First off I just want everyone to know I'm alive and well, my mother, aunt and grandmother all survived the accident. They are now recovering, and the one who was hurt the most, was my grandfather as he was the driver and came out without a scratch. He feels horribly guilty still, but I don't blame him. He couldn't help it, he had an episode while driving, it could happen to anyone. I just hope he finds peace in his heart to forgive himself.

Secondly mew I've found a wonderful man (who's currently made me angry right now, but hey who doesn't have fights?) who accepts me fully. Even is helping me to accept parts of my body I previously couldn't. It's become final now, I can never have SRS due to my heart problems and thank God Davie is there to help me get through this.

Third is my philosophical question. Sometimes... I find it hard to refrain from posting mew when I see stories that break reality but at the same time sometimes it doesn't bother me at all. I almost hit the post button when sending to an author about how difficult it is to achieve a black belt in martial arts, and how if you don't start early consider yourself crap for the most part. (It was some story on FM or something) Or just... how irrealistic her/his world was. Do you ever find yourself having trouble keeping your lip zipped, or are you able to most of the time? Sometimes I can, sometimes I cant and I usually feel bad when I cant meow.

Anyway, sorry for the long list, but it's just because I haven't posted an update in a while, I'm sorry I left you all in the dark. I was in a dark place, and went through... a lot that I'd rather not mention right now. Anyway I hope you all are well meow, have a wonderful night/day/afternoon ^^