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Feeling broken

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I've often felt that I'm broken inside. Life is just constantly shaking the pieces and causing all the rough edges to dig into each other. Rarely is there enough peace to not hurt.

It's been a while.....

It's been a while since I posted anything here - primarily due to my life falling into that most ancient of Chinese curses, "May you live in interesting times...."

Amazon ebook- Guess who's coming to Dinner

I'm selling one of my older stories.

It's only a 1.59 in U.S. dollars.

You can buy it through Erin's Big Closet Amazon store. Here's a link.

Hatbox Gifts Needed

We've done okay with contributions for this month, but we are still a bit short. If you notice, we've spent $700 on equipment this month which is reported in the Server Fund numbers.

It's Alive! It's Alive!

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Martin and I have created Frankenstein's PC out of his old PC and some parts.

Internet Provider going out of business

OK, well a few of you sort of keep track of me and for that I am thankful. So I have "Clear" as an internet service.

School Teachers Transitioning?

Does anyone know of any real life situations of an active school teacher transitioning M t F? Did she retain her teaching job? Have to transfer to different schools? Get fired?

I'm sorry

Before I do anything else in this blog entry, an apology.

I'm sorry this entry isn't gonna be fluffy kitties and rainbows.

A bit of a ramble to say thank you

Good day all,

First, I'm going to mention a woman called Saffire.

She has (had?) a group of other women with her; they call(ed) themselves "The Uppity Blues Women".

Loonily, Live what you write

So, I am "tooling up" to finish the three stories that will be part of my anthology to be published this fall.

The Last Easter Story

Hello everyone! My 'End of the World: The Last Easter' is finally up!

Updates on my life as a writer

Just so people don't think I dropped off the face of the earth as an author, I figured a few updates are in order.

Posting troubles

Hello! I just tried to post the last chapter of my End of the World series, but it comes up page not found after I'd saved it.

Went swimming today

Well, I spent the morning today cleaning up my computer area, and as a reward, I went to the Y.M.C.A. pool for a good swim.

The DarkRealms Universe

I know the universe has gone a little flat lately and that's partially my fault but I can't help but think that people don't seem to understand it either.

Transgender equality and your role in achieving it

So the petition to Amazon for them to create a transgender fiction genre ran up to 223 signatures and then it just stalled.

I do believe, Spring has FINALLY come to Winnipeg

After a winter that surpassed all records for sustained, consistently cold temperatures and snow accumulation I don't remember seeing before, I do believe Winnipeg has finally put the winter of 2013/2

Something's a-foot

I hope this means I can get on with writing, although it maybe that it's a bit of an extreme way of getting time at the computer ...

April 20,2014

It's Resurrection Sunday. May the good Lord bless you all.

He Is Risen!

He Is Risen Indeed!

For the Love of a Girl

I have been sitting on this story for a while now. originally written as a Tragedy,I changed the ending several times before I got it the way I wanted it.

as promised

a little extra to tide you over until I return from Germany!

Happy Easter

I hope everyone on this Site is having a safe and a Great Easter today

Bayer and Syngenta tries to stop EU ban

Bayer and Syngenta sues EU to lift ban on there bee killing pesticides

I'm no longer part of a couple

Well, I'm sorry to report that I am no longer part of a couple.

Ted Talks of interest to the community

Ted Talks of interest to the community

Family Feud

So alot has happened this past week. I went into a job interview for an entry position Data Entry job.

Very good article and insights to being TG.

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This morning a came across an article about having gender dysphoria and living a normal life.

Catwalk Confidence and Connie Alexander update

Hello all. :)

It’s been well over a year since I posted on this site and boy what difference a year makes!

Some possibly good news

Well, there is supposed to be some good news on the way for Alberta trans people like me.

Petition Update - day 2

Yay for us. We already hit 100 signatures on the petition and I'm getting read to make the next move (media involvement). I really think this is important.

India recognises third gender

Some bits from the Guardian about a transgender person seeking election in the Indian elections, and references to the change in the law in India recognising transgender and hijra(eunuchs) people.

Megan Fairy Princess

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This was written fourteen years earlier after she was gone. You don't have to believe. I didn't at the time. However some of us are..., different. Me? Let's just say I'm a "reader".

