"Be Bop A Lula, she's my baby,
Be Bop A Lula ...don't mean maybe,
Be Bop A Lula, she's my baby doll..." - Gene Vincent

A Life Ever Changing #28

Baby Doll

by Angel O’Hare

I was waking up more now and felt something funny in my shorts. I also felt something funny on my chest! (WHAT?!!!) OH NO!...

My mommy was crying and having just realized what the doctor had said I started crying as well. My mommy just hugged me tighter and tighter as our tears mingled on each other's cheeks.

Dorothy came in with a big bag for us and she saw us crying and said, "Listen you two, this is no time for tears! Now the time for tears is when you get bad news like a fatal illness, as we had to tell someone earlier today! Not this, this is not bad news unless you let it be. Make it right and have some fun! Angel, I know this is something you did not want to hear, but listen to me young lady, to me you were always special, and you are even more special today! Did you know Wendy was telling me about a sweet young girl she met in the waiting room, she told me what you said and it made her feel nice and she told me what she said to you. I wasn't surprised Angel. You are just too sensitive and too gentle to be a boy. You care too much and boys, well, they only really care about themselves and being number one."

Doctor Purnell spoke up, "Dorothy that will be all thank you.

"Julia, you know what to do and it is up to you to make this easy for Angel and yourself. I know how you feel and how you have felt about things in the past. This is what is right and you know it.

"Angel, this is not a big step for you and you know that as well. The surprising part about you is that you have led this double life with grace and poise so uncommon in even adults. I think once you really begin you will have fun and your friends will grow in numbers. If I have heard correctly you are about to be very popular and very successful as the girl you really are. So I send you home to recuperate for two days and then you can go back to what you were doing. One thing I ask is you save a set of tickets to your first recital for me!"

She chuckled then came over to us and picked me up. She gave me a big smile, a hug and a kiss on the lips! She walked with me in her arms to her desk and set me on it. She opened a drawer and took out a little package. She said, "This is my favorite scent in the whole world. It comes from Paris and you use an atomizer with it. You can pick one up at this store,” and she handed me an envelope with my name on it "Angel O'Hare" and it was from a very fancy store in the city. I know because my mommy and auntie talked about it, how expensive everything was there.

She continued, "You are a very special girl, Angel, and the people in this store want to see you and I think you will have a lot of fun when you get there. You have an appointment three days from now at nine a.m. sharp! Don't worry, they will be picking you and your mommy up and taking you home again. Your auntie can go, too if she wants."

She chuckled again probably knowing Harriet wouldn't miss any of this for the world! She picked me up and handed me over to my mommy as she was standing now too.

I said, "Thank so very much doctor. I will try to be the bestest girl for mommy and everybody." She smiled and my mommy hugged and kissed me. We left then and my mommy still had tears in her eyes so I asked, "Why are you still crying mommy?"

She said, "Angel, you have made me the happiest mommy in the whole wide world! What you said to the doctor has made me realize how very special you really are."

I said, "Oh mommy I'm not that special, I'm just me."

She laughed, smiled, and said, "Angel that you are!"

My mommy stopped at the desk to borrow the phone and called Harriet. She was home so my mommy told her we wouldn't be going to our little restaurant, that I was too groggy. My mommy said she would be at Harriet's in a few minutes and had to explain a few things to her. Then we left. It was I sat in the car, I really started becoming more aware of things.

I felt funny in my chest so I felt it and noticed I had something on it so I lifted up my shirt and there were two bandages on my boobies! I looked at my mommy and asked, "Why do I have these bandages, mommy?"

She answered, "Honey, the doctor gave you a shot in each one and Dorothy and I spread this cream on you. Those are to prevent the cream from coming off on your shirt. When we get home we will change you into a nice comfortable bra, ok?"

I said ok, knowing that I was to be a girl full time now and that was part of it. Then I felt my pants and asked, "Mommy what am I wearing down here?"

