I suddenly realised Nadine had stopped. I turned round and saw the look of horror on her face. And then the realisation dawned on me, I’d said it out loud. We stood and stared at each other for a few seconds, my face must’ve turned bright red as I felt it burn up.
Disclaimer: There is a small amount of bad language and physical violence.
by Phantasi Boi
As usual, I sat next to my sister Nadine and watched the school’s 1st team play their football match. This was an important game, the Nottinghamshire County Cup for Schools semi final. Nadine’s boyfriend Josh Connor and captain of our team, very dishy as she put it, had the chance to win the match from the penalty spot. He stepped up, took a short run up and slotted it home sending the keeper the wrong way. The ref blew his whistle for full time; we won 2-1 with the last kick of the game.
There must’ve been about 150 or 160 home supporters, comprised of pupils, teachers and parents, stood or sat round the pitch, we all jumped up and cheered.
“My hero” shouted Nadine, dashing on to the pitch to hug Josh.
It was Saturday afternoon and as we walked home, Nadine was excited at the prospect of the celebrations with Josh later.
“What a guy” she sighed as she had a dreamy look in her eyes,
“Mmmm, yes I agree a real hunk.” I thought to myself.
I suddenly realised Nadine had stopped. I turned round and saw the look of horror on her face. And then the realisation dawned on me, I’d said it out loud. We stood and stared at each other for a few seconds, my face must’ve turned bright red as I felt it burn up.
“What did you just say Nicolas Victor Botham?”
“Erm, oh my god,” I yelled turning bright red and running the rest of the way home.
“Dinner will be about 10 minutes Nick, where’s your sister?” shouted mum as I flew straight past her and up the stairs,
I barged into my room and shut the door; I leant back against it and slid down to the floor, accidentally dragging my dressing gown down on top of me. It was hung on the back of the door.
I could hear footsteps coming up the stairs, “oh oh,” I thought “That’s gotta be Nadine, god, me and my big mouth, shit; what can I say to her.”
There was a knock, I stayed where I was. “Nick, can I come in?” It was Nadine.
I reluctantly got up and opened the door, there was just no point trying to stop her, I walked over to my bed and dived on it, hiding my face from her view.
She walked in, “Nick, are you gay?”
I can’t believe she just came right out with it.
“I can’t believe you just said that!!” I exclaimed, “I really can’t believe………” My voice trailed off as I turned and saw her looking at me with a big grin on her face.
“I do see things little brother, I’m not stupid and I’ve suspected it for some time. I’ve seen the way you look at guys, your reaction to cute or hunky ones. I love you Nick, you’re my favourite brother.”
“I’m your only brother.” I replied, looking rather sheepish. I still hadn’t admitted to anything.
“Shit,” I thought “she thinks I’m gay. If she only knew. She’d kill me, I’m sure of it.”
“Guys, dinner’s ready.” Shouted mum from downstairs.
Nadine gave me that look, the one that says, “Well, am I right?”
I looked at her, “No sis, I’m not gay, I’m not!”
She looked as if she didn’t believe me and turned to leave, she paused, turned back and said “Maybe you’re not, but there is something and I will get to the bottom of it, so you might as well tell me. Come on, let’s eat dinner, we’ll talk later.”
I love my sister, we’ve always got on, there’s only 2 years between us, I’m 14, Nadine’s 16 and depending on her grades, she’ll be heading off to college or uni, to study medicine, she wants to be a doctor. She’s got the brain, I think she’ll make an excellent doctor one day, I gotta say she’s also got that special caring and sensitive nature. She could be a nurse if she doesn’t make it as a doctor, maybe any of the medical profession. But her main aim is to become a surgeon eventually.
In a way, I was a little sad when she changed her mind about careers a couple of years ago. I was her practising model and she was intent on becoming a beautician. Many nights I sat at her dressing table watching as she tried different looks on my face, hair and nails and I would pretend to hate every second of it.
In truth I loved the way the make-up felt and made me look so much like a girl, but she never tried any clothes on me. That was for when I was home alone, sneaking to Nadine’s room to try on her clothes.
Luckily, I take after her and mum in looks, very lucky I guess. The only thing that was unlucky is that I was born with a genetic abnormality; yes I was born with XY chromosomes, instead of XX.
I guess, the onset of puberty will sort me out, but as yet, no sign of that. I often get teased at school and my slightly effeminate mannerisms don’t help, I’ve got used to it though and usually the worst that happens is they call me Nicola, although I have had one or two scares, but nothing serious. I’ve been mistaken for a girl on numerous occasions outside school and have to smile about it. Of course, I never correct the mistake.
Mum’s a nurse at the local hospital, now you know where Nadine gets it from, she’s on nightshift this week, so as we sat down to dinner, she was upstairs getting ready to go to work.
Dad’s a solicitor and he was away at a football match down south, he follows the local team all over the country, personally I don’t understand why he goes so far, I do enjoy going to the home games, but it’s such a long way to go for 90 minutes of football, I think he’s gone to Brighton today, he should be back around midnight.
That means I’ll be home alone from about 8ish when Nadine goes to meet Josh. Perfect, I get to make myself beautiful for a couple of hours. Those nights of being made up helped immensely. I learnt so much from Nadine, unbeknown to her.
“So Nick, what you got planned for tonight then?” Nadine asked.
“Nothing much” I replied “I’ll probably just do a bit of surfing, modify my profiles a bit or sommat.”
“Well just remember, be careful, some guys are total perverts. And if they find out you’re really a boy they won’t be too impressed.”
I sat there, looking like the smiley that has its mouth wide open. I was totally gob smacked. “What the fu…..”
“Now now little bro, watch your language. Haha, I’m just teasing. You always bite.”
My red face, I always blush so easily, “Judging by the colour of your face, I could be nearer the truth than I think.” She teased
“Stop it sis, you know it doesn’t take much to turn me red.” I was starting to get annoyed now.
She wasn’t letting this drop so easily. “Nick, there really is nothing to be ashamed of you know, if you need to talk to someone, I won’t judge you. I’m serious, I don’t know exactly what’s going on in that head of yours but, maybe I can help you.”
The rest of the meal was eaten in silence.
We loaded the dishwasher as mum came down, “Right guys, I’m off” She said kissing us both on the forehead,
“Nadine, please make sure you’re home before midnight or your father will be cross, his team lost today, you know what he’s like when that happens. And Nick, don’t sit at that computer all night, you’ll ruin your eyesight, I wish you had some friends to go and hang out with, I do worry about you sometimes.”
“Bye mum, have a good night at work” we both said together.
It was about 5.30 and Nadine’s mobile wolf-whistled her, I love that text message tone, I have the same one, it’s so cool.
“I bet that’s Josh” I said
“No smarty pants, its Claire actually, she’s just text to say she’s gonna be late and we’re to meet her there. Which means I have an extra 20 minutes to get ready now I don’t have to go to her’s 1st.”
“Wonderful” I thought, “I got an extra 20 minutes to wait to get beautiful”
She saw the look on my face, “Why do you look so disappointed Nicolas? It seems like you can’t wait to get rid of me.”
“Not at all sis, you know I love spending time with my favourite sister.”
“Hmmm, ok then, so what’s on your mind little brother? Come and talk to me while I sort my stuff out for tonight.”
I followed Nadine to her bedroom.
“I really need to talk to someone” I thought, “Maybe, just maybe, Nadine is the right person to share it with. After all, she is my closest friend as well as my sister.”
She started unpacking a carrier bag that was on the floor next to her dresser. “I went shopping with Claire this morning, bought some new make-up. Come here Nick, I wanna try something. Sit down bro.”
I did as she asked.
I keep my hair long, for obvious reasons, plus I’m a teenage dirtbag as the Yanks would say, I’m so into heavy metal. I love my hair, it’s blonde, naturally blonde, I keep it straight and have it in a pony tail for school, taking it out when I get home.
Mum’s always going on at me to cut it, she says I look like her and Nadine when they were the same age, I love it when she says things like that, although I normally complain to her, to give the impression that I hate it. But she knows I love heavy metal, same as dad, so that’s an excuse to keep it long and I have dad on my side there, even though his is short now, but I’ve seen photo’s from back in the 80’s and his hair was longer than mine.
My parents were real ravers back in them days, mum used to wear the shortest skirts; she could still pull it off now I think, even though she’s nearly 40.
Nadine starts brushing my hair, hers is a little longer but she tells me she wants to try something so she can see what hers will look like.
“Ok,” I say, smiling inside.
So she styles it, and when she’s finished, says “Wow, little sis, that looks cool.”
I scowl at her, “Nades, don’t call me that.”
“Hmmm,” she says thoughtfully, “I’ll need to make you up to get the full effect.”
I scowl again, trying to give the impression that I’m not enjoying this. She smiles, a strange look on her face, had my blue eyes betrayed me? I didn’t realise at the time, but she saw them sparkle, I was happy, totally happy as she applied the make-up. She studied me for a few moments.
“Hmmm, that looks pretty good,” She said, “Damn; I wish I’d got you to take that t-shirt off beforehand. We’ll have to be careful not to ruin the look.”
“Why do I need my t-shirt off?” I say
“I told you, I want to get the full effect, which means I need you to put my dress on too. Little sis, you may not realise but, you are a smaller version of me. The only difference being, you don’t have mounds of flesh growing on your chest. Yet.”
“Whoa, what do you mean yet?”
She smiles sweetly, “Nothing, now help me take this t-shirt off. That’s good; I think we did it without doing any damage.”
There was a wolf-whistle. Nadine checked her phone and replied to the message smiling. “Probably Josh” I thought.
“Right Nick, here, put this on” She handed me a pink lacy bra and panty set.
“Oh wait, put this on too” she added, handing me the suspender belt to go with it.
“Wow,” I thought “my dreams are coming true.”
I went to my room and changed into the lingerie, tucking my penis as I had on so many occasions before. I walked back in to Nadine’s room, she looked at me,
“Yes, that’s good Nicolas, or maybe I should say Nicola. Wow, you’re as flat as me under your panties, how did you do that? Hmmm, looks like this isn’t the 1st time, I know I’ve done your make-up and hair before but I’ve never got you to put panties on. I’ve got an idea, sit down, I’ll paint your toenails, Then I better start getting myself ready for tonight. So Niki, how long have you been wearing my panties?”
I was horrified and it must’ve shown “Hey, don’t worry sis, I won’t tell anyone. I’ll even sort some clothes out for you to wear if it stops you borrowing my best stuff.”
She finished my toenails and handed me the varnish, “I know you can do your finger nails, you’ve done them before, I recall.” I blushed again, I wish I didn’t, but I couldn’t help it.
“I’ll let you put your face on too, while I take a shower and start getting ready.”
In a state of shock, I painted my finger nails while my toes dried. I then let my fingers dry as Nadine came out of the bathroom in her towels.
“Here sis, put these stockings on,” She handed me some pink fishnet stockings and I sat on the edge of her bed and put them on, rolling them up professionally.
“So little sis, how long have you been a cross-dresser?”
“I’m not a cross-dresser” I replied.
“Well why do you like wearing girl’s clothes and make-up then?” She asked.
I’d researched on the internet and knew I was trans-gendered, I don’t get any sexual pleasure from ‘dressing’, it makes me feel complete, it feels natural. How could I tell my sister that I wanted to be female or that I saw myself as female?
“Ok Niki, I’ll tell you what I think and then you either agree or disagree. I’ve read up online about this, I’ve had my suspicions for a while now. And I knew if I got you ‘dressed’ I could get you to talk to me, sorry sis, I’ve set you up. If you’re not a cross-dresser then you must be either a female or trans-gendered, I’ve seen you naked often enough to know you’re not female. So, my guess is that you feel that you are or should be female. Am I right?”
I sit there, my head bowed and just sigh, then, with tears in my eyes, I look at Nadine and nod, then I burst into tears and she hugs me close.
“I can’t go and leave you like this, I’ll call Josh and tell him you’re ill and I’m staying to look after you.”