1950s Photos

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Some interesting photos of 1950 era crossdressers.
Casa Susanna

Not going to believe this !!!

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OK you all know how loony my life is at times. This one will have you rolling on the floor! :)

I should have changed pharmacies over 2 years ago

Today was the last straw with a Publix pharmacy in Boynton Beach Florida.

I want to try an experiment here.

I'd like if any of those here that would be willing to help me with a count. I'm curious as to the audiences here.


Jumping here and there

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I have a question for the team and it concerns the order in which stuff appears.

Update on petition to Amazon

So yesterday I started my petition to Amazon. I really should have done it much sooner because it is something that frustrates me to no end. Amazon, Barnes and Noble, Smashwords etc.

Augmented Reality or near future science

Recently I watched a TV programme about the Prophets of Science, Asimov being my favourite.

I can say a lot of things about me

There are a great many things I can say about me.

I was broken.

I'm healing.

I'm still not who I want to be.

I'm no longer who I was.

I was doomed to be trans, no matter what.

How does it work?

How does this rating system work? I don't want to short change any of the authors.

Looking for an Artist


As you might know, I'm moving into Kindle books, and I need some help!

I'm looking for some cover art for some new ebooks. I want to BUY the publishing rights for the artwork.

A bit extra as i'm away for a week

As I'm away next week i'll try to do an update here at the weekend to tide you over!

Aren't you tired of not be recognized for what you do?

Can you believe that Amazon doesn't have a transgender fiction genre, even though there are over 1500 titles available.

Duty Calls?

Whats happened to Duty Calls, was coming out regularly then stopped, anyone know what's happening to it?

Looking for manga-type artist

As the title shows, I'm looking for someone with good manga-drawing ability. I'm not going to ask someone draw manga with me, I just need someone to draw the characters and the backgrounds.

Summer Girl was posted yesterday...

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I posted Summer Girl yesterday and I put a tribute to Big Closet and to Stanman. I did put a few of my favorite stories into the story, so I hope you'll read it.

Other sites to post

Okay, I may have asked this before, but I'm a little frustrated.

Does it make a difference?

Does the fact that there might be a medical reason why I'm trans make any difference?

To those who care

I seem to have struck a note in mentioning that I was thinking of living in my car and camping for a couple months.

Considering living in a car DONT.

If you are thinking of living in a car or van DON'T. Unless very skilled and lucky.


That's what I turn tomorrow. An auspicious date certainly.

Is spelling important?

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You can decide .....

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Amazing Array of Talent

This site is amazing.

There are so many caring people.

There are so many talented people.

There are so many generous, giving people.

State of me

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My workproblems still aren't fixed after 4,5 years although I'm doing a 6 month internship at the HR division of another departement.

forgotten memories and baby-hood stories

Well, I learned some things yesterday because of a combination of a story from when I was born my mother told me and a memory from before I met my first girlfriend that I had not thought about since.

Stupid muse...

On the one hand, I added almost 4500 words to the new story I'm working on last night (11k+ and climbing rapidly). On the other hand, I was up 'til after 4am writing them.

Another amazing product name

Some have a wonderful way with words .....

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Okay, I don't have a clue how to share something from Facebook to here so I hope a cut and paste works.

Marriage Vows

We did not get a chance to read these during our civil wedding, as the judge had her own set of vows. So I thought I would share them here.

I promise
To love you for all you are

Living in the Car

OK, so no drama, OK?

I am wanting to change my living situation; live alone in a small apartment away from town, and controlling people I'm with. This is not a big emergency.

Peep said the mouse

Just to let people know I'm around again ;)


I am now married

I was married to my girlfriend on Friday, which was our one year anniversary.

More Gaby for Kindle

Well to take the strain off my time on Wednesday I've posted More Changes - Gaby book 9 onto Kindle today rather than wait.

It should be live later today.

I've been invited on a trip to Mexico

I had a conversation with Sharon on Friday, and she is thinking of taking Samantha to Mexico in September, if she can get her passport by then.

Then she said I could come too, if I wished.

Is it time to quit

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Every so often I get this bug up my ass that makes me think I can be commercially viable as an author. I don't know why I get it.

