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I hate weather change


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I absolutely detest it when the weather changes, since it causes my copd to act up. :(
Having no energy to do anything but sleep because it is so hard to breathe, just because it started to rain / got dry / got windy / wind dies down ... ( ad nauseum )

then today, we got a wind storm, which broke a window it was so strong. 20 minutes later[ 11:30 am PDT ] CABOOM one of the electrical transformers just behind the building exploded.


11:44 PM and we finally got power back

She talks to Horses


Thinking about posting a story after I mentioned it and someone asked. It is NOT a life shift story. In other words, non transexual or transgender. I started it years back, forgot it until last couple days. It is a couple hundred pages long and NOT finished. I have more unfinished stories than I'm going to tell. I'm not even sure myself. Couple dozen? Who remembers the stories they wrote anyway? Start a story, real life calls, forget the story before I get back, and maybe remember it years later if something jogs the circuits in the mind?

The ironic downside to losing weight...


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In other words, after weeks of dieting and exercise, I've come to the unsettling realization that I was more passable when I was fat. (Less fat means my features are more angular and hence, less feminine). I essentially lost my best asset when I lost the weight, and earlier today, I suffered the consequences.

It was a good day. I'd been pretty good about trying to eat healthy and and at least cut down on the bad stuff, and the results are beginning to show. The weather was warmer than it's been over the past week, with the promise of it becoming warmer still tomorrow. All in all, nothing to complain about.

That's usually a danger sign. It's like an open invitation to God/Fate/the cosmos to give me their worst. And sure enough, that's exactly what happened.

Important for TG in Houston - but possibly upsetting.

The Mayor of Houston, Annalise Parker, has been pushing some legislation on allowing bathrooms to be used by gender presentation, rather than just by physical sex.

Unfortunately, there's a very vocal group that has some NASTY radio ads going - the site itself isn't bad, but the radio ads are very misleading.

Here's some information on the proposed ordinance. (with some information on the group)

A special birthday wish.....

I just found out that Smowfall is another year older and I wanted to shout "Happy Birthday!" from the rooftops, but I had to settle for this.

Here's wishing you a very special day Hon. Since mine is just after yours maybe next year we can get together and celebrate over a glass or two of wine.

Thank you for sharing your writing talent with me, and thank you for your insightful and supportive comments. They are greatly appreciated - even if I didn't get the kitten PJ's.

Blog Entry 28th August 2015- Get it Together!

I'm supposed to be writing the third chapter of Stephanie, but instead, I'm writing a blog post... Yeah. It's been a while, and I haven't thought of a song title yet to match to this post, but I'm sure I'll stick a link here eventually-

A Thank You to all who read "Headlights Girl."

To my amazed delight, my story, "Headlights Girl," has reached over 11,000 hits! I'm not certain this is from new people actually clicking on and reading the story or if it's the result of all the hits on it from old Big Closet and the new version getting totalled, but for whatever reason I am grateful to every single one of you who clicked on and read the story.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH! And Thanks too to whoever re-posted it so newer people could read it!

Catherine Linda Michel

Going Mainstream

Well, it seems the Transgender community has come of age and has finally gone mainstream. I wonder if the story below is related to the 26 August 2015 Reuters news story, 'Wanted: Transgender actors for Hollywood, little experience required?'


rose coloured glasses

so a very common theme i've noticed pop up in a lot of stories is that a mother character will be very supportive of a child's change while the father will be either neutral or against it. I'm curious why this is, since the opposite can be just as true. Are we as non-gender conforming individuals biased to believe that all mothers are very pure? I'm not sure that's true since there are so many stories where a mother forcibly feminizes her son, but curiously there is no father available in these stories.

looking for a story

Story about a brother and sister brother was always pick on at school so as they got older sister was getting tired of it so much that one day as the two of them was driving home she saw them she ran them over the brother loving his sister so much took the blame for it they found him guilty. Ended up on death row. The government knew he was innocent but had to make it look good they turn him into a girl. Hope some one remembers the story thank you.

Looking at upgrading to Gigabit Internet(questions).