“No sis, you can’t do that, I’ll be fine. You’ve been looking forward to tonight. I’ll be ok, really.”
“Are you sure Nick? I love you little brother, if you’ve got problems, I wanna help you deal with them.
“Really Nades, I’ll be fine, stop worrying. I can text or ring you if I need you.” I tried my best to re-assure her.
“Ok, but this is serious you know, I can’t remember the figure, but there is a high rate of suicides in the trans-gendered community, Like I said, I’ve researched this. We need to do something about it, the longer you keep it inside, the worse it’ll be. At least you’ve got me to talk to now and I’ll help you as much as I can. I’ve been thinking of the course I wanna study eventually at uni, if they do it, somewhere must do, I wanna specialise in gender re-assignment surgery. One of my internet friends is a T-Girl; she’s saving up for surgery.”
I was shocked at the way Nadine was talking, I knew she was a caring and sensitive person, but I had no idea she knew anything about and was supportive of my situation.
“I’ve spent many a night chatting to Melissa online, she lives in Manchester in the Village, she keeps inviting me to go over and go clubbing with her, but I’m not sure, I don’t know if Josh would approve, he’s such a macho man. But I’ve seen pictures of Melissa and just like with you, there’s no way she could be mistaken for male.”
I smiled, I hate being male, why did I have to be born with my genetic abnormality.
She hands me a pink dress “Right, now, here, put this on, oh and attach the suspenders to your stockings. Wait Niki, hmmm, I know, I’ve got just the thing.”
She takes back the dress and searches in her wardrobe, finding a white miniskirt, she hands it to me. A thoughtful look was on her face.
“Take them stockings off, put these on, white will look better than pink and then you can wear this black blouse with the skirt. There’s some white ankle boots in the bottom of my wardrobe too, be careful though, they are 3 inch heels. Now, I’d better put my dress on, Josh will be here soon.”
I put the skirt and top on and fished the boots out, I put them on, perfect fit, we’re the same size. I’d tried these on a few times so I knew anyway and I know how to walk in them. I showed her.
“How do I look?” I ask, I’m grinning wide, I’ve never felt so good.
Nadine turns round as she’s putting some earrings in her ears, her mouth opens wide. “Fuck” she says, “I…I mean, my god. I’m seeing myself, only” she gulps “better. And you can walk in those heels too. Look in the mirror Niki.”
I look in her full length mirror, I can’t believe my eyes. I look just like Nadine, except for the lack of breasts. “Nades, I can’t believe that’s actually me. I wish I had breasts, I really do.”
“I’ve an idea,” She switches her monitor on, we have broadband and it’s always connected. She types ‘breast forms’ into Google and it brings up a list of several UK suppliers.
“There you go Niki, have a look through those. How do I look?”
I turn to look at my big sister. “Absolutely gorgeous, Josh won’t know what’s hit him. I’m so glad I take after you and mum instead of dad, I know dad’s cute, but he’s way too masculine, if only I could change my Y for another X.”
We both collapse in fits of giggles, sounding just like a couple of girls.
The doorbell rings, “That’ll be Josh, you sure you’re gonna be ok??”
“Yes, go and enjoy yourself sis, I’m looking at these and there’s other stuff I’m gonna check out too.
“Ok, give me a hug and don’t leave it any later than 11.00 to take all that stuff off, the make-up remover is on my dresser and leave to clothes on my bed, I love you Niki”
“Love you too sis, and thanks for being my sis, I don’t know what I’d do without you.” I hug her tight.
I sit at Nadine’s computer, I’m searching for breast forms, I’m starting to get an idea of what I want, so I log on to eBay and I’m surprised to see a few different eBay stores that supply the trans-gendered community.
I’m busy reading, I’ve found a trans-gender site called ‘The BigCloset’ and I’m reading a story about a boy who’s forced to become a girl by the bullies at his all boys school, they ambush him at home and glue his privates up to make it look like he wants to be a girl, it’s a great story and I soon become engrossed.
I’m so engrossed in it that I don’t realised the time, it’s just after 11.45, the front door opens, I don’t hear it, someone creeps up the stairs, I don’t hear them, I do however, hear a tapping as someone knocks on my bedroom door. I start to panic, I see the time and Nadine’s not due back yet. I gulp as Nadine’s bedroom door opens, I’m frozen to the spot and Dad walks in.
“Hi Princess, where’s your brother?”
He thinks I’m Nadine, my god, I smile weakly, shrug and the front door opens again, oh crap.
Dad steps into Nadine’s room and gestures for me to be quiet. He thinks it’s me coming up the stairs, I gulp. As the foot steps draw near, he steps out,
“Nicolas Botham, what time do you call………………….. Nadine!! But, but how? What the fu……….”
“Daddy!! Language” Exclaims Nadine.
Dad’s mouth is open wide as he looks from Nadine to me and then back again, “What’s going on here?” He’s in total shock. “Where’s Nick? How come there’s 2 Nadines? How is that even possible?” He suddenly stops, “Oh my god, stand side by side, oh my god” He stares for a few seconds. “Nicolas Victor, or is it Nicola Victoria? The only difference I can see is that one of you has breasts.”
Dad sits on the end of Nadine’s bed, his head in his hands.
“Daddy, I’m so sorry, I wanted to tell you. I want to be a girl, just like Nadine. I want breasts too,” I start to cry; Nadine puts her arms round me to comfort me.
He suddenly lifts his head up, I can see the look on his face, the look of fury. “You fucking freak, you little fucking pervert” He screams at me.
“He’s gonna kill me, shit, I’m dead” I think as he moves towards me, he grabs my arm and starts dragging me out the room, Nadine tries to free me, dad’s lost it, he’s absolutely insane, he pushes Nadine off, luckily she lands on her bed. I struggle and get free; I run down the stairs, open the front door and flee into the night.
I walk for maybe half an hour, I wander through the town, my arms folded across my chest, tears trickling down my cheeks, burning my skin in the cool night air. I’m not sure where I’m going, not knowing where I can go.
A car suddenly pulls up beside me, Nick get in, I turn and look, it’s Claire, Nadine’s best mate. I carry on walking “Leave me alone” I shriek, sounding very much like a girl.
I hear a car door open and shut, footsteps running after me.
“Nick please stop.” There’s a short pause. “Nicola please.”
I stop, my arms still folded across my chest, I turn round. “What?” I say and the tears turn to a torrent of sobs.
Claire’s arms envelope me and pull me towards her, “Come on sugar” she says softly, “Let’s get you home.”
I start to panic, “I’m not going home, I can’t, he’ll kill me. Oh Claire, dad’s gone ape, he tried to hurt me, he called me a freak, a pervert” I broke down again.
“Shhh, it’s ok baby, my home, Nadine rang me, and she asked me to take care of you. Come on, get in the car, I’ll take you to my flat. Hey, your mascara’s running, you need to fix your face.”
I smile weakly at her, “Ok, thank you Claire, you won’t tell anyone will you?”
“Nicola, why would I tell anyone? You’ve always treated me like another sister, so that’s what we are, sisters, ok?” I nod
She starts walking me to her car and helps me in the passenger seat. She walks round to the driver’s side, gets in and drives the short distance to her town centre flat.
I sit down on her sofa as soon as we get in the flat, I must’ve dozed off because the next thing I know is I’m being gently shaken awake.
“Nadine honey, hey sleepyhead, come on, lets get you to bed”
I wake with a start, I’m in Nadine’s room, at her computer desk and its dad, shaking me, he lifts me gently and puts me on the bed. I open my eyes and scream,
“It’s ok princess, its daddy, no one’s gonna hurt you.”
“He thinks I’m Nadine, oh shit, not again.” I think.
“Where’s Nick? I thought you were going out and he was staying in.” He says softly.
“Daddy what are you doing?” It’s Nadine from behind him.
Dad freezes, looks down, turns round and sees my sister; she’s stood open mouthed looking at me.
“O….k,” says dad, still softly, “will someone please tell me what’s going on here? I know I’m not seeing double, Nicolas, why are you dressed in your sisters clothes and why were you asleep at her computer?”
“He’s calm, that’s good” I think, “Now do I tell him the truth?”
Dad sits on the end of Nadine’s bed, his head in his hands.
“Daddy, I’m so sorry, I wanted to tell you. I want to be a girl, just like Nadine. I want breasts too,” I start to cry; Nadine comes over to me and puts her arms round me to comfort me.
He suddenly lifts his head up, I can see the look on his face, the look of confusion. “I think I need a drink, can I get you 2 ladies one?”
He gets up, leaves the room and walks downstairs.
Nadine & I stare at each other open-mouthed.
“Well,” I say “I wasn’t expecting that”
“Me neither, you told dad, you just told dad you want to be a girl.”
“I know, I was shitting myself too” I tell her of my nightmare. “Then I woke up with dad leaning over me and just screamed, he thought I was you.”
“Claire can’t even drive yet silly, she’s not quite 16 even” We both giggle. “What are we gonna do with you little sis?”
Dad shouts up to us, “Will you both come downstairs please kids, I think we need to talk.”
We get up, refresh our make-up, leave the room and head downstairs. Dad’s in his study, we walk through and he motions us to sit on the sofa.
He offers us a drink. Dad’s not a big drinker, but he does like the odd drop of brandy, he doesn’t agree with us kids drinking either, but he lets us have alcohol on special occasions. “Funny,” I think, “I don’t recall this being a special occasion.”
We both politely decline.
He looks at us, “It’s amazing, I really can’t tell the difference between you, except,” He blushes, “except, I’m presuming Nicolas, you’re the one without breasts.”
My turn to blush, I nod “Yes daddy, that’s correct.”
“Well I………don’t know what to say now, I really don’t, I’m shocked. Do you want us to call you Nicola or Niki or Nick or what? Does your mother know?”
Nadine speaks up, “Don’t be angry with Niki daddy, it’s not her fault, she can’t help the way she feels. Mummy doesn’t know, at least, neither of us have told her or anyone else, only you.”
“Daddy, are you angry with me?” I start to cry again. Nadine put her arms round me.
“No sweetheart, I’m not angry, how can I be angry, like your sister said, it’s not your fault. Quite frankly, I’m not entirely shocked either; we thought you were gay to be honest.” Dad was still speaking softly, I was relieved.
“I represented a transsexual a few years back, very nice girl she was, I felt really sorry for her, she’d been attacked for no other reason than she was a TS. The jury found the thugs not guilty even though the evidence was overwhelmingly for a guilty verdict, the Judge though, she overruled the decision and the 3 thugs got 3 years each, not the best outcome, but it shows the intolerance of the human race. Thankfully the laws are changing and so are people, but there’s still a lot out there that are homophobic”
“Daddy, I’m not gay, homophobia is aimed at homosexuals, I’m transsexual, I’m not gay” I tried to explain, not sure if he understood but at that moment in time, the main thing was, he sounded like I had his support.
“Nicolas, Nicky, Nicola,” he frowned, “Sorry sweetheart, it will take time. Nicola, you are my son……daughter……. erm, child, whatever or whoever you are or want to be, I love you and I will support you. I’m sure your mother will say the same, although I can’t speak for her. Now, I think its time we all went off to bed, it’s nearly 1.00 in the morning and we can talk about this tomorrow with your mother.”
“Come on sis, let’s go up, I’ll find you a nightie to wear” Nadine grabbed my hand, we went and kissed dad goodnight, “Night daddy,” we both said “Love you.”
“Night girls, love you too, sleep tight.” He replied, kissing us both on the forehead and hugging us tight.
We climbed back up the stairs, Nadine fetched her make-up removal stuff and we went in the bathroom and removed our make-up.
“Well sis, looks like you’re gonna need those breast forms after all, did you see any you liked?” Nadine asked me as we went back to her room.
“I saw loads” I replied, “Not sure which size to get though.”
“See what mum says, maybe you can grow your own.” We giggled at the thought of me growing breasts.
“Right Niki, let me find you a nightie, you better get undressed, might as well leave your panties on cause you can wear a babydoll and I don’t wanna see your bits dangling down.” We giggled again, such a girlie thing, it’s great.
