Nonplused Muslimah
by Gwen Brown
Nonplused Muslimah
So close but so far
You don’t touch me; make me wonder?
Body quiver at slow idle; like purr or like fright?
What will happen now?
Can I make you happy?
Somehow please you?
My heart flutters in the wind
Can I please you; is it in me?
In the fog; I am lost
At your mercy; please do hurry
Before I flee in fright
Burning tears betray me
I try to be strong; it’s not so; I am in خوÙ
Strength in me is thin veneer; almost sheer
Too weak to stop a strong man
Chain me; restrain me before I flee in terror
If you don’t it’s your error
Do I yield or lash out?
Take me but protect you; never turn your back to me.
Trap me, hurt me; make me cry
Someone care enough to try?
Maybe piss you off; make you beat me
Who in control now angry warrior?
Drive you mad
Make you kill me?
Maybe I live to spite you
Make you think too many want me.
Wish it so
Not secure; maybe never; what will happen to me?
By Zخديجة (Khadija)