copy rights yada yada 2012 just some i need to put down it helps . post anywhere its free. rues

Dad when i was born you were 35 i cant remember you having hair.
you were my pop the one always busy doing something .
The one i went fishing with as a kid , the one who could scare 5 kids with a stare and make then scatter .
We came first then you .
you laughed at me when i put my foot through the wall be cause i was mad ,
you disciplined me with your hand when i did wrong .i remember back in the sixties the fun we had looking
for bottles on the side of the roads as raising 5 kids was expensive .
the times you did not eat so we could
to the joy you had when you thought you hit the jackpot when you got a job that made $ 2.50 / hr
you were a farmer .
tanned and strong .
i still see you on that tractor with your wool hat on in the middle of summer .
i was small yet i remember you let me steer as i sat between your legs on the seat .
yet life moved on and i grew up we did not see eye to eye any more. i still see your face drop as i told
you to go and #$%@& yourself for that i am and will be always sorry .
the trips you made with mom and me i will treasure , i am glad we had them .
i can see when your dad was ill and i watched in silence as you wiped his face before he passed .
i said goodbye and was told to go and have my vacation and thus missed my opa's funeral
i got back and nothing was said .
life went on
you got sick too soon after the docs not knowing what was wrong .
i can still see you listening to some of my weird music and telling me it was beautiful .
they took you to the hospital 1hr away and you never came back . i couldn't help you so i helped mom
i lost you two weeks later at 62 .
its been 20 years Pop and i miss you just as much as always
i thank you for what you have given me, all the experiences and my life