She handed me a pink babydoll, “You like putting me in pink don’t you Nades?”
“Pink suits you sis. It suits me too, I love pink, so girlie and feminine.” She replied.
I had to agree with her, such a wonderful colour, guys don’t wear pink, well, some do, but I’ve always thought there’s something suspect about a guy in pink. Mmmm pink, I think I need to redecorate my room.
We said our goodnights and went to our own beds, I climbed in feeling happy and relieved. My first night sleeping in a nightie, I curled up and started drifting off.
I woke up with a start, I was being shaken rather roughly by my mother. “Wake up you little faggot, time to get up, you wanna be a girl do you? Well? Answer me you fairy.”
I started to cry, why was mum being so nasty? Why? I shouted out, she held her hand over my mouth, I noticed behind her, a man in green clothing, like they wear in the hospital operating theatres. Somebody held me down and my mother pulled back the sheets. Nadine and my dad were stood at the door laughing. Oh my god, suddenly I saw people from my school starting to crowd in, they were all chanting “Chop em off, chop em off”
Mum pulled my panties down and then she laughed and grabbed my tiny penis. The doctor had a carving knife in his hand, he swung it and my mum lifted my penis up to show me, “There you filthy little faggot, there, now you’re a girl, now you can wear pretty pink dresses and grow your own tits, now you can be a proper little bitch”
I screamed load, I felt arms wrapping round me and suddenly realised, my daddy was holding me tight and comforting me, Nadine was sat there too, stroking my hair. “Damn nightmares” I thought, suddenly I felt safe, I calmed down and clung so tight to my father.
I explained about the dream, we heard the front door open and close. I started to shake. “It’s ok princess, it’s ok, it’s only mummy coming home from work, you know she won’t hurt you, don’t you?”
I nodded, A few seconds later; mum popped her head in, “Is this a private party of have you room for one more? Nick, why are you wearing your sister’s nightie?”
Dad got up and went over to mum, he got her to sit down. “Niki has something to tell you love, you might want to sit down. “
She sat down, right next to me, “Niki is it? When I went to work last night, you were called Nick. You always complained if anyone called you Niki, because it was too girlie. I also remember you telling me there was something suspect about a guy in pink, more than once. Nick, you’re wearing pink and you have nail varnish on, explain please.”
“Well mummy, please don’t be upset or angry, but I really would like to be a girl, I want to be a sister to Nadine and a daughter to you and daddy.”
Mum laughed, “A girl? You want to be a girl? Sweetheart, you’ve always been a girl to me.”
She hugged me to her bosom and we both cried, half in relief and half in happiness. Nadine and daddy climbed on the bed and we had a family hug and a family cry.
The End
by Phantasi Boi
Intro: Here’s my 1st attempt at a serial, I don’t know how long it will be as yet, or where it’s headed, I’m making it up as I go along. I welcome comments be they praise or criticism. I know I’m a novice and there’s no way this will be as good as my favourite stories on here, but I’m trying my best.
“Well you don’t help the situation, if you’d have a haircut like your dad keeps suggesting, you might look a bit more masculine.” She replied
“I like long hair, I’ve always had long hair, I don’t see how that makes me look like a girl” he said sulkily
Chapter 1: An Invitation
“Hey look” Jess was scanning the local paper for something to do at the weekend. “I think I’ve found it Lini”
The summer holidays were in full swing. A week gone and already the teenagers were getting a little bored. As they sat in Jessica’s kitchen, they scanned the local paper and Linford had his laptop open looking at the county’s website.
“Cut it out Jess that makes me sound like a girl, you know I hate it” Whined Linford “Call me Ford will ya.”
“How long have we known each other Lini?? You’re getting so touchy these days” Replied the girl. “Ok, Ford!! I’ve found sommat for us to do on Friday night.”
“Go on then, tell me what you’ve found, I hope it’s good, this village is a real drag this summer.” Replied Ford
“Well Lin………..Ford, sorry.” She started, then added “You never used to complain about being called Lini.”
“No, but seeing as all the other guys my age have successfully negotiated puberty and I don’t seem to be even starting it yet, I’m having the piss taken out of me and being called a girl. I don’t even look like one and being called Lini or Lin doesn’t help.” He sounded slightly upset as he said this, Jess decided to cut him some slack and not mention the fact that he sounded just like one and “actually” she thought, “you do look a bit girly now you come to mention it.”
“Well you don’t help the situation, if you’d have a haircut like your dad keeps suggesting, you might look a bit more masculine.” She replied
“I like long hair. You know I’ve always had long hair, I don’t see how that makes me look like a girl” he said sulkily, Jess shot him an incredulous look, he continued without noticing. “Lots of guys have long hair, besides, if I have it cut, my dad will think he’s won and another thing, I’ll be definitely classed as a geek, I can’t help being into computers, I’m a bit small for rugby, no good at football, just leave it alright. I’m a guy, I am, I don’t look anything like a girl and I’m not even the slightest bit effeminate.” Ford was starting to lose his temper a bit “Anyway, what have you found for us to do this weekend??”
“Wow,” Thought Jess, “did I hit a raw nerve there or what?? He sounds more like a whiny teenage girl than I do.”
It so happened that at 16 years old, Linford Saunders was the smallest in his year. His voice hadn’t yet broken; his below shoulder length hair was longer than all the other boys and some of the girls in his school. The village itself was pretty small; their school was in the next town which was 5 miles away. Most people in the village knew each other with a few exceptions. Linford was very bright, being nearly top in all his classes, excelling in computer studies and maths. His academic prowess was his saving grace as his sporting abilities, with the exception of table tennis and to a certain extent cricket, we’re very below average.
His partner in crime Jess had lived next door all their lives, there was 3 months between them, he being the oldest and for the last 2 months they’d both been 16. They’d grown up together and were like brother and sister, often fighting like siblings too. Their parents were also best friends; their dads had been friends for over 30 years, ever since they met at primary school.
Jess was pretty good academically; she loved English, maths and computer studies as well as art and literature. She was getting on pretty well in drama and trying to persuade her friend to start drama class in the 6th form, next term. She thought he could probably make a decent actor.
“Well, a chance for you to show how masculine and macho you are, Dozer’s 18th birthday at the Village Hall and it’s fancy dress, maybe you could go as Rey Mysterio or Shawn Michaels or one of those other tough guy WWE Superstars.”
“Oh, well that’s just peachy innit?? We’ll never get invited to that, Dozer hates me and you’re not cool to his mob cos you hang around with me.”
“Yeah, I know that, but Kyle Bates will be there, he’s such a hunk, it’ll be one of my last chances to get off with him before he leaves for college in September.” Jess sighed “Oh yes, and Beryl Patterson will be there also, I know you fancy her, maybe you could use it to impress her.”
“Who’s Linford trying to impress now??” Asked Jess’ mum, walking in to the kitchen.
“No one Betty” Linford answered quicker than his friend.
Jess had other ideas than to keep it secret from her mum. “He fancies Beryl Patterson, she’ll be at Dozer’s party on Friday night and we haven’t been invited, so we’re both out of luck.”
“Are you still chasing the Bates’ oldest son then Jess?? Or is there someone else you’re not telling me about” Laughed her mum.
Jess blushed, “Mother!! Kyle’s so hunky, why would I be looking elsewhere??” She shrieked. “Besides, how do you know he’s gonna be there??”
“I was talking to his mother in the supermarket this morning and she mentioned it then, she says he’s going as Conan the Barbarian, so how you planning on getting in then?? It’s exclusive you know, no ticket, no entry.”
Jess looked at Ford pleadingly.
“What??” He said. “You can’t seriously expect me to come up with a plan for this, there’s no way we’ll ever get tickets for this one.”
“Well, with what Carol was saying, it sounds like there’s a lack of girls going, so Jessica might be in luck.” Mentioned Betty
“Just great.” Replied Ford, “So if I was a girl, I might just get in, that figures, my luck is never good. But if I was a girl, Beryl wouldn’t be interested in me.”
“You might be onto something there.” Suggested Betty, looking at Jess with a funny grin.
Suddenly, her daughter clicked on to what her mum was thinking and they both looked at Ford.
“What??” He asked looking up from his laptop.
“Well, I’ve got an idea; you only need to get in, right?? After that, you’ll be free to wander round the hall to your heart’s content.” A devilish grin was now on Betty’s face “It is fancy dress after all.” Linford looked a little uneasy. But he was still not quite sure what she was getting at.
“Linford, how badly do you want to go out with Beryl Patterson??” Asked Jess.
“I hope you’re not suggesting what I think you are,” It finally dawned on him, “Why are the Rowland women crazy?? And why does it always seem to get me in some kind of shit??”
They laughed, Linford was getting nervous and Betty reached into her hand bag, looking at them both she pulled something from it, a rectangular piece of card. “This says ‘Jessica Rowland + 1’” She declared.
Both Jessica and Linford’s eyes opened wide and they both exclaimed “No way!!”
“Mrs Harris was there as well this morning, I mentioned that u hadn’t had an invite, so she gave me this and said to bring a girlfriend that hadn’t been invited.”
Linford’s face dropped, Jess still had the widest grin on her face but then realised what her mum had said. “Oh no, you said girlfriend, but what about Ford??”
“Oh I don’t know, a little lip gloss and his hair tidied up, he can slip one of your dresses on and he’ll easy pass for a girl, looks like Lin will be your cousin who’s here for the summer eh??” The mischievous laugh from Betty as she said this struck mortal fear into Linford’s soul.
“Don’t you start too Betty.” He whined, “I’ll never live it down if I go as a girl.”
“Looks like you’ll be spending Friday night at home then Lini,” Teased Jess.
Despondently he hung his head, what was he to do?? He couldn’t pass as a girl, no way, even in his pre-pubescent state, his voice, his masculinity would betray him. He’d never live it down; even if it was the only way he could get in to the party and make a play for Beryl.
“Oh man, this sort of thing always happens to me,” He said sadly, looking at the women, he saw the look on their faces that he dreaded. They weren’t serious surely, or were they??
Jess broke the silence, “Well, we could always give it a go mate. See if we can turn you from a butch, masculine type into a soft feminine girly type.” He glared at her, she continued. “We’ve got 5 days, I can teach you how to walk, act and talk just like a girl. My clothes will fit you, I’m not much taller and we’re about the same dress size, hmmm, shame you haven’t got boobs though.”
He carried on his glare at his friend, “What do you mean shame I haven’t got boobs?? I’m not becoming a girl for anyone. Not even for a fancy dress party, they all take the piss enough as it is. Besides, there is no way, I repeat, NO WAY; I can pass as a girl.”
Betty and Jess had tears rolling down their faces, tears of laughter, how they loved making fun of Linford when they were in this mood.
“You’ve gotta laugh Lini baby!!” Betty exclaimed.
“No I haven’t, you 2 are crazy to even think I could do it, I’m just not feminine enough.” He replied, his frustration starting to show. “I’m gonna go home and try to figure out a way to get in to the party, I’ll see you later.”
He hugged the 2 women and they both kissed him on the cheek and then he stomped out the back door mumbling “I’m not going as a girl”
Betty looked at her daughter, “You know, I’ve got a feeling Linford could pass as a girl and I think he knows it too. Hmmm, he was a little too upset about what we were implying. I think I’ll have a word with Jenny and see if we can come up with an idea to persuade him. After all, it is for his benefit.”
Jess looked thoughtful, “Ok, I’ll come with you mum, I’m sure between the three of us we can come up with something. If we could break his defences and show him, he might realise. To be honest with you, I think he’s in denial; he does seem to be getting a bit girly and moody these days. It’s as if he’s going through puberty as a teenage girl rather than a boy, if he starts budding, I swear, I wouldn’t be surprised.”