I'm looking at upgrading to Gigabit Internet and had some questions for the even more intensive tech. people here, at least in terms of networking. So Piper and others..
First, is CAT5e cable backwards compatible with CAT5 devices if they don't support 1 gb. ethernet? I'm looking at my PS3 and on the Wiki page it says that it supposedly supports 1 Gigabit internet but it's Wiki. I'd just use CAT6 to futureproof it all but I get the impression it wouldn't hash with non-gigabit ports.

It kind of sucks


I wanted to blog. I really did. I wanted to talk about gender and the difference between being transgender and just thinking what would it be like to be the other gender. I'm sure many guys out there wonder what it would be like to be a girl. I don't think that would be the same as wanting to be a girl. Even Jeff Foxworthy does a routine about picturing himself as a woman.

I had a rough night last night.


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I had a rough night last night, awakening around 4:00 AM in tears. You see, I had a rather horrible dream.

Trust me, I am no stranger to nightmares and bad dreams - I have lived a good percentage of my adult life with them as I relive the worst of my memories from the service in my sleep. Those dreams and nightmares have almost become like old friends. But last night was different.

About private "Dicks"...

Pursuing idea stememmed from Sue Broun story...
What if all of the guys in the "seedy" joint were lured there by hiring them to follow someone? Still most of the ideas of how to continue them comes from the old ancdote where God appeared in front of the one of the intended shipwreck victims to say - "it was not trivial to gather all of the sinners on that one ship."

Stare at your work until you hate it

so I've been writing a little chapter for someone (with permission) to get back into writing. Seriously ADHD sucks something fierce but as I'm writing it I just shake my head and glower at my screen. I really don't like my own writing and I am insulting myself in my head over it, disliking my word usage, grammar and the structure of the story.

Is that normal? Or am I in a unique circle of hell here?

TWO New eBooks Published!

So very happy to announce TWO new eBooks on sale !

Cigarettes are a Girl's Best Friend by SlimV

13-year-old Jimmy gets caught dressing in his mother's clothes and smoking her cigarettes. Is he a big girl now?

You never know when your last day is

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I friend of mine just lost her 32 Y O niece to a robbery , she was stabbed they got her to the hospital and surgery and she died of her injuries a week later. You never know when your last day is going to be , so very sad .
Live life everyday to it's fullest .
Be yourself . Be happy who you are . Be true to your heat , if your are trans , be proud of the beautiful person you are .
HUGS to all are BCTS family --- RICHIE

Does Suicide Have A Place On BC

Years ago I wrote It Brings On Many Changes.

The lyrics to the song that inspired the title were written by a fourteen-year old Mike Altman. It was meant to be "the stupidest song ever".

That suicide is painless
It brings so many changes
And I can take or leave them if I please

The Rights of the Community

Two topics:

  • Bathroom use is going to be a major issue, "Bathroom Gate" is back again.
  • LGBT discrimination, and many political issue for those of the LGBT community.

Trans-People's Rights

Writing The Truth

I've been working on a personal project for quite some time that is the pure unembellished truth. It is frank and brutal at times, and at other times it is happy and joyful. It is partially TG, but most of it is not even remotely about that.

To maintain complete ownership of the story, I will not employ an editor but perhaps a proof reader. The publisher will agree to keep the story intact.

odd Idea

What the hell is a Taxonomy upgrade extra I don't even-


I am slowly (very slwoly) plunking away at Silver Wings, i'm just not good at getting stuff started, this includes chapters. I'm lazy :/

That aside, I've had a weird thought buzzing in my head all day and i"d like to know what other people think of it.

Basically the idea is that a boy is pulled nito a magical world where the population is primarily female, and along the way he is made into a she. But there is a catch.

Do famous transgender people help the cause?

Another offering from the Guardian (where else?), wondering when they start to call it the TG Times. It does have some interesting elements as well as the pro and con comments afterwards.

In motion--even if I don't know where I'm going


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I haven't been doing any writing, I admit. However, I think I might have the best possible excuse.

Last week, I decided to do the one thing I'd been putting off forever--no, not removing the colony of unidentifiable life forms from my refrigerator, though I need to do that too. In short, I've taken advantage of a special program for low-income people and joined the "Y".

