probably right. But you move twice as fast as I do, and my whole session with Grace was about helping me figure out how to communicate with you. Sometimes, I feel like a sheep following Mary around.”
Jenn leaned over and kissed her. “I love sheep. But seriously, honey, I live for you. And I’m sorry that you feel uncomfortable trying to deal with my hyperactive brain functions. But you’re right! I never want to make you feel uncomfortable or pressured. I knew you looked strange when I first saw you after your session. I sensed something had thrown you, but I figured we’d get to it later. But, seriously, how about doing something with Gina?”
Teri shook her head.
Jenn leaned in and whispered. “How many times have you been intimate with Gina? I counted three. The Saturday morning when you were under the covers. You told me that she rode you like a pony. And then you had your group thing with Gina and Bruno getting high while you got your tattoo. And then the time I told you to cheer her up, you said you did it on the movie set in a theater.”
Teri was thankful that their food had come. She picked up a soup spoon and dug in. This was, without a doubt, the cheesiest, most flavorful delight she’d ever had, but her appetite was quickly fading. Looking over at Jenn, she was pleased to see that her grilled cheese sandwich was keeping her occupied.
Teri snuck a glance over at Grace and Gina as they ate. She wondered what Grace was saying to Gina and if discretion meant that Grace was not revealing what had happened between them upstairs. Really, it was only sitting close together and handholding. She knew that when Grace had held her hands tightly, her insides had exploded and melted.
“Honey, what’s wrong?” Jenn was turned and looking at her curiously.
“Uh, nothing. It’s this Gina thing. You make sense. But it may be easier for you to do something with Gina one-on-one rather than the two of us together.
Jenn leaned over and purred in her ear. “Oh, baby. Wouldn’t you want to be in on it too? In my mind, I kinda pictured the two of you sending me over the moon. I was kinda getting excited. Is that okay to tell you?”
Teri shook her head. “Well, it does reveal a side of you that I wasn’t expecting. Now it makes me wonder if your encouragement for me to explore with other people, especially guys, was because that’s what you wanted to do.”
Jenn turned bright red. She was quiet. “This might not be the right place to discuss this, but it’s kinda true. I want my cake and eat it too. I want you forever, but I still wonder about just having crazy sex. You know, for some reason, the idea of a group scene, well, gets me all hot and bothered. Does it scare you when I talk like that?”
Teri shook her head and sighed. “It makes sense. I want to love you forever, but I know I’m inadequate. My libido is strange and quirky. I wish I was closer to normal, where I could give you what you need. And maybe there’s another person who you might find to love. I wish I could satisfy your needs.” She had to take a deep breath and stop a tear from appearing in her eye.
She stared at Jenn and thought about it. “Okay. You’re being honest, and so I will be, too. This seems to be very important to you. I will go if you want to arrange for the three of us to be together. And if you want to explore being with other partners, that's fine. I will be there for you.”
Tears started flowing from Jenn’s eyes as she stared at Teri. She shook her head and used her linen napkin to wipe her eyes, making sure her mascara didn’t smudge.
In the meantime, Grace and Gina had already stood up. When they looked over, Gina explained, “Grace needs to get back to work. Since Jenn and I came together, how about you two finish up while I walk her back to her office?"
They watched the two of them walk away. Jenn turned and said, “I wonder what Grace is like? She’s so beautiful.”
Teri was thinking the same thing. “So I guess it’s settled. It’s a threesome.”
Jenn squeezed her hand. “You really sound resigned to do this. Aren’t you the least bit interested?”
Teri smiled and kissed her. “If I can pick up some pointers to make you happier, I’m game. But my little orgasms are so nothing compared to a woman’s.”
Jenn said, “How about if we get high first?”
Teri shrugged. “Fine.”
When Gina appeared, she smiled and walked straight up to Teri. “Oh, my God. I love that woman. I don’t think I could live without her.”
Teri nodded. “I feel the same way about Jenn. But Jenn tells me we’re going to have a threesome. How does that make you feel?”
Gina looked carefully at Teri. “Uh, you’re not grinning from ear to ear. Aren’t you excited to play with me again?”
Teri sighed. “It’s not that, Gina. I enjoyed playing with you and just, well…. Jenn wants to initiate this. I think she wants to experience hard sex. She talked about groups. She sounded excited. And that leaves me feeling pretty inadequate.”
Gina nodded. “Yeah, I see you. But I’m not interested in screwing with your head. Let’s take a rain check on this. Jenn is gorgeous and seems like she’d be fun, but this seems awkward. Does she talk about an open relationship? Is that what you both want? It can complicate things. I would know. How would you feel if she left you for another person cause of sex?”