They laughed, although both slightly concerned, “Puberty is a funny thing Jess, it affects everyone differently, he’s probably just starting it now bless him, I bet his voice will break next, then he’ll be happy I think.”
by Phantasi Boi
Intro: Here’s chapter 2 of my 1st attempt at a serial, As always I welcome comments be they praise or criticism. Please don’t be angry if I get any facts wrong regarding gender issues, it is only a story, besides the characters themselves could be getting it wrong rather than me. Feel free to point out any errors I make though. [It’s worth reading “One Saturday Night”, my short story, before reading this chapter. Although not absolutely critical.]
Dozer’s having a fancy dress party for his 18th birthday, Jess is invited but Linford isn’t, Jess can bring a girlfriend, that doesn’t help Linford. Jess and her mum have other ideas though. It’s July and the summer holidays, 3 months after One Saturday Night. Just look who else is gonna be there.
Chapter 2: Cousins
Peter Harris reversed his XR3i off the drive, he hoped there wouldn’t be much traffic on the road, it was a lovely warm Monday afternoon in July and he was looking forward to seeing his cousins from the midlands again, Well, one of them he was looking forward to seeing, the other one, he wasn’t quite sure what to expect, after all, his 15 year old cousin was a shemale.
“Oh crap,” He thought, “that’s not right, now what was the word I was sposed to use? Interflora? Interstate? Aahh, no, it was sommat sexual I’m sure. Damn you Nicolas, why did you join the other side? Are you sick?”
His mobile rang, with more moaning he pulled over to the side of the road and pulled it out of his door pocket, he looked and saw it was Nadine. He hadn’t invested in a hands free kit, he thought the earpiece ones looked stupid and only a poser uses Bluetooth, a fitted one would ruin the interior of his prized car.
He answered it. “Hi cus, I’ll be there in 2 mins, some dumb blonde just rang me and held me up.” He laughed, he loved winding his cousins up.
“Take your time you big ape, the party isn’t till Friday and its only Monday, we’ll grab a Pepsi Max from the shop on the platform while we wait. Hope you’re feeling strong, we got quite a lot of luggage, you know us girls don’t travel light.”
He grimaced, not at the thought of having luggage to carry; he was a strong macho rugby player, that’s why his nickname was Dozer, short for bulldozer. No, he grimaced at Nadine saying “US GIRLS”
“Ok,” He replied. “Get your girly drinks and I’ll be there when ya come out.”
Nadine laughed, she loved her big strong cousin, but he wasn’t the subtlest of people, this could be a little bit awkward for Niki. “Cya soon Dozy.” She said and hung up.
As Dozer climbed on to the platform, he thought he was seeing double, despite the fact there was 19 months between his 2 cousins, he couldn’t tell them apart, he stared open mouthed, “Oh my god” he thought, presently they saw him and ran to him hugging him tight and covering his cheeks with kisses.
Two beautiful teenage girls happily chatted away alongside him as he carried their cases to his car, “This could actually be fun” he thought as they continued on. It’d been about 3 years since he’d seen Nadine or Nicolas. He’d been totally shocked when his mum broke the news that Nicolas was now to be called Nicola. He’d heard about shemales or transsexuals on the internet and through conversations with his friends. He’d even visited a few porn sites and seen them. But the one’s he’d seen were the type that had had breast implants that looked really strange and they seemed to always be shagging or having oral sex. His wasn’t the slightest bit turned on by them, course he was straight, a real ladies man, not bad looking and his body was well muscled and that impressed most girls.
He couldn’t help but notice however, that Nicola was obviously not like the ones he’d seen, whichever one of the two she was, she was definitely a babe, they both were, then he slapped himself mentally for thinking that.
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As he stomped through the gate that connected his and Jess’ back gardens, Ford thought about what was said. How the hell was he gonna get in the party? Yes true it was fancy dress and he supposed at a push he could dress as a girl, some of the other guys would no doubt do that. But Jess and Betty were talking about him actually going as a girl, as a girl, not a pretend girl, but trying to make out he was a girl. “Well, there’s no way I’d pass as a girl, and besides, how would that help with Beryl Patterson, unless she’s part lezzy.” He thought as he entered the back door of his house.
“Hi love.” Said his mum as he walked in the house. “How’s the planning going? Have you found anything exciting to do?”
“Nothing really, there’s a fancy dress party at the village hall on Friday night for Dozer’s 18th, but I haven’t been invited.” He sighed. “Jess has, but they want her to take a girlfriend, there’s a serious lack of girls going apparently.”
“Aaww, poor you, can’t you dress up and go with her? After all, it is fancy dress and I’m pretty sure you could pass as a girl love. Especially with that hair.” She added the last part as an after thought.
Ford stopped, he looked incredulously at his mother, he was mortified. “What is it with the women of this street?” He screamed. “It’s bad enough that my best mate and her mum think I’m girly, without my own friggin’ mother jumping on the band wagon.”
Tears were streaming down his cheeks as he stormed off upstairs, slammed his bedroom door and sat down heavily on his bed, nearly dropping his laptop. “That would be just so damn peachy.” He thought, just stopping it from hitting the floor.
“Why am I crying?” He thought, he stood and looked in the mirror. “I’ve never cried hardly, for 16 years, suddenly, the last couple of weeks, I’ve cried more than at any other time. I must be finally going through puberty, the teenage hormones raging, obviously.”
He absentmindedly flicked his hair in a most feminine way and then glared at himself. “Don’t you friggin’ start,” he shouted and threw himself on his bed, he yelped as his chest hit the bed.
Betty and Jess let themselves in just as Jenny was filling the kettle, “Aahh, here they are, my son’s tormentors. Tea ladies?”
“Yes please Jen, oh has he told you then? We were ribbing him about dressing as a girl for a fancy dress party.” Replied Betty.
“Yes he told me and I sorta made it worse by agreeing with you two.” Conceded Jenny and then added “He stormed off up the stairs sulking.”
“Takes after his dad in some ways then Jen.” Laughed Betty.
“Isn’t that just like a man though, you know how they sulk, especially when their masculinity is questioned or their ego is shattered.” Offered Jess not wanting to be left out.
The three women laughed at this. Betty and Jenny exchanged knowing glances. Unfortunately, masculinity wasn’t a term easily associated with Linford. Although, not aggressively feminine, but he certainly was no he-man.
“I’ll go up and see if he’s ok,” Offered Jess, she had been concerned by his mood swings of late and two or three times noticed his red eyes as if he’d been crying. “He’s getting very emotional lately.”
Jenny handed her two mugs of tea to take up with her, she thanked her and climbed the stairs and went to Linford’s bedroom.
She knocked on the door.
“Go away mum, I’m busy.” He yelled.
Jess walked in, “I’m not your mum, stop yelling at me, I’ve brought you some tea mate.” He was stood topless looking at his chest in the mirror. She added “You checking to see if your chest’s started sprouting yet?”
“What do you mean?” He snapped, covering himself with one arm and reaching for his t-shirt with his other. He slipped it on and Jess thought he acted in a way she would if a boy had walked in on her.
“You know Ford, you can talk to me, we’re practically siblings and I love you like a brother.” She tried to calm the situation. She handed him the tea and sat down on the edge of his bed. “What’s with you lately? You’re acting really strange and very moody.”
“There’s nothing wrong with me Jess,” He pouted, “at least, nothing wrong for someone who’s starting to go through puberty, I guess.”
He sat down next to her smiling, “Sorry for snapping before, maybe you’re right. It could be a laugh actually, to go dressed as a girl.” He reached over to pick his tea up and winced in pain as his shirt caught his tender nipples.
“Are u ok?” Jess asked him, alarmed at his reaction, “Where does it hurt?”
“I’m fine Jess, think I pulled my shoulder, it feels a bit tender, will you please stop fussing, there’s nothing wrong with me.” Then he thought, “Except I’m growing tits, now that’s just friggin’ peachy ain’t it.”
“Funny,” Thought Jess, “It wasn’t your shoulder you favoured, seemed more like your chest to me.” She decided not to say anything for the moment and just smiled as she drank her tea.
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“Wow,” Said Nadine, “or was it Nicolas,” Thought Dozer as he pulled onto the drive. “That was cool driving Pete, nice car too” Added Niki, “It must be Nicolas” He thought, “Nadine never calls me Pete.”
“Thanx Nicolas, erm, Nicola, erm Nick, Niki,” He sighed, blushing slightly “What do I call you?”
“Any of them apart from Nicolas” She replied, obviously amused at his attempt. The girls both remembered their father saying pretty much the same.
They got out the car and were standing on the Harris drive.
“Well look at you two fine young ladies, your parents must be so proud of you; my my you both look very well indeed. Nicola Botham, I swear you’re your sister’s double” She said, hugging them both, she added with a wink “Your mother was right then, she always knew you were a girl.”
Niki blushed bright red, “Aunt Maureen, I wish someone had told me that years ago, I feel like I’ve wasted so much time.”
Dozer looked at his mum, shaking his head he said with a grin, “I don’t know how you tell them apart”
The girls and his mum laughed and turned round and walked in the house. Dozer shrugged and followed in with their cases.
Indeed, the only external differences between the 2 these days was a lovely feminine chain with Nicola on it that Maureen had bought Niki for her 15th birthday. Niki was wearing it, she loved it.
[Author’s note: For anyone who read One Saturday Night, yes, Niki was 14 then but her birthday is May 29th, as that story was set in April and this started in July, she had her 15th birthday a couple of months ago.]
Niki was also wearing breast forms that were more or less the same size as Nadine’s real boobs, although, since starting the hormone treatment, Niki’s boobs and nipples were starting out quite well, she still had a long way to go to catch her sister and with the new fake vagina she wore as well, if they stood naked together, there was practically no way you could tell them apart. Except maybe Nadine had slightly wider hips and thinner waist.
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“So,” Jess looked at her friend. “You want to come to mine and practice for Friday night then??”
Linford scowled “I don’t know Jess, it just doesn’t seem right, I mean, could you actually imagine me looking feminine?? I feel like I’d be letting my masculine side down.” Lini scowled at him inside his head.
Jess felt diplomatic, she knew that would be the only way to persuade him to go for it. “I know what you mean mate, but even you admitted it could be fun, it’s not like you’re gonna be a girl full time is it?? Just till we get home after the party, that’s all.”
“What?? You mean, you want me to dress up all week??” He replied.
“Only till after the party, then if you want, you can return to your masculine status and forget it ever happened. Of course Beryl would probably be impressed with you for passing as a girl just so you could get to talk to her at the party.” This thought had just come to her and she smiled to herself, pleased with it.
“No way Jess, I can’t do it, I’m far too masculine and Beryl would think I’m gay or sommat.” Was what he wanted to say, but Lini took over and said “Ok, look, I’ll do it, but, there’s no way I’m going anywhere till Friday night, I can slip through the back gate between our houses, but that’s it. I’m not going anywhere else.” She smiled inside and then HE reprimanded HER for doing so.
Jess thought she noticed a brief gleam in his eyes, “Hmmm,” she thought, “So Lini Saunders, you do want to play after all.”
Half an hour later, Linford was sat on Jess’ bed, a towel wrapped round his chest another wrapped round his head; he’d just shaved what little hair he had on his legs and showered.
“Hold still or it won’t be straight” Complained Jess.
Ford was protesting, “I don’t see why I need my ears piercing, not all girls have earrings in.” “But this girl wants earrings” Replied Lini silently.
“I know silly, but it’s more convincing, besides, they’ll heal up quickly after you take them out, so sit still. Friday morning, first thing, we’re going to the salon to get our faces, hair and nails sorted out. But in the meantime, I’ll teach you how to do your make up and hair. Done it, where’s the back to this stud?” And on Thursday, you’re going blonde, not a word my girl.”
“Erm, why do I need to know how to do that, if we’re getting it done at the salon? Besides I told you I’m not going anywhere except the party.” Ford blushed; Lini however, was singing her heart out. “Oh dear,” Ford blushed deeper; Lini sang louder as Ford thought “Jess has unleashed a monster.” But Lini thought “Oh goody” and then she giggled inside.”
Jess ignored his last comment.
“Oh shit,” Jess swore as she remembered “I forgot to get some nail varnish remover today, I’ll just pop to the village stores, I’m sure they sell it. I won’t be long Lini; you can have a look at my clothes and see if you can find anything to wear if you like.”