Why the "Y"? (Hee hee). Allow me to elucidate.

I had to giggle yesterday...


A bit of background first: I'm unable to transition for many reasons including being 5'-20" tall. Yet, I'm also 47, XXY and the proud owner of some natural A+/B-- breasts on my otherwise slender frame. Since I'm posting here, I'll give you three guesses what my mental gender alignment is...

So yesterday I got asked by a male coworker If my recent injury (dislocated wrist) has impacted my training regimen much - and indicated towards my pecs. I told him I might have to transition to something different.

The Rusted Blade...

I just looked for Kitn's story, 'The Rusted Blade' and was unable to find either it or even an author named Kitn. I was going to read it again but it seems to have been removed.

Edit: I just went into check the post and see if it turned out ok and lo and behold down below were links to the story. DOH!! lol Not sure why I couldn't find it using the search feature though.


Being a Depressed Person


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Many people have a chemical imbalance that causes depression. Others have forms of PTSD. I'm in the latter category.

I'm getting better, and that is a fact. I was a mess last Christmas, I let my anti depression meds run out and was spending Christmas alone (actually, it just felt that way).

MoonGoddess posted a thread something like this, and I responded. I agree with everything she said, if you are suffering you don't need to! Get help!

The rumors of my death are greatly exaggerated…


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A lot of niggling little health issues have kept me away for about 19 months, but, I’ve dodged the major problems that often come with age: Heart, cancer, stroke, and diabetes have so far passed me by… So far.

What I’ve discovered is; Getting older ain't for wimps.
In Feb of 2014 I had all my lower teeth extracted after 4 abscesses that had caused constant sinus infections for 2 years. The dentist: “Gee, I never noticed that before but I don’t think teeth would cause that…” In the last 19months I only had 1 sinus infection.

Coming very soon to BCTS

We have been busy with RL, mainstream publishing projects and a host of other things.
However we will shortly be releasing our latest book here on BCTS.

The English Courtesan


The lives of two people, separated by centuries, are slowly drawn together as the mystery surrounding a portrait some believe is an undiscovered work by a Renaissance master is unraveled.

does this sound familiar?


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Imagine the scene. A mother is talking to someone else

'I didn't have a daughter. I had a son who turned out a bit different'

Sounds familiar?

This was in a brief scenes of a forthcoming BBC TV series. It starts in September.

I wonder if it might turn out to be a tad interesting.

I only caught the tail end of the advert so I can't remember what the series was called.



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There have been a lot of cases of sexual assault in the news lately, and as a result I've been hearing a lot about ''closure". In most cases, its referred to in relation to whether or not an abuser can be charged with a crime.

Sadly, that's not an option for me, so the question becomes, can I still get "closure" if I cant watch my abuser be locked up for his crime?

I think I can.

Doing what I'm doing now, slowly healing, becoming stronger, getting support from my many friends, praying and writing and living my life.

That's my plan, at any rate.

Serendipity, Premonition and EAFOAB

After a long day at work I started browsing. A comment caught my eye and I followed the link.

That led me to Easy as Falling off a Bike Episode 88.

I then looked at the comments and saw this…

It's remarkable
Submitted by Jo-Anne on Sun, 2007/10/21 - 1:55am

Script Writing for Community Theatre

I read part of "Alien Investigators" in a writer's group I attend. They are all Muggles but have been very kind to me.

The reading included about 1000 words of the first part of the story, and at the end they were greatly amused, one even suggesting that doing it for Community Theatre could be fun. No one objected to the oblique reference to religion. It was my best effort at comedy.

Has anyone here experience with script writing?


Update on EJ and KOD


Hi everyone this is just a quick posting to let everyone know that I am currently out of town on business. RL just has to ruin a good thing. I finally get my new pc up and running and am writing and I have to go out of town for the week. I should have the next chapters for both EJ and KOD ready for posting by the weekend. Look for them around Friday or Saturday.