What you might see from me soon

Just for fun, I thought I might share with you all what stories I'm working on, to hopefully whet your appetite ...

S E E maps

There was a comment on the latest excellent episode of "Somewhere Else Entirely" that asked about some maps, or, more exactly, where somewhere was on the map.

I need help finding a name for a township offical.

I am requesting some help in finding a term ancient old to semi antique for the modern American town ship post of manager.

Westworld / Futureworld Type Older Story

I'm trying to find an older story on a Westworld/Futureworld theme where the customers mind is transferred to the selected theme character while the body remains in his room at the park.

my adventure in the hatbox

As some of you know, as a consolation prize for my entry in the last contest, I won a freebie visit to the hatbox, so I took advantage and read as many of the stories as I could.

growing vaginas

I found this in a Spanish article-
here is the tranlation.


Apologies - I have a visitor and was too busy talking to think about writing. They'll be here all weekend but I'll try and do one tomorrow.

Things could get dicey here

you know, I often praise the level of tolerance I receive here in Edmonton, but there have been some ... troubling signs that the forces of bigotry are trying to push back.


Warning: the following blog talks about religion. As that is a sensitive subject with some people, please read with care, and if you comment, keep it friendly.

Computer issues and possible solution

I knew it was coming, I just hoped it wouldn`t be so soon.

Birth Certificate News

If this was available in California then Holly Hart might have grown up normal:


Yikes ! I need stern Motherly guideance !!!


Reaching the Point of No Regrets, the self published version

As promised, the final polished version of Reaching the Point of No Regrets is now available as an ebook on update

New chapter on my site as well as here.

Tour de France

Its possibly come to some of your attention that a certain big sporting event is starting in Yorkshire this coming July.

Time Warp?

Something weird is happening. I am receiving responses to private messages that I sent out last August. Is that weird, or what?

Separate Issue -revised

I have a question for:

Abigail Drew
Stacy ( I know there is more than one here, this one posts using only the name “Stacy”)

"Welcome to group"

Well, I had my first session in group therapy today, and it was okay, I guess.

It was all women, I'm not sure if that was on purpose or not, but it made an interesting dynamic.

Not writing tonight.

Sorry folks, Bonz is out and Whizz is refusing to dictate the story to me, so I'm not going to do a bike tonight.

I was wondering If...

...anyone Knows if Billie Sue Pilgrim's ' The Adventures of Lizzie Jane ' Books 1&2 are availible anywhere as I would like to read from the begining of the ' Lizzie Jane Adventures '

It's been a while.

You know, days go by and time and time again I'm surprised by the friends I manage to make.

Pulling Novels

I really hate doing this but I really don't have any recourse. Because someone decided to inform Amazon that I offer my works for free on this site I have been given an ultimatum.

Spent the day at the hospital today

I spent the whole day at the University hospital today.

First, I tried to get in to the dentist to get my teeth fixed, but the best I could do there was get an appointment for next month.

I know it's been awhile...

So... Issue Three sat for a week before I posted it. I love that people were looking forward to it. I thought I procrastinated way too long and there wouldn't be any interest.

My muse is a fickle thing...

I've basically been stalled on the writing projects I've been working on for a while. I kind of know where I want to take them, but sitting down and getting stuff written has been hard.

Reaching the Point of No Regrets, self published version

Soon, very soon, the revised version(and by revised, I mean going over it with a fine tooth comb) of Reaching the Point of No Regrets will be available on and for the nook e-reader.

Hooray for Buttercup and Bubbles! (and donations)

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We've got BC up and running on the new server, Buttercup, and it does run faster!

I think I got hit on at church today

I got hit on at church today, or I think so.

Want to really sell on amazon

There are a lot of people who have decided to sell their books on amazon, and it looks like the transgender fiction genre (that Amazon refuses to admit exists) is growing daily by leaps and bounds.

New Gaby!

Well as promised Gaby - Changes
is now available for Kindle

Mistaken Genders

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I was reading Julie O's story 'Correction' this morning and it reminded me very much of my younger days. Here is a 'brief' summary.

Amazon ebook- Always Born a Girl

I'm selling one of my older works.