Lini looked at her adoringly, loving to hear her name, Linford however, scowled, but simply said “Ok sis.”
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“Anyone want owt from the shop?” Bellowed Dozer as he reached the front door.
“Oohh can I come with you Dozer?” Niki asked.
He noticed the necklace, “Yeah sure little cuz, we’re walking though, it’s only down the road, erm, you sure you can walk in those?”
“I came in them!” She exclaimed, shaking her head, she added “Men!”
Dozer gave her a sideways glance, he’ll give it a real good go, cos he’s always loved his cousins, but he just couldn’t understand why any boy would want to be a girl, although he could see that Niki was a babe, then he slapped himself inside for that thought. Of course, the boy was probably gay. That didn’t bother him; he had a couple of friends who were gay. Showing what a gentleman he could be, he even held the door open for her. And allowed her to link her arm through his as they walked to the store.
“So Niki, what’s it like being a shemale?” He cringed as he tried to stop the words leaving his mouth.
Niki giggled, “I’m not a shemale silly, a shemale is a pre-op transsexual porn star, I’m intersexed, which means I have male and female sexual parts. The only thing I’m lacking is a vaginal entrance; I can have that sorted out next year when I’m 16. Why are you blushing?”
Dozer blushed, “I’m sorry Niki, u know I love you, I’m just a little curious about your condition. I’ve never heard of intersexed till mum told me, then I forgot the word till you just said it again. Ok then, what’s it like to be intersexed and can you get pregnant?” He added, curiously, though he didn’t know why.
“I will be able to get pregnant when I’ve had the surgery, as for what it’s like…….” Her voice trailed off with the sudden shout from behind.
“New girlfriend Dozer?” It was Jess, running to catch up with them.
“Eh? Oh no, this is my cousin Niki from Notts, her and her sister are visiting for the summer.” He explained.
“That’s cool and kind of a coincidence, I’ve gat a cousin here for the summer too, in fact we’re just having a girlie session and I need some nail varnish remover from the store. I’m taking her to your party on Friday, so you’ll be able to meet her then. In fact,” Turning to Niki she asked, “Why don’t you and your sister come round to mine this evening Niki? We can have a pyjama party if you’re up for it.”
“I’ll see what Nadine says, but I don’t know where you live.”
“Dozer can show you, he’s stalked me often enough.” She teased.
“I have not then, ya fibber, you stalk me if anything, hanging round with that girly-boy next door neighbour…..” His voice trailed off. He bit his lip, looked at Niki and she burst out laughing.
“You’ve got a girly-boy living next door?” She asked Jess.
“Linford’s really cool, he’s my best mate, he’s just a late developer, actually I feel really bad cos he can’t go to your party Dozer.”
“Don’t start Jess, you know we can’t stand each other and it’s not cos he’s effeminate either cos I have no problem with that sort of thing, do I Niki?”
Niki stood on her toes and kissed the big man’s cheek. “No,” she said, “he’s a big softy really.”
He blushed. They reached the store and once again, Dozer held the door open as the girls both trotted inside. “Wow,” Thought Niki, “What a gentleman, if he wasn’t my cousin, I could quite fancy the big hunk.”
She wasn’t the only one thinking things like that, “My god,” Thought Dozer “What an arse Niki has, damn if she was a year older, she’s so hot.” He then admonished himself for such thoughts as he realised, she’s technically still a boy and I’m not gay. Then he thought, “But she is so fuckin’ hot”
Jess got what she wanted from the store and waited for the other two. The three walked back chatting casually.
“Right” she said as they approached Dozer’s drive, give me your number Niki and I’ll ring you later and let you know what time and find out if you can.”
Niki gave Jess her number and they parted, leaving the cousins to go in the house.
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Lini opened the wardrobe door; Linford shut it and sat back down. It was Lini who wanted to look at Jess’ clothes but Linford didn’t even want to be in her bedroom at that precise moment.
But Lini was feeling chirpy, sitting there, two studs in each ear, a towel wrapped round her chest and a towel round her head, Linford it was who was found by Betty as she knocked and entered.
“Hi Lini, where’s Jess? Wow, you look pretty good, damn; I wish I looked as good as you without make-up.”
Linford froze, “All Jess has done is pierced my ears Betty, nothing else, she’s gone to get some nail varnish remover.”
“Aaww, don’t worry mate, I think with your superior acting skills, you might just be able to pull it off on Friday. I was just being nosey by the way, I saw her go out.” She grinned at him, “I think it’s the pink fluffy towels and the studs in your ears, oohh, sounds like she’s back now, cya laters Lini.” Linford sank through the floor into the living room below and then through that floor into the centre of the earth. Lini sat smiling, realising that for the next few days at least, she was gonna have fun, girly fun and if Linford didn’t like it, tough, he could leave, she was staying.
Jess walked in, she stopped and stared open-mouthed, “Where’s Linford?” She asked.
“Don’t you start Jess, I haven’t got any make-up or girls clothes on, I can’t look feminine in just a couple of towels.”
“Erm, Lini, stand up,” She did so, “Now look in the mirror” She did that too, then her towel dropped and Jess’ mouth opened again, Linford was horrified, the girls both giggled mischievously. Jess spoke “Even without clothes on, you look more like a girl than a boy.” Lini spoke, “I need boobs, how can I do this without boobs?” Linford spoke. “I do not look like a girl.” Suddenly he didn’t sound very convinced, he certainly wasn’t at all convinced, Linford gave up and left the building, leaving Lini standing naked, except for the towel on her head.
Jess knelt down in front of her, “Jess!” Exclaimed Lini, “What are you doing?”
“How have you done that?” She asked, pulling Lini’s legs apart.
“Done what? It’s always been small……” Her voice trailed off as she looked at what Jess meant. “Erm, Jess, I’m gonna lie down on your bed, please tell me what you see.”
Lini laid down, “Erm, Linford” Said Jess, sounding shocked.
“Don’t call me that,” She hissed, “My name is Lini, you know my name is Lini, so please, Jess, call me LINI.”
“Lini now is it?” Called Jess as she entered the room, “You’ll make your mind up you will, come on, we haven’t got much time, I’ve invited Dozers cousins round for a pyjama party. I need to sort you out. I got some surgical tape from the store too so we can sort your bits out. And why are you looking at me like that Lini?”
Lini reached down, yes she was laid on Jess’ bed, but she still had the towel round her. She realised, she’d fallen asleep and had a lovely dream about her boy bits disappearing. Linford re-entered the building and gave a great sigh of relief as he realised it was a dream, “no it wasn’t a dream, it was a friggin’ nightmare, and why does she still insist on calling me Lini?”
“A pyjama party?” He shrieked, “How could you do this to me Jess?”
“It’ll be fun, now get rid of the towel and let me get this right, come on, we’ve got so much to do yet.”
“Come on Lini, please,” Lini removed the towel “Oh god,” cried Jess. “How long have they been like that?” she pointed at his chest.
“What you talkin’ about??” He asked
“Your areolas are massive and your actual nipples are too, you’ve got bigger nipples than me. And there looks like there are little lumps there.” She left the room and went to the top of the stairs, “Mum!“ She shouted, “Come quickly, there’s something wrong with Lini.”
He just laid there in shock, stark naked, Betty came in,
“What’s the drama girls,” She cried, “Oops, sorry Lini.” She added as she saw the scowl on Linford’s face.
Lini laughed “See, we are a girl Linford” She thought, Linford’s scowl stayed and he wished he hadn’t got up this morning.
“Mum, look at Lini’s chest, that’s not normal for a boy surely.”
Betty leant over the scared Linford. “Hmmm, looks like its started” She said calmly, “Jess, go fetch Jenny, tell her I said it’s started.”
“What’s started?” Asked Linford and Jess together, he was more than a little concerned, Jenny lifted him in to a sitting position and sat next to him, giving him a hug. “Jess, go and fetch Jenny, she’s got something to tell her…him…..erm, aahh, just fetch Jenny please.”
“What’s happening to me?” Asked Linford, he really was worried now despite Betty’s reassurance.
“Something wonderful love, now, stop worrying and your mother will explain when she gets here.” Jenny kissed his forehead and held him tight as his tears started flowing.
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“So are we going then?” Asked Niki to her sister, “Sounds like it’ll be fun”
Nadine smiled, she remembered Niki’s first pyjama party when they invited Nadine’s best friend Claire round, that was fun. What a laugh they had that night.
“I suppose we could sis, it’ll be good to meet some of our competition for Friday night I guess. Oh but I think Uncle Robert has made plans for tonight, maybe we could re-arrange it for tomorrow night.”
As she said this Niki’s mobile rang, “Hmmm, don’t know that number, must be Jess ringing to confirm, I’ll have to explain to her.”
She answered her phone, “Hello.”
“Hi Niki, its Jess. Listen, sorry about this but something has come up, we’ll have to arrange the pj party for later in the week I’m afraid.”
“Ok Jess, hope it’s nothing serious, we can’t make tonight anyway though cos Uncle Robert has made plans to take us out.”
“No, it’s nothing serious, I don’t think. Ok, I’d better go, I’ll chat to you later, cya” With that Jess hung up.
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“Well, I’ve put them off, shame though, it would’ve been fun, but they’re going out anyway apparently.” Jess looked a little disappointed but was more concerned about what was going on with Linford.
“So what’s happening to me mum?” Asked Linford, still crying but more calmer now his mum was there to hold him.
“Well love, it’s something I half expected might happen, but it’s taken long enough. You see, there’s something I need to tell you and now seems like the best time.”
Betty grabbed Jess’ arm and led her out of the room, “Come on love, we’ll make a cuppa. I think Jen & Lin need some privacy.”
Lini breathed a sigh of relief as her mother spoke, she knew she was a girl although Linford had suppressed her all these years and kept her well away from the surface. Linford whined and admitted defeat, he left the building once more.
“I am a girl aren’t I mum?” Asked Lini.
“Yes love, you always were, but we had to let your body decide. You see, when you were born, your father and I discovered from the doctor that although your outward appearance is male, your internal bits are both male and female. In other words, you can be male or female. Intersexed is the word I think, if I remember rightly. We had to wait till the onset of puberty to find out which secondary characteristics your body would adopt. It seems looking at your chest and the fact that you are developing breasts that your body has chosen female. You see, your body is producing both male and female hormones; looks like the female hormones are winning. It’s going to be a long road, but with help from family and friends, we’ll get you through it. Just remember we are all here for you.”
“But I have a penis mum, that’s gonna be tricky.”
“Not as tricky as you think, due to medical circumstances, we can get that fixed easily, we can’t leave it much longer or it could be dangerous. I’ll have to make you an appointment to see Dr Lynch; he knows all about it, he’ll put us in touch with the right people. Unfortunately the doctor who first made the discovery has retired so we’ll be dealing with someone else, but I’ve been told that these days it’s a routine operation. Dr Lynch will probably know more, although he is a GP not a gender specialist. How do you feel about what I’ve just told u Linford?”
“Call me Lini please mum, I’ve known for a while that I wasn’t right, I really didn’t want to admit it to myself. I tried so hard to be the man I thought you and dad expected me to be. My nipples have been tingly for a while now and I noticed they were getting bigger. I was embarrassed about it; I looked online and saw that I was showing all the signs of going through puberty, but female puberty, the crying, nipple sensitivity, my body shape changing, my penis is tiny compared to other boys my age and my voice hasn’t broken. I feel cheated in a way, yes I know I’ve always been slightly effeminate, despite my denying, I knew deep inside, I’ve been denying it for long enough, telling myself I was masculine. No point pretending anymore is there? Boy will the guys at school have a field day with this.”
“It’s a shame you didn’t come and talk to us earlier love, I wish we could have told you, but, I don’t know why we didn’t. Well at least we’ve got the rest of the summer, nearly five weeks, to work out what’s going to happen with school. You know, maybe you would be better off going to college instead, There’s less chance of anyone causing trouble or even hurting you. They won’t know you.”
