I am doing something i have never really done for a story before - do some research. Its actually kinda fun, to look up stuff, even if it may not end up in the story, but just to have in my head as background as I go. Meanwhile, I am kinda up and down emotionaly and in terms of my faith. I dont feel as bad as before, but now I kinda feel exhausted, numb. I am not sure if thats actually better or not