TRAGEDY OF THE SPIRIT THE TRIAL

PART 31 EPISODE 4

 ©2008 PRAIRIE_GIRL_64

NOTE: This is still touchy and I caution the reader, of its description of violence of woman. This was not easy for me to write, however I have stuck it out and posted it here.

Day 54:

I did not return to court til the 54th day as I ended up with a cold , so the trial proceeded without me as other witnesses were brought in and testified, hospital and EMT’s and doctors were sworn in and grilled over the coals by Angela and McVeigh. I guessed that McVeigh would have a fun time trying to discredit the evidence of the photos of me. I am still horrified when I see them. I did see them in court later on. And I almost threw up.

When I returned to court I could see vengeance in Jason’s eyes and those of McVeigh’s as well. This was not going to be good. McVeigh was out for blood, my blood. Shit. When I was sworn in yet again, he asked me “Mellissa is you going to be ok and tell the truth here?” It was a statement saying the last time I was in this very spot I lied, NO FUCKING WAY I lied. What a prick I thought. I nodded and said “what I told you was the truth. So get on with this questioning”. So he began:

McVeigh: “Can you describe the evening in question, October and what was it you were trying to prove to Jason?”

Prove, what the fuck was he talking about, did he imply that I was going to seduce Jason, fuck what a asshole.

Me: “I wanted to look nice and I think I proved that before your CLIENT beat the SHIT out of me”

McVeigh: “now Mellissa, please be honest here, you were out to seduce my client that night. He did not really want to go out for dinner at all , but YOU convinced him to go is that not correct?”

Me: “We had discussed it and we both agreed to go out, HE even made the reservations to go out and they confirmed to me that they were expecting us.” What was his fucking game I began to wonder.

McVeigh: “Well according to documents and sworn statement from the restraint manager that it was you that made the reservations and you confirmed them. Please Mellissa cut the antics, you lied here today as you lied when you were on the stand previous, is that not correct?”

Me: “No, I certainly have not lied and have not lied to this court before and I definitely do not intend on it.”

Angela spoke “Your honour, this questioning is completely out of line and not relevant here, the council is trying to put words in my client’s mouth, he is also badgering my client in admitting something she did not do. I have seen the sworn statement and also interviewed many of the staff and was privy to a the evidence before this court as to the validity of this statement and it was JASON whom made the reservation, I am begging the courts mercy here to spare my client from this line of questioning.”

Judge: “Sustained, please stick to the relevant facts here councillor”

McVeigh: “ can you describe the night in question as we have already heard your testimony before this court on the events leading up to that night and the night in question. My client was not in court on that day as I recall and that he needs to here it as I do as well as a refresher.”

I related to him and the court yet again the trauma of my earlier meeting with Jason and our dating and then that night as I prepared to get ready for my night with him. I went into the same graphic detail as I had before. I had a clearer view of the jury this time around and the looks were stale and unmoving as I never knew what they were thinking. Fuck this pissed me off, here I again have to bare all and feel like I am trial once again. This was getting fucking ridiculous and fast and that little smug looking bastard calmly awaiting my screw up. Fucking hell.

McVeigh: “quite the tale Mellissa, why do you persist in lying to this court?”

Angela: “Objection your Honour, this is getting a little stale here, by the councillor and badgering is completely out of line”

Judge: “watch it councillor, you are treading here, very thin ice, keep your questions to the matters at hand and on topic and dispense the opinions.”

McVeigh: “sorry you’re Honour, I am trying to get to the facts as they are presented.”

Judge: “thin ice MR MCVEIGH, watch it”

McVeigh: “ Mellissa, your previous testimony indicates that you lived and worked on the streets for a approximately 18 months and that you ran away from home and that your parents did not beat you at all. That you made up your past to justify your own unhappy feelings at home and your own personal agenda. You hated your family and would do anything to discredit them. You were so unhappy that you attempted suicide to gain acceptance for your own perversions, is that not correct’

Angela: “your Honour, this line of questioning is irrelevant, the evidence shows that my client was severely beaten at the hands of her family and the medical records show this, why is the defence council trying to discredit her testimony and that of the records of her previous abuse?”

McVeigh: “I am pointing to motive your honour, she wanted the attention at home because she never got her way and therefore decided to discredit my client with this story of abuse and rape.”

Judge: “I will allow the evidence already entered here as what and that of truth and her own testimony cite that, however, she will answer the question.”

Me: “Your honour, I never lied about none of the shit I took at home, I have the scars to prove what my brother and father did and now this, this asshole is trying to say I did this to myself, that is bullshit your honour and I will not apologize for his actions. I was beaten and abused and he continued with it til I almost died. Truth be told your honour, I wish he would have killed me, then maybe the self righteous and pompous asshole would gloat some more that he killed a transsexual, that he gained pleasure from it. Maybe he got kicks out of this before.” “ask your client McVeigh what his attitudes with woman are, maybe he cannot get a real woman , he settles on Transsexuals instead, the sick bastard.”

The banter went on and on and on for nearly two and three quarter hours before it quit and I was relieved from the stand and we took a break. I was relieved and yes I was admonished by Angela and the Judge for my behaviour and swearing. After the 4 months and 5 and one half days of this trial the jury went into deliberation it was over…

I was relieved to say the least, I was still angry at Jason, I was angry at myself, I was angry at the whole system. I was angry at my so called “parents”. I was not told til much later after the trial was over that they were at the trial for only a few hours as somehow they got wind of what was going on.

The end result of all this was that Jason received 10 years total for all the charges that were against him. I was more pissed than anything. He would be eligible for parole in 6 and a half that would place it close to the year 2000. If I made it that far. I was now recovered from my wounds to within a reasonable degree and I had managed a few short months on my feet then I was struck with a fainting spell at a new job that placed me in my current situation. Still guilty from the interrogation I received from McVeigh, I knew he was only doing his job. I still held some resentment towards him. I also had some resentment for Angela too, I would have liked her to have pushed for a harder sentence of 60 years. However what we wish for we never rarely get in life. That I s such a shame. Life is definitely not fair. I was beaten and bruised by family that supposedly loved me, again I was battered and beaten by Jason and all those men while on the streets surviving. The Jason and then again in court by a system that treats the victims as the guilty and the guilty as the victims…so fucking unfair…. Lives will inevitable carry on….. My life to this point has been hell and not much heaven. I guess I shall see if I can survive the next bit of my life………..time will tell.

TO BE CONTINUED…….