She answered, "Honey, you need cream spread there for today and tomorrow. We have to put it on three more times today and four times tomorrow and then you don't need it there anymore. Until then you have to wear something that keeps it there and you can't use a toilet because you will smear it all over the seat. Only you can have this on you because it will make others sick if they get it on them, so I'm afraid it's diapers for you for two days."

I said, "Oh no, mommy, I don't want to have to wear diapers!"

She answered, "Honey, it's just for two days and you will be staying with auntie. I just have to run home and set Jerry up with a babysitter for two more days and I will be right back ok?"

I resigned myself to the fact and said, "Ok, mommy." She smiled and we arrived back at auntie's house.

My mommy brought the bag, a big bag of supplies in the house after telling me to wait in the car. She was gone for about ten minutes and auntie came back out with her. Auntie picked me up and mommy kissed me and said she would be back and then she got in the car and drove away.

Auntie carried me in the house and laid me on the kitchen table. I saw the bag had been partially emptied and there lay the darn diapers and a pair of pink plastic panties with teddy bears printed on them. There was a tube of cream and a jar with the lid off that had a white thick cream in it. I saw one of my new bras and a different teddy bear nightgown, this one was pink not white. My auntie undressed me right there on the kitchen table and said, "Angel, we will just get you ready and then we can spend some time just relaxing and talking ok?"

I said, "Ok, auntie, I have a few questions now."

She said, "I bet you do, Honey, and I will answer as many of them I can and don't worry, sweetheart, I will be as truthful as I can, ok?"

I said ok and soon I was down to just the chest bandages and my diapers. I noticed I only had two diapers on and a pair of clear plastic panties. That's why my shorts still fit me.

Auntie slipped a rubber sheet with pictures of funny ducks on it under my bottom and then she took off the plastic panties and my diapers. She also peeled off the chest bandages. She washed her hands saying, "Damn, I forgot the gloves!" She dried her hands real good added some powder to them and put on a pair of rubber gloves.

She then washed my chest gently but real good using some stuff out of another jar. Then she dried my chest and smeared this creamy stuff all over them rubbing it in gently and very softly. She put some round cloth pads on them and had me sit up. Then she put my new bra on me and had me lie back down. That cream really tingled and her applying that cream made my nipples get hard and pointy, they were sore at first, but then they got numb and just tingled.

Auntie had me stand up and cleaned me real good using warm water and that stuff out of the jar. She dried me by patting me and had me lie down on the pad again. She put together FOUR big diapers and THREE smaller ones she folded and put right in the middle of the big ones. She had me raise my bottom as she slid these diapers under me.

Then she scooped out a big gob of the cream from another jar and smoothed it all over my private and scrotum. My little private tingled and shrunk almost going completely inside of me. Only a very little peeked out! My scrotum tingled a lot as well and shrunk tight against me. It looked like I didn't have anything at all down there! Just a teeny part of my penis and my scrotum was just a puffy lump with two sides to it! It parted in the middle! IT TINGLED A LOT!

Auntie then sprinkled powder all over my bottom and front. Then she drew up the diapers tightly and pinned them. Next, she slipped the plastic panties on me and had me stand up. She pulled them up and over the diapers tucking the edges of the diapers inside the plastic panties. Next, my nightgown, wow, I really tingled on my chest and down there!

She took off her gloves and washed her hands real good again. She lifted me up giving me a hug and a big kiss and told me she loved me very much. I smiled and told her I loved her to and said, "Auntie, thank you for taking care of me."

She hugged me some more and sat me down on the chair and said, "Guess what I have for you Angel?" I asked her what and she said, "Strawberry Supreme!" OH WOW! MY FAVORITE of FAVORITES!

I sat in the kitchen eating my favorite dessert in the whole world, watching Auntie pick up and clean up. It felt funny sitting on those big puffy diapers! After just a few mouthfuls, I started feeling woozy. I said, "Auntie, I am getting real dizzy and my tummy doesn't feel so good."