Melanie's Rules for Non-Suck Writing: Addendum

I had a user of the site (who I hope to see more stories from soon!) contact me about my last list of Rules for Non-Suck Writing and ask my advice about a couple of things. While I was talking to them I made an observation that stuck me as something that could be really useful to share with everyone else too, so I thought I'd add it here:

Rule 11: Every Character is Don Quixote

Nice pic of Caitlyn Jenner cover of Vanity Fair


I'm going to give you two links. One is the Vanity Fair article.

Time has made a world of difference in how trans are accepted. Christine Jorgensen was outed and every low class photo of her looking like a male in drag was posted in magazines and newspapers. Every derogatory crass remark about what an abomination she was, was written and repeated a thousand times.

Melanie's Rules for Non-Suck Writing: Part Deux

My first post about my personal rules for what makes writing -- whether it be games, movies, stories, etc. -- good or bad did really well, and a lot of people seemed to think I had good advice, and good points.

Well, of course I'm going to take a chance of mucking all that up by adding more!

Watch Out Transwomen are eveywhere, including the White House

As some of you have heard, those Trans-people are everywhere in the News and on the Streets.

What you may not have read or heard yet is, 'they' (read 'us') are now in the White House, location of much of the Untied States' political clout.

Moongoddess, are you okay?

You were posting chapters at a pretty good pace, but you've dropped off that pace recently. Is everything okay? Is there anything I can do to help?

I know that, sometimes, real life gets in the way of writing or posting stuff and things crop up that one isn't prepared to deal with just jump up and bite one in their hinderparts. Please let us know how you are and if there is anything we at Top Shelf can do if you need help with something?

Hugs and respect,
Catherine Linda Michel

the future has changed now earth is rule by Amazon women

I have a disability in learning I need a proof editor if you want help me please message me or blog me I will continue my story the Amazons are very evil and are female supremacist want extinction of the male gender

Little Boy-Girl Saga the Story

I though I was done with this story but new ideas came to mind. Like what caused Sabrina, Nicole, Jenny, Jamie and Amber to loss the money that their Grandpa left them. And then the aftermath of chapters 11-13 with a big case that came up.

So if you read the story again I've stopped at

Trouble posting my first story chapter

I just posted the first chapter of a novel length story I am writing, but didn't get things exactly right. 1) How do I make my name show up as author instead of "New Author"? 2) How do I select multiple topics in the header categories (where it is allowed)? 3) I posted in an epub format, but what format should I use so that the story is actually visible without having to download the file. 4) How do I link chapters?

Where did she go??

I know that we all wonder and miss certain writers and members of our group here. I have seen several such queries in the last day or so.
That being said, has anyone heard from or know what has happened to Christina H.? She is one of my most favored authoress' and I have not seen anything from her in a while. I know there were some health issues but I don't like to pry into personal matters unless asked or given knowledge of such.

Come out, come out Chrissy, wherever you are, We miss you!!


bye bye


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Well, I've finally found another excuse beside being lazy not to write. My Apple Mac finally gave up and said I've had enough. Poor thing is about six years old and is so slow it takes ten to fifteen minutes to load a site. It's the 21 inch model and I don't need the larger 27 inch version as it won't fit on my desk, well it could but the size doesn't justify spending an extra $700. The one I'm going to buy is bad enough. Not only do I write my stories on it, but I use it for my business as does my wife for hers also.

Looking to Contact these Authors! (address corrected)

I've been trying to contact four of the authors from my website, Sapphire's Place, and any help you all can give would be great!
While I have their stories, and at one time, had working email addresses for them, I've has a HD crash ( or two ) since then, and I don't have a CURRENT working way to get in touch with them.
I can understand not sharing their contact info, if you have it, but if that is an issue, please, PLEASE have them contact me!

Another tag trick

I found yet another dodge top display translations/definitions. Found this one while reading Wanda Cunningham's "Danny's Girl" chapter 4.

fake link (hover the cursor over the foreign text)

Steve looked superior. "<a title="I could do that but this clown would be able to understand me a little." rel="nofollow">Posso fare quello ma questo pagliacce puá² capirmi un piccolo.</a>"

My Facebook Meltdown


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To all of those who I unfriended recently on Facebook, I'm sorry. I had a meltdown and unfriended over 200 people. I'm not always happy and well-adjusted. Not a surprise.