“I’m not worried about that mum. There might be one or two that might have something to say about it, but I’ll get over it, I’ve been called a girly-boy long enough, it doesn’t hurt any more. I have to get the grades next year to get to uni, my school work is more important, computers are my life, you know that.”
“I must say you’re taking this really well love, I was dreading this moment, but I’m proud of you, your dad will be too, I’m also gonna have some fun taking you shopping.”
There was a knock on the door. “Come on in Betty,” Said Jenny
“I’ve brought you some tea, how you both doing?” Replied Betty offering the mugs to them.
“My daughter and I have had a little chat, I told her all about it Bet, she’s taken it really well, I’m so proud of her.”
Betty smiled at Lini, “Good for you kiddo and welcome to the wonderful world of womanhood, it’s about time too, we’ve waited long enough, now give your auntie Betty a hug and then you better let Jess find you some clothes to put on.” Lini hugged Betty and felt peaceful, she sneered at Linford and realised he’d gone.
On hearing her name, Jess popped her head round the door, hey, don’t leave me out of this I want a hug from my sister too, come here you. I can’t believe it, all this time we coulda been playing with dolls and dressing up and shit.” Betty cut her off.
“Oi!” She exclaimed, “Watch your language young lady.” She turned to Jen, “I just explained it all to Jess, she knows everything too now.”
“Thanks Betty,” Replied Jenny, “Let’s leave the girls to it, you can come and help me fix dinner, I think we should celebrate tonight and you’re all welcome.”
“Sounds like a plan,” Enthused Betty, “I’ll text Harry and get him to pick some wine up, I just know Paul will have beer in for those two, but for us ladies I think we need wine, I think two bottles now we have a new member of our club.” Turning to Jess & Lini she said “Have fun girls, we’ll shout you when dinner is ready.
“Are you sure you’re ok Lini?” Asked Jenny as she stood to leave.
“Yes mum, I’ll be fine or I will be just as soon as Jess gets me some clothes to wear,” She said teasingly as she looked at Jess.
Jenny laughed, “I really can’t understand teenagers, I really didn’t think you would be this calm. Right, see you soon kids, have fun.” Jenny and Betty walked out and left the teenagers to it.
Lini was glowing, Jess searched through her wardrobe. “Here sis, I don’t need these anymore and judging by the way you’re growing you won’t need them too long.” She handed Lini a couple of white training bras and matching panties. “Now I know why mum told me to hang on to them. Hmmm, right, lets see what else can you wear, erm Lini, let me show you an easier way to put that on” She laughed at Lini’s efforts to try and do the bra up behind her. “Fasten it at the front and spin it round, that’s it, then slip your arms in, good girl. You’ll get used to it. Do you want a skirt with that?” She asked sounding like a fast food worker asking if she wanted fries.
“Yes please, can I look what you’ve got?” Asked Lini, she felt a little nervous, but the idea had been for her to dress as a girl anyway so she’d sort of got used to the idea in her mind even before the revelations from her mum. “This bra feels weird; I guess it’ll take some getting used to.”
“It’s great that you finally accept who you are Lini, we’re gonna have so much fun together,”
“We can go shopping for clothes and make-up for you, hey, it’s great fun going round the shops and trying stuff on, I can’t wait.”
“Sorry Jess, but before the summer’s out, I’ll be outta here. There’s no way I’m gonna be able to trust any of our parents ever again, They’re a bunch of lying bastards and they’ve robbed me of growing up as a normal girl, I’m never gonna forgive my mum and dad. You can come with me if you like, I love you more than anyone and you’re the only person in the world that I trust.” She laid down on Jess’ bed and sobbed her eyes out; Jess laid next to her and held her tight. “I never saw that coming.” She thought as she kissed her friend on the head.
by Phantasi Boi
Intro: Here’s chapter 3 of my 1st attempt at a serial. As always I welcome comments be they praise or criticism. Please don’t be angry if I get any facts wrong regarding gender issues, it is only a story, besides the characters themselves could be getting it wrong rather than me. Feel free to point out any errors I make though.
“Jess whispered to her mum, “Lini’s asleep,” She joined her mum on the landing. Betty smiled at her, her smile faded when she saw an angry look in her daughter’s eyes.
“What’s wrong with you?” She hissed.
Chapter 3: Secrets
Robert Harris pulled on to the drive, his sister’s kids were here, He hadn’t seen them for a while, he certainly hadn’t seen them since Nicolas had become Nicola and he was looking forward to it. As he opened the front door, two beautiful blonde haired girls besieged him and his large arms enveloped his nieces. “Well I’ve never been welcomed home with such enthusiasm” He cried with delight.
“Hello Uncle Robert” Greeted Nadine
Niki greeted him with “Hi Uncle Robert,”
They both kissed his cheek and hugged him, he finally broke free from their embrace and looked at them, “Hello girls” he said, “Well, looks like your aunt is right, you look more like twins.” The girls both giggled, Robert smiled as they walked off to start getting ready for their evening out.
Presently Dozer appeared, “Hi dad,” He said.
“Hello Pete,” He said, then asked “How are things with you?”
“Good thanks, Want a cuppa?” He replied.
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Lini had cried herself to sleep, Jess laid there holding her best friend and her mind offered the question. “Why didn’t anyone tell Lini about this? Yes, she could see where Lini’s anger and frustration came from and felt slightly peeved herself that her mum hadn’t confided in her. She would certainly have told Lini. Maybe that’s why they didn’t tell her.”
There was a knock on the door, Jess rose and went to it, knowing it would be her mum. Lini stirred momentarily and then settled back to her dreams or maybe nightmares, yes, definitely nightmares. She was stood in the middle of the school playground wearing a girl’s uniform. All the kids were playing ring a ring of roses round her, except they weren’t chanting the words to that rhyme and they were mocking her and she was all alone. Suddenly they stopped and Dozer walked into the middle and faced her. He sneered at her, “Well GIRLY-BOY your secret’s out now, we’re gonna do the operation for you, turn you into a real girl,” He pulled out a long knife, it didn’t look very clean, looked like it had blood dripping from it. Lini could hear the laughs even as she fainted.
“Jess whispered to her mum, “Lini’s asleep,” She joined her mum on the landing. Betty smiled at her, her smile faded when she saw an angry look in her daughter’s eyes.
“What’s wrong with you?” She hissed.
Jess gently closed the bedroom door and led her mum downstairs. They entered the kitchen and Jess shut that door too before she spoke again. “How could you all be so insensitive?” Jess growled at her mum, Betty stood there with her mouth hanging open. “That girl up there is frightened and angry; she’s been robbed of the most important years of her life. Why wasn’t she told when she was old enough to understand?”
“Now just wait a minute young la……” She couldn’t finish as Jess snapped. “Mum, shut the fuck up, I haven’t finished.” Betty’s eyes grew large in total shock, her daughter had never sworn at her before, ever. “I don’t think Lini is ever going to forgive any of you. How could you do this? How could they do this? For them to know all this time and not tell Lini is unforgivable, but they told you and dad too, what the fuck? You disgust me mother, you really do. We’re not coming to your ‘celebration’ and what’s that all about anyway? Celebrating what? The fact that they’ve lied to their daughter all her life about who she is?” Jess walked towards the kitchen door.
Betty grabbed her daughter’s arm. She looked at her mum angrily, Betty was fuming but she kept calm. “Don’t you ever speak to me like that again. What has happened might not have been right but it’s not for us to decide.” She sighed. “Please Jess, go and get yourself and Lini ready. We’ll talk about this later.” Jess scowled and went up to her room
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“Hello love, had a good day?” Harry Rowland stood and smiled at his wife. “How have the girls taken the news about Lini?”
“Not too well honey. I think Lini is glad she’s a girl, but she wasn’t happy about being kept in the dark all these years. Jess is furious with us too, it’s hardly surprising either. She must feel like we’ve betrayed her. I know I feel like we have.”
Harry hugged his wife, “I know love, but we couldn’t really say anything, you know Jess would’ve told Lini. I can’t understand why Paul and Jen didn’t tell her a long time ago, but we couldn’t betray their trust. It’ll be ok, you’ll see.”
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Lini looked up, expecting the knife to have cut her, instead she was astonished, her main tormentor over the years was standing protecting her, Jess was comforting her and there were two other girls there with them. They were backed against a wall, the rest of the kids had fled, but now the parents of all three of them we’re approaching menacingly, Jess was now calling her name, “Lini, Lini wake up, Lini please it’s important.”
She sat up, terrified, the look on Jess’ face didn’t help. She revealed the nightmare to Jess and then Jess told her of her encounter with her mum. They hugged.
”So Dozer actually protected you?” She eventually asked with a slight giggle.
“It was a nightmare Jess; it’s not the first time he’s stood up for me in my sleep. But it was still a nightmare, He is kinda cute though, but I guess he’d be the last person to protect me, he hates me.” Lini blushed as she related this. Jess was shocked. She stood up and went to her wardrobe.
“Right young lady; let’s see what we can find to wear. You’ve got underwear on, I know you’ll need more bras, if I’m not now grounded we’ll go into town tomorrow and get you some. Here, try this on.” Jess handed Lini a little black dress. “It’s what every girl should; have a LBD. Put these tights on too sis, they’ll look good on your legs, might as well make the most of it, you have gorgeous legs.”
“Here let me show you, do like you do with socks and pull them up gently, they ladder easy so you have to be careful, that’s it. There’s another pair of panties to go over the top, they’ll hold the tights up. My mum taught me that trick years ago, you’ve got a lot to learn but that’s what I’m here for, we’ll have you acting like a natural in no time.”
“It’s a bit tight sis,” moaned Lini about the dress.
“It’s supposed to be, it’s lycra, it hugs your figure, look in the mirror, wow, you have a nice figure already and you’re still developing Lini.”
“While you ogle yourself, I’ll do your hair, then there’s just your make up to do. Then I’ll have to get myself ready.”
“So tell me, why should I go to this ‘celebration’ or whatever they wanna call it?” Asked Lini “I hate my parents, I meant what I said. I’ll be leaving. I just need to sort a few things out first, especially now I’m gonna be a girl.
“Well, just promise me one thing sis,” Replied Jess, “Don’t go off on your own, please don’t forget that I’ll help you as much as I can, I don’t want you thinking you’re on your own. Besides, your parents have a lot of making up to do, you’re gonna need a whole new wardrobe. You could play them and get a lot out of it, revenge is sweet”
They giggled and Lini agreed, “Oh yes, revenge will be sweet.” A sadistic grin on her lips. “I think you’re right though, I’m gonna make them feel sooooo guilty. I’ll be able to get away with much more and get lots out of them. I’ll have to play it cool and not have a go at them, I feel so angry towards them though, it’s gonna be difficult.”
“I’ll be with you Lin, don’t worry. Just don’t go and do anything silly like running off.” Then she added, “You know I love you sis.” They hugged again.
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Maureen cast her eyes over her nieces, “Fabulous, you two will knock them dead. You both look extremely pretty; it’s hard to tell you’re only 15 and 16, proper young ladies. Right ladies, let’s go and see if the boys are ready.”
They descended the stairs and Maureen led them into the living room where Robert and Dozer sat waiting patiently.
“Finally,” Complained Robert as his wife and nieces entered the room. “Wow, hey Pete, we’re the luckiest guys on earth, going out with three of the world’s most beautiful women.” Nadine and Niki blushed; Maureen was used to her husband’s compliments.
Dozer’s eyes were out on stalks as he saw the girls, Niki noticed and gave him an embarrassed smile and then glanced at his bulge. Unconsciously she licked her lips seductively, that was enough to send him over the edge.
“I need the toilet, I’ll meet you outside.” He rushed out and into the downstairs toilet.
“Don’t be long.” Robert shouted after him. “Right ladies, shall we?” They all left the house and went out to the silver Mercedes that sat on the drive. Robert pressed the button on his key and the doors unlocked.
They all got in and the women all sat in the back, leaving the front passenger seat for Dozer. “Where is he? We’re going to be late.” Robert was getting agitated; he started to get out the car.