Auntie quickly scooped me up in her arms, carried me upstairs, and put me to bed. It was way early to go to bed but I felt real bad and auntie gave me some yucky thick stuff to drink. She told me it would make my tummy feel better so I drank it. YUCK! Just a few minutes later my tummy felt a lot better and soon I was asleep. The last thing I saw and felt was auntie stroking my head smiling.

I was in a dreamless sleep when I felt myself being lifted and carried. I slowly woke to see my mommy holding me and bringing me downstairs. She laid me down on the kitchen table and said, "It's ok Sweetheart, mommy just needs to put fresh creams on you."

I said, "Mommy I have to go pee-pee."

She answered, "Well, honey, than you just go ahead and pee-pee alright?"

I remembered then that I had to use the diapers to pee! Oh brother! GEEZE! I really don't know why but I just couldn't go. My mommy went to the sink and ran the water. It didn't take long after I heard that! Boy did I pee! When I lay back and relaxed, she just smiled and I heard other voices coming from the living room. I wondered who else was here.

My mommy had me sit up as she pulled my nightgown off, then she removed my bra. She then put on a pair of rubber gloves and removed the bandages. She started cleaning off my chest and I noticed something different! They were a lot puffier! My nipples looked swollen, bigger, and red! Just then, I saw whom I only heard seconds ago! The ladies came into the kitchen! Oh Brother! GEEZE!

There was Auntie of course, Lorrie, Helen, Sylvia, Greta, and Cindy! GEEZE! They all came in to see me! They each came up and gave me a kiss on my super red cheek! I was embarrassed and said, "Um, My mommy is going to be changing me." Each of the women in turn said, "It's ok, Angel, we have changed many a diaper and we want to let you know we are all in this with you. Don't be embarrassed, Honey."

Sylvia said, "Honey, Sweetheart, you are going to be modeling for me and we have already seen everything you have, dear, so why are you so embarrassed?"

I said, "It just feels funny having people here seeing me get my diapers changed and stuff."

Mrs. Russell said, "Angel, we are here to support you and be with you dear." With that, each touched me in some way. Auntie held one of my hands and Greta held my other one. Helen kissed my cheek again and stroked my head. Mrs. Russell decided to help my mommy and folded the diapers getting them ready. Lorrie held the bandages for my mommy in one hand and a new bra for me in the other. I guess everybody wanted to help. Instead of being more embarrassed I started to relax. These ladies really cared about me!

My mommy started too very softly, rub more of the medicine on my chest and nipples. Oh, they really tingled and puckered up then! I actually felt them tighten and the tingling got even more intense! I even felt it in my hidden penis! The tingles shot right through me! Oh my! My mommy said, "Marjorie said she was very concerned about the thickness of the fluid behind Angel's nipples, it was causing pressure and pain in the area when they were just squeezed lightly. This cream is working well and doing what it is supposed to do."

All the ladies looked but didn't touch thank goodness! Auntie said, "Oh yes, they look like the fluid is thinning and they have a more uniform fullness now." Oh brother!

My mommy took a pad from Lorrie and placed it gently on one breast and then put the other pad on. Lorrie put my bra on me and hooked it in the back and I felt two sets of hands lower me back down.

It was diaper-changing time and I had just wet a lot! It was funny but these ladies made me feel better now, I was no longer embarrassed. I just lay there as mommy lifted my feet by my ankles and auntie pulled my plastic panties down. I noticed she was wearing a pair of rubber gloves too. My mommy let me back down and auntie removed the plastic panties sliding them down, off my legs and over my feet. My diapers were real wet! My mommy unpinned them, pulled them away, and down.

I sat up a little to see what had changed down there and boy had it changed! Wow! I couldn't even see the tip of my penis anymore! There was a small hole with just the tiniest piece of my penis peeking out. My scrotum was really puffy and it looked like two halves tight together and it was red, real red and sensitive!