“Miserable. But I’m not her boss, and I want her to voluntarily be with me. You already know I have limitations and can’t offer her what you have.”
“Well, couldn’t you get surgery and fix all that?”
“Yup. And maybe that’s what I’m going to learn from today. I want her to be happy and not resent me. I just can’t say no.”
Gina smiled and kissed her cheek. “I think that’s wonderful and very naïve. What if one of you wanted to bring a guy into the mix. How would you feel if she went straight after that?”
“I’d have to wish her all the best because this is all I can be. It’s been hard to admit I never was a guy.”
Gina smiled. “I think you’re pretty understanding about meeting her desires and maybe a bit foolish. But we can go with this and always stop if it’s too much for either of you.”
Jenn saw them whispering. “Okay, girls. If you’re going to talk about me, then you need to both share.” She folded her arms and looked upset.
Teri kissed her cheek. “Uh, Gina asked me how I felt about this. I told her how I felt but that you were the most important thing in my life, and I honestly couldn’t say no.”
Jenn smiled and kissed her. Then she turned to Gina and kissed her hard on the mouth as she wrapped her hands around her neck. “Oh, my God, Gina. I can’t wait. I am already excited just thinking about this.”
Hearing those words, Teri wanted to just disappear. She knew that she couldn’t complete. She was just a placeholder until somebody really made Jenn crazy in love.
As they were driving, Jenn took a turn on the highway. Teri raised an eyebrow. “Uh-huh. We’re going to Mom’s house. I want to do it in her bed, and we can shower in her bath. That’s on my bucket list.”
“I thought they were showing the house to sell?”
“Not yet. Next week, after my mom gets all her stuff out of there. And I just talked to her, and I know she’s tied up in big-time meetings for the next three days. So, we are good. Plus, we have deadbolts on all the doors, so we won’t be surprised even with a key!”
Gina smiled. “Okay. So a couple questions. Do you have weed? Toys? Lube?”
Jenn laughed. “Gina, I have a virtual toy shop here. Many are hand-me-downs from my older sister, who did an online gig, but I’m not touching mom’s stuff. That would be too creepy.”
Gina smiled. “I want to see what your mom stocks. Just peek.”
Jenn laughed, and they all went over to her mom’s nightstand. She pulled open the bottom drawer, and they all looked inside.
Gina was the first to speak. “Boring. I’ll give you a list of presents you can buy her. Does she date?”
Jenn smiled. “I’m not supposed to know, but I think she likes fem boys and women.”
Gina nodded. “That’s pretty cool. I was hoping for a strap-on.”
Jenn laughed. “You haven’t seen my collection yet. I’ve got a pretty nice one. But Teri doesn’t love it.”
Teri sighed. “I don’t have a boy prostate, so I lack that anal stimulation thing. And my girl organs are small and hidden away, so no G spot either. Maybe the surgeons can decide what to do with me sometime in the future.”
Gina announced, “It’s time to smoke. I know that will help Teri get in the mood, right Hunny Bunny?”
Teri nodded, and they carried everything out to the screened porch. The three of them lit a pipe and passed it around until Teri was so high she was afraid to stand. She turned the next pass down. “I’m more than good.”
When they stood up, Gina gave her a kiss. She pulled her in close and put both hands on her butt and squeezed. When she let Teri come up for air, she kissed her neck. “Oh, baby. You’ve got a nice booty coming in back there. Mmm, Gina likes it.”
Jenn opened the door to the family room. “Time, girls. We can pretend we’re having a tea party.”
Teri giggled. “I’m not wearing a fancy little girl dress. That’s way too weird.”
Gina laughed. “Good, 'cause all I want to see are birthday suits.
“I never got naked with you, Gina. So you have to promise not to laugh.”
Jenn smiled. “Teri’s physical development is at about sixteen years old. She’s very cute.”
Teri frowned. “This is weird with two beautiful women watching me get naked.”
Gina laughed. “Me first, girlies.” She pulled off her top and her bra. She shook herself and massaged the marks left by her underwire. Then she slipped off her skirt and her panties at the same time. Teri remembered that she shaved from their movie set experience.”
Jenn approached Gina and kissed her while her hands roamed her body. She looked into Gina’s eyes and ordered, “Undress me.”
Teri wished she was higher so she could just pass out. She sighed and knew this was not going to go well. When she stood up, she had to find her balance before she could walk away.
Jenn enjoyed exploring Gina’s curves and was surprised to see her girlfriend leaving. “Hey, baby. Where are you going?”
Teri stopped walking but kept one hand on the dresser for balance. Without turning, she shrugged and waved as she left the bedroom.
Comments
Feeling for Teri...