“I’ll go.” Offered Niki getting out before her uncle.
“Thanks love.” He said, sitting back down. “Tell him to hurry up or we’ll go without him.”
Niki entered the house and went towards the toilet, she knocked gently, the door swung open, it was empty.
“Pete, where are you.” She shouted.
“I’m just coming.” He replied
Niki giggled and then slowly climbed the stairs. Dozer’s bedroom door was open and he was pulling his boxers up. “Oops,” Said Niki, making him spin round. She blushed but couldn’t help noticing something as he pulled them into place. Her eyes grew wide as she saw the size of his manhood and it wasn’t even hard.
“Erm, Niki, I was erm, oh hell.” Dozer blushed as red as Niki.
She smiled sweetly. “Uncle Robert says hurry up or we’re going without you.” She turned to leave.
Dozer called her back “Niki wait.” He bowed his head, “Look, I’m sorry but you’re one hot babe, I know you’re my cousin and all but erm, oh hell, Niki, tell the old man I’ll be 2 minutes.”
“Ok, big boy,” She winked at him and fled down the stairs giggling before he could say another word.
The journey to the restaurant was uneventful except Dozer had his sun visor down and kept gazing at Niki through the mirror on the back of it. She noticed and was flirting with him with her eyes and mouth.
Nadine noticed this after a while too and she smiled at her younger sister. “I’ll have to have a word with you little sis.” She thought.
They arrived at the restaurant, a lovely country pub that had a rather large conservatory at the back that was a dining area. Locally it was famous for its steaks and Robert had often taken his family there to dine.
As they entered, a short stocky man approached and shook Robert’s hand, “Good to see you Bob,” He greeted him warmly.
“Hello Geoff, glad you could fit us in, these two young ladies are my sisters kids from the midlands. Nadine and Niki, this is Geoff Hammond, he owns this place, he went to the same school as your mum and I.”
They shook his hand and said “Good evening”
“Well now, they certainly take after their mother, I haven’t seen her for, oh must be 20 years. How is she?”
“She’s done really well for herself, she’s a nurse in Queen’s Medical Centre in Nottingham, her husband is a solicitor also in the city. The girls have come to visit us for the summer, so we’ll most probably be here a few times.”
“Lovely,” Said Geoff, “Right well if you’ll follow me, I’ll show you to your table.” He directed them to a table laid out for five and pulled the chairs out for the girls.
Niki sat next to Dozer. She could see he looked a bit uncomfortable and giggled inside.
I think we should visit the little girls room before we start,” Recommended Nadine to her sister. Geoff showed them where it was and went to get the menus.
“What you playing at Nik?” Asked Nadine as they stood at the sinks checking their make-up.
“What do you mean sis?” Replied the younger sibling grinning.
“Hmmm, just be careful, I know what 18 year old guys are like. You keep flirting with our cousin, just remember, he is our cousin.”
“He’s not 18 till Friday Nades. He is a hunk though and he has a gorgeous arse and you should see the size of…” Her voice trailed off as she realised what she was saying.
Nadine looked at her astonished, “Niki, when have you seen that?”
“Seen what sis? I was merely saying he’s got big muscles” She blushed.
Nadine giggled knowingly, “Come on spill it, you’ve seen one muscle I haven’t by the sound of it.”
Niki told her about what happened before they all left and then when she went back after Dozer. “Oh my god!” Exclaimed Nadine. “You mean you actually caught him playing with himself?”
“No, he wasn’t doing that, he was changing his boxers, but I startled him and he hadn’t quite got them pulled up when he turned round.” Replied the younger sister, giggling.
“Hmmm,” Thought Nadine, “I wonder why he was changing his boxers.”
Laughing together they returned to the table, Nadine giving Dozer a knowing grin.
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“Right Lin, remember, lay a guilt trip on them.” Jess reminded her friend as they walked through the back gate. “How are the heels? You seem to be walking in them ok.”
“They’re a bit strange, but I’ll have to get used to them, I do like them though. I can’t believe I’m stood here in a dress, does my bum look big in this?”
They giggled and Jess led her in shaking her head. “You sure you haven’t been secretly training to be a woman? You’ll certainly get into the party, no problem.”
They entered through the kitchen door; their parents were already seated at the dining room table, although there wasn’t any sign of a meal being prepared.
“Ah, just in time girls, the taxi will be here shortly” Said Paul, Lin’s dad.
“Taxi!” Lin exclaimed, “I thought, we were eating here. So not only do you lie to me for years, now you’re gonna put me on display without any practice. I don’t believe this, what the fuck have I done to deserve this.”
Lin ran up the stairs to her room sobbing and slammed the door behind her, “Why are they being like this?” She thought as she threw herself on her bed, the door opened and Jess walked in; sitting beside her she thought “Déjá vu.”
“Hey come on sis, what happened there, I thought you were gonna play it cool?” Jess spoke softly to her.
Still sobbing between words, Lini looked up at her, “I’m sorry Jess, I just lost it, are they even the slightest bit interested in what I want? You know, I always thought my parents were the best in the world, but today, I’m not sure they have a clue.”
“Hmmm, not very sensitive at all,” Replied Jess, she stroked Lini’s hair and tried to think through what was happening. “It must be difficult for Jen and Paul too, but at least they’ve had sixteen years to prepare for this eventuality. Looking back, I think if I’d known the truth, I would’ve known that Lini was gonna be a girl and helped her live as one.”
There was a knock on the door, Jen popped her head round, she looked at Jess, “Is she ok Jess?”
Jess replied scowling, “What do you think Jen? If I told you that you were now a boy and I’d known for sixteen years that that may happen, how would you feel?”
Jen bit her bottom lip, “Jess, please don’t be angry, I, we didn’t know how to handle the situation, we really…”
Jess interrupted, “I’m sorry Jen, but it’s Lini you should be addressing, not me and it’s Lini who you will have to make it up to.”
Lini sat up, looked at her mum, “Just go away, I’ve got nothing to say to you or him.” She gestured over Jen’s shoulder as Paul appeared. “I thought you both loved me, but now I’m not sure, I’m not sure of anything.” She grabbed Jess’ hand and squeezed it tight. “Jess is the only person that’s always been there for me, she’s never let me down. Before today I could’ve included you two and Betty and Harry.” The tears started again as Lini clung to Jess, Jen started sobbing too as she realised what Lini was saying. Paul hugged his wife and then led her back downstairs before anything else was said to make the situation worse.
“Shhh, don’t worry sis, I’m here for you.” Whispered Jen softly. “This is gonna be one long summer.” She thought, hugging her friend tightly.
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The meal was in full swing, the family enjoying each other’s company. The men had ordered the biggest steaks on the menu and the women had all ordered some sort of salad, the portions were very generous, possibly made larger because the place was owned by one of Robert’s long time friends. Geoff was in good form, he occasionally came over to make sure everything was fine and during the course of the evening had told one or two short stories of his and Robert’s exploits from school as well as Nadine and Niki’s mother.
Niki was certainly enjoying herself, taking every opportunity to flirt with her cousin Dozer; he spent all evening with a rather large lump in his trousers as she nonchalantly rubbed his leg with hers and occasionally touched him with her hand. At one point she even kissed his cheek after he paid her and Nadine a compliment. That made him turn bright red and brought on howls of laughter from his parents and her sister.
A good time was had by all, but all too soon it was time to head off home and they all got up to go to the car. Niki was surprised but very pleased when Dozer pulled her chair out for her so she could get up. Once again she kissed his cheek, this time no one else saw because they were lagging behind.
“I’ve had a great time tonight,” Confessed Niki as she grabbed his hand. “Hope you don’t mind Pete, I really like you.”
Dozer, for the umpteenth time, went bright red, he didn’t pull his hand away though, inside he was singing and dancing, but then he slapped himself for doing so. But on the outside he had a silly grin on his red face. He slipped his arm round his cousin’s shoulders and hugged her tight; she hugged him back and buried her head in his muscular chest.
“Its gonna be awkward Niki, I really like you too. But I can’t imagine our parents would be very happy if anything happened between us. Come on cus, let’s get to the car, I’ve already held everyone up once tonight.”
“Come on you two, oops, sorry, erm, I’ll tell them your coming.” Nadine saw them cuddling and blushing she ran off back to the car.”
Niki felt a lump pressing her stomach and decided she would help him get rid of it at the first opportunity. Then she slapped herself inside for being a slut. She laughed as she thought this and released herself from Dozer’s embrace, grabbing his hand once more she pulled him towards the door.
He wondered what she was laughing at but just assumed it was Nadine’s reaction to them and then holding the door for his younger cousin let her lead him to the car.
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Jess wasn’t sure how long they’d been sat there, but the sun was setting so it must be round 8.30ish, the nights were still light but were gradually drawing in as the summer started the downward slope towards autumn. It was still July and very warm.
“How are you now Lini?”
“Feeling a bit better, sorry for wetting your lovely dress, maybe I should change into some of my clothes,” She sighed. “I don’t think I can do this being a girl thing. It’s all too much.”
“Don’t be silly Lin, you make a great girl. You need some fresh air and clear your head as well as a girls favourite pick me up.” Replied Jess, trying to snap Lini out of her depression.
“You mean chocolate don’t you?” Lini started to smile, “Sounds good to me. We can sneak out the front door.”
“I think we should tell the oldies, they might think we’ve run off, come on, let’s sort your make up out.” They made their way downstairs and through the dining room into the kitchen where their parents were sat drinking tea.
“We’re going to the shop to get some chocolate and then going to my room to sort some stuff out for Lin.” Announced Jess and then they left through the back door and went to her room to sort make-up out.
She grabbed her bag and found one for Lini to use. She slipped her mobile in it and her purse. Lini’s phone and wallet were in her jeans pockets which were folded up on Jess’ chair, so she accepted a small bag and dropped her phone in, Jess also leant her a purse so she transferred her money and debit card and slipped that in the bag as well.
They left Jess’ house and walked arm in arm to the shop. Lini knew she wasn’t beautiful, in fact her and Jess were pretty plain, but they were both obviously girls and the make-up made up for their lack of natural beauty. They did actually look very pretty.
They walked in silence for a while, then Lini realised she was actually out in public for the first time and stopped suddenly.
“Wassup Lin?” Asked Jess.
Lini looked round, the street was deserted, “I’ve just realised, I’m outside walking like this,” She gestured to the black lycra mini dress and heels. The girls giggled and Jess encouraged her to carry on walking which she did without much persuasion.
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The Mercedes slowly glided down the street passing the little corner shop,
“Stop Bob.” Shouted Maureen and Robert slammed on the brakes wondering what was wrong with his wife. They all lunged forward; luckily they had seat belts on.
“I didn’t mean stop dead,” She scolded.
“I’m sorry love, but when someone yells stop, what do you expect.” Replied her husband, now confused.
“Sorry, I just remembered we need some milk, Peter, would you get some for me please love.”
“Sure mum, four pinta?”
“Better make it six pints, there’s five of us at the mo remember.”
“Ill come with you, I could do with a little walk after that lovely meal.” Volunteered Niki. “What about you sis?” She asked Nadine.
“Yeah sounds good, I need a couple of bits too.”
So the three of them got out and walked back a few yards to the shop.
“Sounds like we’re walking home then dad see you soon.”
Robert drove off, leaving the three of them to walk back the short distance home. He noticed the two young girls walking towards the shop giggling and linking arms, he recognised Jess but the other girl he hadn’t seen before. Maureen saw them too, she squinted and thought she recognised the other girl but maybe it was the street lights playing tricks on her,
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“Well, it’s not like you weren’t expecting some kind of fallout.” Betty said to Jen and Paul. “Did you expect her to take this with a pinch of salt?”
“No Betty.” Replied Jen, “I just didn’t expect her to hate us though.”
Harry agreed with his wife, “Looks like you’ll have to get that credit card out of your wallet for once mate.” He teased Paul. “Let Jen give it a dust off, it’s not been used in a while.” He was trying to lighten their moods, unsuccessfully though.