I remembered how weird it felt to pee. I felt it all flowing everywhere and it was hot. Now, down there was feeling cold, being exposed to the air. My mommy pulled the diapers out and just slipped one under me. She then very gently and softly washed me up real good.

I felt it very strongly! The tingling returned real intense and came in waves. With each touch sent another wave from down there to my nipples, then inside me and down again! Oh MY! I can't take this! I tried to squirm and I felt hands holding me down. I bucked and tried to move my hips and auntie held me down by my hips! Oh MY! OH MY! My mommy said, "It's ok, darling, we know how sensitive it must feel, you just try and relax ok, and let mommy clean you off and then the new cream will numb you up again and you will feel much better."

I tried to relax, but the sensations were now coursing through my whole body like a pulse beat going from mild to pounding! OH MY! When my mommy took a cotton tipped applicator and moved it around inside that little hole where my penis was hidden, I practically jumped off the table! I was glad all the ladies were holding me down! This time the waves all came together and I almost fainted!

Finally, she was applying the new cream! Oh, tingle and numbness! I don't think I could take that again, but I knew I had more changes and cleanings ahead. OH MY! My mommy said, "No more powder, that was very hard to clean out and I don't think Angel can take such a lengthy cleaning again."

Auntie said, "I am so sorry Angel, I forgot about not putting powder on you. I won't do it again." I couldn't talk yet! I felt the new diapers being pulled up and pinned tightly against me. Oh, thank goodness! Next, a pair of yellow plastic panties with ponies wearing ribbons on them. Helen had a yellow nightgown that was very light and you could see right through it. It came with a pretty robe, which tied with a ribbon just below my neck. Mrs. Russell picked me up in her arms and let me rest my head on her shoulder.

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PRESENT TIME

"So it was you Doctor Purnell who actually were the first to force a change in me physically. I know you realize what you had done, because you are here now helping me once more. What I do not realize is why the strong intervention? Why was I so utterly changed at such a young age? I adapted then willingly after I realized I had no real choice. My desire as a child was to make people happy and not make them mad or sad by anything I had done or failed to do. My decisions then as they are today, are mostly based on what I can do for others. Does this make me female? Does this attitude make me unable to survive as a male in this world? Everything does change eventually; will the world change enough to accept me as I am?"

Doctor Purnell looked at me and smiled saying, "Rachel, all those questions can and will be answered by you when you realize a few more things. Why don't you continue your story and see for yourself?"

I looked at Grace, she just nodded urging me to go on, and so I did.

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Update!!!!!!!

While all this was going on upstairs, the happenings downstairs were getting very interesting as well. Barb was becoming very impatient and it was all that the others could do to keep her calm and quieted. So, they began telling her the stories they knew, some I had not remembered yet, still buried deep within me. That is why I was here now. To face my memories and get them all out in the open and keep nothing hidden. The reason? Oh yes, read on dear readers and you will find out!

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It was then that Mrs. Russell began to sing to me and it was wonderful! She had a beautiful voice! She continued to hold me and sing to me while walking around the first floor. First in one room and then another, she sang and walked telling me stories with song. First about a caterpillar that was always doing nice things for others but was being called names and picked on by everyone else until one day he was gone only to return later as a beautiful butterfly. It was a nice story and the song was both one of sorrow and gladness. She continued and sang a song about a little boy who was just like the caterpillar. He too, did a lot of nice things for people and his family. He also was picked on and hurt by others until he to disappeared one day. Only to return later as a beautiful little girl who could fill everyone with joy by just singing and being herself. The stories were sung, heard, and finally understood by me. I sat up in her arms and gave her a big hug and a kiss! I understood! I just hoped it were really true!

I was feeling better now even though it was late. I was hungry and thirsty so I asked auntie if I could have a snack and something to drink. They all decided that we would go out to eat. It wasn't that late after all and we could go out to a nice restaurant and have a good meal and not worry about cooking and the cleanup afterwards. I looked at them and said, "But I still have to wear these diapers, I can't go out like this."