Maybe she needs to do it after playing with the band, if she still gets excited there... Somehow she needs to get steamy. I don't want her to lose her zest. Maybe Grace needs to be intimate with her.
Hugs Jessie
Jessica E. Connors
Jessica Connors
Teri
As I listen to the Cats talk, sometimes it’s hard to know just how much write or not write. Even in TBBOW, there were times I dumped whole chapters because they were taking me down a road that led to a cliff.
So, being the coward I am, I left you a cliffhanger.
not good
looks like the beginning of the end for for jen and teri .Jen is pushing too hard and teri either isnt able to handle a open relationship emotionally or mentally .just not ready to deal with it
Uh-huh
I'm just writing the dialog for that next day. And I'm not sure how it should go.
I once had a relationship with a person who believed in open relationships. I was in love. I understood having sex with someone just cause. But what I wanted was someone who I could care about and love.
I really don't know where this should go. I don't think this rocky road will go easy, but they make a great couple.
Wow!
Great tension. You are really keeping us at the edge of our seat. I love the complexity you've added to the characters. Don't be in a rush. There is so much her to explore and play out. Jenn started out being the mature guide and support for Terry but now perhaps she is the least mature of the bunch. First running to pregnancy now running to a threesome or more! I'm going to be thinking about this. Great job.
thank you
Dear Annie,
Thank you for reading and writing. It's fun to dig down deep and explore what everyone wants. I think that eighteen is a tough age, and the pressure to fit in is demanding.
While you talk about not rushing this, it's ironic that I haven't told much about the summer yet. Chronology-wise, we haven't reached June yet. But thank you for your encouraging words. It's wonderful to hear a few bits of praise. Thanks, Leslie
Better Watch
The cholesterol levels from all that cheese. My GP has told me that it has the highest levels of any everyday food.
Poor Teri has been catapulted into a mixed-up gender situation, added to which there is the confusion caused by having a couple of super-charged girls pulling her in ways she has never imagined. I think she'll be OK because Jenn really does love her, but I guess we'll have to wait and see.
cholesterol
Dear Joanne,
Thank you for your continued reading and especially writing.
Designing that menu was a hoot for me. I agree that place would only deal with guilty pleasures, but that's what this chapter was all about. I think people would be standing in line to satisfy all their hunger(s). An imaginative story might be a fantasy where the cheese was all loaded with dreams and delights. Like a Wonka Lolli, except your brain would have visions of all the corruptions imaginable. We could change the name of the place to The Deadly Sin.
I like the term supercharged and wonder if we can all have those moments. And I try to imagine someone who has no conception of rabid sexual pulls.
Love helps all, but only if they both want that.
I Am Really Feeling for Teri
Right now! The poor girl has just realized she can integrate Terry and Tasha, and become a new person, and Jenn is really pushing boundaries. I don’t blame Teri for leaving the room. She feels inadequate because of her development, and here are two of her favorite beautiful women getting naked in front of her. I think Gina and Jenn should both be ashamed of themselves. And Teri needs to stand up for herself and learn how to say “no.” Because you love someone doesn’t mean you have to acquiesce to their every demand, and if you love someone else enough, you don’t make demands that your partner can’t be comfortable with.
Very well written as usual.
I think it's a failing on all
I think it's a failing on all the Wildcats, Grace, and Jenn. They've all pushed boundaries with the intimacy between various pairings and had little honest discussions about how they all feel about it. Teri doesn't help the situation with as you say, not saying No. They all dance around the hard topics and revel in the fun parts. It is painful for me to read these emotional chapters but they're needed for growth.
Uh-huh
I really don't write to open anyone's wounds. I write to entertain. But you are very right. Boundaries seem to be moving fences. But maybe it's the rock and roll band lifestyle where everything is so intimate all the time. I hope this doesn't become some farfetched soap opera.
thank you for writing
Thanks for the compliment. I'm glad you are enjoying this. And sure, it appears like Teri is the victim and Jenn is the selfish person and Gina is just a scamp.
But I just added 11.1 and believe me when I tell you that it was easy to write. I loved someone who believed in an open relationship and I tried to just be myself. Ultimately, it didn't work out. In hindsight, I think I was lucky.
But this half of the chapter gives them both a voice and I wanted to explore this from both sides. I hope you enjoy it, warts and all.
Poor Teri
She know that she can't preform so she gave up without trying as Jenn more or less broke Teri's heart. I think this might be time to call Grace again & leave Jenn at her mom's house call a band member to come get Gena & Teri & take them to the band house.
Love Samantha Renée Heart.
Thanks
Dear Samantha,
Thank you for writing! I always enjoy reading your comments!