I'm not happy with Facebook. I find it to be a sad replacement for real life so I'm going to minimize my time on it. I hope you understand.

- Terry

Oh! To Be A Girl


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For personal real life issues, like not being allowed access to my grandchildren, I cannot live full-time as a woman. However, I find relief in going for regular make-overs to a very professional lady on the Gold Coast of Queensland (isn't that an ironic name?) who does a great job of transforming me into a somewhat realistic semblance of a female. I have to say that I love myself after she has performed her magic upon me, even though I can only maintain the illusion for a relatively short time.

A simple plea to the alleged "normal"....


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As I believe in (among other things) total honesty, I have to say, I love recognition.

No, that's not quite accurate. "Crave it like a drug" would be closer to the truth.

Even so, I find myself at a loss when I'm recognized for all the wrong reasons.

This past Tuesday, I and the fellow residents of the apartment complex in which I live took part in an annual trip that's become sort of our farewell to summer. (As summers in Wisconsin have a kind of "blink and you'll miss it" quality, we get our goodbyes in early).

struggling with feeling worthless


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Well, yesterday I got berated for an hour by my aunt saying I neglected my grandmother and now I'm killing my mother.

I think my aunt's comments hit me harder than I realized. I struggled all night at work with feeling worthless, feeling like the world would be better off without me.

Transsexual poster (New)


For anyone who is interested, my fiancee has designed and posted an new design of a transsexual banner which I hope you all will share. It is so true and hopefully will get the message out to all who read it and re-post it.

Here is the link. It is not copyrighted so feel free to share.

Another new transsexual tolerance banner

Abby has done it again. Here is the link and image of the second trans tolerance poster she has made today. Sh is amazing.

Once again it is not copyrighted so you can use it freely as much as you wish.

Random Solo not very random

In the last couple of days, I've seen the *same* stories appear on the "Random Solo" several times.

Just now, for example Giddy Up Go - The Real Story by Carla Ann showed up when I refreshed the page. It showed up about 12 hours back as well. This is the 4th or 5th time I've had a story show up again. In the last 2-3 days.

Also, some authors seem to show up rather frequently. Though this may just be because they have a lot of stories here. :-)

Pathfinder players!

For those participating in the role-playing game tonight...

If you aren't already aware, the chat server for BC has changed to . It DOESN'T auto-reroute you to a room, though, so you'll have to manually direct to the dungeon via the [/JOIN dungeon] command.

I'm heading there now, and I hope to see everyone for the game tonight!

Melanie E.

Attacked by a Chealsea Tractor


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So, if I have misused the term "Chelsea Tractor" in this blog I am sure that one of the UK citizens will be more than happy to correct me after a sound flogging.

So, I was on my way to Ilwaco, Washington to pilot my brother's boat whilst he caught Salmon, gutted them and packed them away. Perhaps he has finally understood.

New Forsythe chapter for "Away of the Summer"

I am so happy to be able to make another announcement so soon after my last one!

Late last night, I received the latest chapter from Forsythe of his story " Away for the Summer", his hit new Age Regression story!

You can find a link to it from our NEW page at:

and while you there check out the other great authors from out " Features Authors Page at:

Harper Lee -- Or Not

A few months ago it was announced that Harper Lee had decided to publish anther book.

I was so excited I signed up with Amazon for first day delivery, because To Kill a Mockingbird is one of my all time favorites.

Before I had a chance to read the book I started to hear negatives remarks, but I was in no way prepared for the amateurish writing in Go Set a Watchman.

Either –

1.) Harper Lee was blessed with one hell of a good editor for Mockingbird, or,
2.) She didn’t write Watchman.

Gore Vidal has a lot to answer for


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Back when I was a teen, I was definitely fairly trans. Though I hadn't a clue that such a thing existed.

I recall things like standing in front of a full length mirror with my boy parts tucked back between my legs. And trying to tape things back inside for a smooth front. Never could get the tape to hold though...

Then I found a book mom had been reading. I read it. And it was my introduction to transexuality. It was also why I didn't even *think* about it for a number of years afterwards.

The book? Myra Breckenridge by Gore Vidal.