My mommy said, "Honey, you have something in your new wardrobe that you can wear that will hide the diapers and that nobody would know besides us. Why don't we take you upstairs and get you ready ok?"

I said, "Ok, but I won't go if my diapers show!"

They laughed and brought me upstairs and found the perfect outfit. It was a party dress that was cut real full in the skirt and you needed at least two petticoats for it. My mommy said we would only need one because the puffy diapers would act like the other one. They all chuckled, but I had to admit they were right. You couldn't see my diapers or even tell by just looking. I would have to be careful when sitting down and while outside I will have to make sure to hold the sides of the skirt so any wind wouldn't blow up my dress exposing my diapers. I was really worried about that!

I noticed my chest was sticking out further than it had been, well, further naturally; the padded bras and that one really padded bra made me stick out there more than this. I had extra padding the bandages on each breast added. It was not much, but enough to make you wonder why a young girl with small breasts would be wearing a party dress seemingly for someone younger. I looked more like twelve or thirteen definitely not ten!

I mentioned this to Lorrie and she came up with a solution, a different dress! I was changed once more in an older outfit. It was a little dressier than a young girl's party dress and with one crinoline; it looked great and covered the diapers even better. This dress was longer and my breasts looked the part.

I was done up a little more than usual as well, with mascara and eye shadow just little light touches around my eyes. A light coating of lipstick, a few rings, earrings, and my "Pretty-Girl" necklace, my hair done by Harriet and needed just a little brushing and an all over coating of hairspray. A little dab of perfume and my purse, we were ready to go.

We started outside and Harriet's neighbor must have been watching out for us (or me). She came out and did a walk around saying how beautiful I was, even more beautiful than before. She saw I was wearing the necklace she gave me and lit up with a huge smile. She gave me a hug and a kiss and wished us all a good evening. She was very nice and she did give me some nice things without any hesitation either.

So I ran up to her and gave her a hug and a kiss back thanking her warmly for her gifts to me. I must have made her night, because she practically floated back into her house as happy as a woman can be. My mommy hugged and said, "Oh Angel, that was so nice of you. You have made her very happy." With that said this time, we were really on our way!

They took two cars so we could fit comfortably, my mommy, Harriet, Cindy and I, in one car and Lorrie, Greta, Sylvia and Helen in the other. Sylvia drove her car, which was a very nice big, long, black one. We followed her to the restaurant and pulled into the parking lot nearby.

We all gathered in the parking lot and they decided we should go as a group and be seated together. It was after the normal dinner rush and the usual dinner patrons had long since finished so we were almost assured a large table. We all walked in together and a nice old man wearing a funny looking black suit stood behind a little desk with long legs. He saw Greta and said, "Mrs. Greta Dill what a pleasure it is to see you again." Then he noticed the other ladies and said, "Well with this assembly it must be a very special occasion Mrs. Cindy Russell, Mrs. Lorrie Gilmore, Mrs. Helen Whitmore, and Miss. Sylvia Greene."

Greta took over then and introduced us, "Mrs. Harriet Page and Mrs. Julia O'Hare and her daughter Miss Angel O'Hare. George, we are celebrating the selection of our new very beautiful and very talented soloist, Miss Angel O'Hare."

He shook hands with everyone and then bent down to me and said, "Well, my beautiful little one, if Greta says you are very talented you must be something. It is an honor to have you here and if you need anything just ask for George." He took my hand raised to his lips and kissed it!

I said, "Thank you very much, sir, I am sure I will like it here."

He chuckled and whispered into Greta's ear and she gave him a funny look and then said, "All of our meals and anything we wish?"

He laughed and said, "Within reason, please Greta!"

They both laughed and Greta informed us what they had discussed. She said, "It seems George has a few very important patrons here this evening and he was wondering if Angel would grace his establishment with singing a song here for all the patrons."

I noticed that the place was almost full, but a few empty tables were scattered here and there. I also saw a few waiters putting two tables together that must be for us. I then heard music and saw a small orchestra off to one side on a little stage. There were six of them and they sounded like they were tuning up.

Greta continued, "George has offered to serve us anything we wish if Angel would sing just one song."

George chuckled again and said, "Please Greta, anything within reason."

They both laughed and everybody looked at me! GEEZE! I looked at my mommy and she just said, "It is up to you Honey, you decide." Oh Brother!

I saw the looks in all their faces and just knew I had to sing. I said yes to George and he clapped his hands hard twice. Two waiters and a waitress instantly surrounded us. They showed us to our seats and gave us each menus. Oh, I should mention they pronounced George as Jorge.

The menu was in a language I didn't understand so my mommy said she would pick something she knew I liked. I noticed a very nice piano was being moved next to the stage, Mrs. Russell stood up and held my hand, and we walked over to the stage area. COOL! I knew Mrs. Russell played really well and sang well too! She whispered to me that the musicians here were very talented and we would sing "Here I Am." Oh GEEZE!

She spoke to the men in the orchestra and there was a lady too, she played a violin. George stood on the stage and made a coughing noise a couple of times with his hands raised high. Everybody there stopped talking and looked at him. He said, "We have a wonderful treat for all of you tonight, a surprise that you will remember for some time to come. Mr. and Mrs. Alan (Our mayor and his wife.) I know you will be especially delighted. May I introduce to you our one and only Mrs. Cindy Russell of our national champion choir as our pianist tonight and the protégé of Mrs. Greta Dill, the newest choir member and soloist, Miss Angel O'Hare! Who will sing for you "Here I Am."

OH GEEZE! He helped me up on the stage as applause sounded through the room. The little orchestra began and then so did Mrs. Russell. I smiled and took a few breaths and went within to find my voice and song. The next thing I remember is seeing people standing up and clapping hollering encore, encore! Mr. and Mrs. Allan I saw were at the table talking to Greta and the others.

My mommy was walking toward me so I smiled at everybody and said thank you and ran off the stage and into my mommy's arms. The orchestra was shaking hands with and talking to Mrs. Russell and George was also at our table. Everybody had big smiles, then the applause died down and one by one they came by our table, said a few words to the ladies and then thanked me for a beautiful performance. OH GEEZE! I was redder than ever! My mommy was so proud and happy though, it was worth it.

Mrs. Allan gave me a hug and a big kiss and said, "The name Angel fits you well, child. You glow when you sing and everybody feels your heart as they hear your beautiful voice. Oh, and I just love your eyes they sparkle so!" She gave me another kiss and hug before they went back to their table.

George was in Heaven. He came over and said, "I changed my mind, you can have anything you wish." He kissed both my hands then saying, "Child you are surely blessed, everyone was telling me how they had felt every note and their skin tingled as you sang. Your eyes captured everyone and your glow warmed the room. That last note you held for so long you have left me in awe, little one. You will never need a reservation in my establishment, but please call ahead, ok?" He chuckled, kissed both my hands again, and left.

I looked at the ladies and they were all smiling at me and shaking their heads. Lorrie and Helen had tears in their eyes! GEEZE!

Well, we tried to eat, but people just kept coming over until George came back to run interference so we could eat in peace. Mrs. Russell said, "Julia, you have made the right decision and you should no longer question it." My mommy smiled real big and just nodded. What decision I wondered?

We ate, we joked, and I got to drink some wine that tasted wonderful! They called it Don something. It was very good! The ladies were talking about leaving a very nice tip for the excellent service we had received from the waiters and waitress when all three came forward and said, "No tip is necessary we were tipped better than we have ever been earlier."

They each came over to me, the boys kissed my hand, and the girl gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. GEEZE! We got up to leave and heard people calling my name so mommy told me to smile and wave. I did and said thank you as we left.

Everybody was very happy as we each got into the cars and left for Harriet's house. I felt tired and I had to pee again! Oh brother!

Note: A continuing story series of teasing scenes, part reminiscence, part fantasy