“We knew we’d have to buy her a new wardrobe hun.” Paul said to his wife. “Maybe a bit of retail therapy will do the trick. I know what you women are like and I’m sure Jess will help teach Lin that pleasure of being female as you put it.”
“I can suggest it to them later; Lini will need Jess’ help more than ours I guess. Damn it, why didn’t we tell her years ago babe. I feel so guilty now; we’ve let her down badly.”
Paul put his arm round his wife. “We thought we knew best, in fact the doc suggested we wait till we know for sure. I do agree with you though. It’ll be a struggle, but I’m sure we can smooth it out.”
“I just hope so, I don’t want to lose her and I’ve waited so long for this moment. But I’ve messed up; I’ve missed having a daughter to teach girl things to.” Jen’s eyes started leaking. Paul kissed her forehead.
“We’ve messed up babe, not just you. It was a joint decision; we shoulda listened to you guys in the first place.” He stated, looking at Betty and Harry.
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Lini opened the door and her heart stopped. At the counter stood her nemesis or should she say Linford’s nemesis. She stared open-mouthed as Dozer was paying for his milk and some chocolate he’d picked up.
“Come on Lini, let me in then,” Said Jess and then she stopped as she realised why Lini had stopped.
Dozer turned to look at them and he smiled as he recognised Jess, “Hi Jess, this your cousin then?” He didn’t seem to recognise Lini, or so she thought. “He’ll kill me if he finds out.”
Jess thought quickly, “Yes, this is my cousin Lynette; I call her Lini for short. I see your cousins are with you, both of them this time,” She added quickly trying to change the subject.
“Yes, we’ve been out for a meal. Hell of a coincidence isn’t it? Your cousin having the same name as your best mate and one’s male and the other one’s female.”
Lini didn’t know what to do, she was trapped and scared stiff, she ducked behind a display and bumped into Niki who was looking at hair accessories. “I’m sorry, I didn’t see you there.”
“It’s ok, Wassup, don’t cry, are you ok?” Niki put her arm round the strange girl. Confusion on her face, “What are you scared of?”
Lini looked up as Dozer rounded the display. He looked at her closely. “Are you ok love?” He enquired. “Maybe you need to sit down and have a cuppa. Why don’t the two of you come back with us and we can cheer you up.?”
“Oh yes, that’ll be fun” Agreed Niki, “We can probably have a game of something and then tomorrow night have that pyjama party if you’re still up for it Jess.”
Jess put her arm round Lini and guided her to the rear of the store, “Are you ok sis?” She asked. Lini nodded, still looking scared.
“He’ll kill me, I don’t know if he recognised me or not.” She whispered. “What can we do? It would be good to have some fun, but if he recognises me, those girls will find out and it could be nasty.”
Dozer and the girls waited patiently by the door with their purchases.
“Let’s get some chocolate and see what happens, he’s not gonna do anything in front of his cousins, it wouldn’t look good would it?”
Lini agreed, so they got some supplies and met the others by the door. Lini still apprehensive but as Dozer didn’t seem to recognise her she thought she was safe.
It didn’t take long to walk back to the Harris house, they chatted and giggled and Lini started to feel more confident.
“Are you two coming in for a bit then?” Asked Nadine, “I’m sure Dozer has some board games we can play. It’ll be fun, maybe watch a movie, I’m sure I saw that Legally Blonde 2 is on sky, don’t know about anyone else but I haven’t seen that yet and I loved the first one.”
“A girly film!” Exclaimed Dozer, “If that’s what you’re gonna do I’ll go and put my pc on. Shame that, four hot chicks in my house and I’m in my bedroom alone.”
“That’s not very sociable Pete; I thought you were a gentleman, what games have you got, what do you like playing with?” Asked Niki, winking at him.
“I’ll have a look, we don’t play them very often, are you two ladies joining us then?”
Jess looked at Lini, she nodded and they agreed to go in. “Ok, but I’ll ring my mum and tell her, if she knows we’re still on our street she won’t worry too much, we can stay longer.”
She speed dialled her mum’s mobile. “Hi mum, just letting you know we’ll be at the Harris’, we bumped into Pete and his two girl cousins and we’re gonna play some games and hang out.”
“What time? Under the circumstances I think you should let us get home when we get home.”
“Ok, well you know where we are, so don’t worry.”
She turned to the others, “Ok that’s sorted; we can stay till you get fed up and kick us out.”
“Is that what she said Jess?” Lini was shocked.
“She didn’t have much choice. Come on then Dozy, lead the way.” The other girls laughed, even Dozer wasn’t too bothered, he was gonna have some fun.
“Well, girly-boy has a secret eh?” He thought “It might be awkward playing with Niki, but it’ll be more fun playing with Lynette. Besides, she makes a better girl than she does boy.”
He held the door open for the girls as they all trooped in.
by Phantasi Boi
Intro: Here’s chapter 4 of my 1st attempt at a serial. As always I welcome comments be they praise or criticism. Please don’t be angry if I get any facts wrong regarding gender issues, it is only a story, besides the characters themselves could be getting it wrong rather than me. Feel free to point out any errors I make though.
They hadn’t noticed Nadine walk back in; she heard this last comment despite the fact they were talking quietly.
“Did I hear right Lini? You’re not a real girl?”
“Erm, no not at all, we were just talking about someone else.”
“What we gonna play then?” Asked Niki, “What games have you got Pete?”
“Well, I don’t know, why don’t you come to my room and have a look?”
“Ok,” She replied without hesitation.
“Who wants drinks?” Asked Nadine rising up from the dining room table where they were sat.
“Please Nades, I’ll have Pepsi Max,” Replied Niki.
“Sounds good to me, might as well bring the bottle and five glasses in, well if that’s ok with everyone.” Dozer said.
Everyone agreed to that. Dozer and Niki left to look for games; Nadine went to get the drinks leaving Lini and Jess alone.
“Not sure this is a good idea Jess, I think Dozer recognised me.”
“Don’t be paranoid Lin; he wouldn’t have invited you in if he had.”
“But if he ever finds out I’m not a real girl, he’ll kill me.”
They hadn’t noticed Nadine walk back in; she heard this last comment despite the fact they were talking quietly.
“Did I hear right Lini? You’re not a real girl?”
“Erm, no not at all, we were just talking about someone else.”
“Hmmm, ok, sorry, must’ve misheard you.” Replied Nadine, then she thought, “I know what I heard, so we have two t-girls at this party do we. Looks like little sis is not alone.”
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“So what have you got for us to play with then Pete?” Asked Niki as they entered the big boy’s bedroom. “Something interesting and not too short, it’s boring if it doesn’t last long enough.” She said seductively and then looked at him and winked, then she noticed movement in his trousers.
He blushed. “Niki, you’re a tease.” He walked over to his wardrobe and opened the door; he had a big pile of games in the bottom of it.
Niki walked over and bent down in front of him, wiggling her bum slightly, she certainly looked so hot that Dozer nearly came in his pants. What was she doing to him, oh hell.
“Strip poker sounds interesting, what’s that about then?”
“Erm, I didn’t even know that was there, must belong to one of my mates, we can’t play that, you’re too young.”
“I bet you wouldn’t say that to Lini cus, I’ve seen you look at her. You fancy her don’t ya? I bet she’d run a mile if she saw that bulge in your trousers.”
Dozer was bright red by now, “Cut it out Nik, please, it’s hard enough without you teasing me.”
“Hard enough? I bet, if it gets any harder, your zip will find it impossible to stay up. And it’s big enough to break it, if what I saw earlier is owt to go by.” She giggled, it was great to turn the tables on her cousin, he’d embarrassed her enough in the past, revenge is sweet.
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“Wonder what’s takin’ so long.” Said Nadine after a while. “I’ll just go and find out.” She got up and left the room.
“I’m starting to get worried now,” Said Lini to Jess. “She’s gonna tell Dozer and I’m so dead.”
“Look, calm down sis, I’ll tell them my mum rang back and wants us home, then we can make our escape.”
“Thanks Jess, I think that would be best. I just wanna get as far away from Dozer Harris as possible.” Lini said, with a slight panic in her voice.
Presently, Nadine came back in with her sister and cousin. “We couldn’t decide what to play so we brought them all down.” She said lowering a pile on the table. Dozer had some more.
“Aaww, sorry guys, we gotta go, mum rang back and said she wanted us home pronto.” Said Jess very apologetically.
“That’s a shame,” said Nadine and then added. “Pete, you better walk the girls home, it’s not safe for young ladies walking at night.”
“It’s ok, we only live down the road, we often walk out at night.” Said Lini, starting to worry now.
“Nadine’s right, I would never forgive myself if anything happened to you two Lini.” Said Pete, getting his jacket.
Lini looked at Jess and she shrugged, “Well, at least we know we’ll be safe Lin.”
So the three of them left with Jess and Lini saying goodnight to Nadine and Niki. Dozer opened the door and held it while they walked through.
“Lini looks scared to death of me,” Thought Pete as they walked along. “She sure makes a better girl than a guy. I wonder if I should make peace with her. But how do I bring the subject up? She’s shivering.”
“Here Lini, put this round your shoulders babe.” He put his jacket round Lini and slipped his arm around her shoulders to hold it in place.
Lini was spooked, she broke free and ran crying into the dark knocking Dozer’s jacket to the floor.
“What did you do you muppet,” Screamed Jess as she ran after Lini.
“Damn,” Thought Pete, he chased after the girls.
Lini ran towards her house, then remembered her parents and how they’d deceived her so she ran right past and headed for the jitty at the bottom of the Close. Jess couldn’t keep up and was soon flagging, holding her side she had a stitch, she hadn’t got much further than her house.
Pete charged on, “Don’t worry Jess, I’ll catch her,” He called as he passed her.
Lini certainly moved fast, being small helped. She headed down the jitty and out on to the wasteland that bordered the main road, then she stopped to think of her next move. It was pretty dark, the glow of the street lights from the road about 200 yards away being the only light. She heard running behind her.
“That must be Jess, Dozer doesn’t care about me.” She thought as she turned round and Dozer ran straight in to her.
They landed in a heap, Lini felt her elbow hit something hard and she grabbed it and felt blood.
“Lini, are you ok?” He sounded concerned. “Please say something.”
“I’ve banged my elbow, it’s bleeding, it really hurts.” She sounded scared, but though she tried to get up and run away again, she couldn’t move.
Pete crawled to her and knelt up at the side. “Don’t move” He said, “I’ll phone Jess to bring a torch. Damn, where’s my phone?”
“Why did you run Linford?” He asked as he found his phone and opened it ready to call Jess.
“So you do know then, is it that obvious?”
“No, it’s only cos I know you so well. You look really good as Lini. Look, stop being scared of me, I’m not gonna hurt you.” He turned his attention to his phone. “Hi Jess, yes I’ve found her, we ran into each other, literally. She’s hurt; can you bring a torch to the wasteland? We’re not far in but I don’t wanna move her till we know what damage there is to her arm.”
“It hurts Pete and I’m so cold. Where’s your jacket?”
“On the floor where you threw it when you ran, you silly girl. Let me lie next to you and cuddle you to try and warm you up. I doubt its blood loss, it’ll be because of you running off like that, hope Jess isn’t long.”
The two former enemies huddled together for what seemed like ages, but in reality it was only 10 minutes before Jess and her dad arrived shouting for the two teenagers. And so they were found and taken to safety, Harry Rowland was a first aider so he had a quick look at Lini in the torch light and decided it was ok to move her.
Jess had brought Dozer’s jacket and he slipped it on Lini before picking her up in his strong arms.
Dozer insisted on carrying her home and she snuggled into his chest and marvelled at how strong he was, “Maybe he’s not so bad after all,” She thought, “I certainly feel safer in his arms than Linford ever felt in his presence.”
They arrived at Lini’s house, Jess led the way to Lini’s bedroom and Dozer laid her on her bed. He brushed her hair off her face and gently kissed her on her forehead after lowering her slowly down. “I’ll see you tomorrow Lin, Jess said her dad’s gonna get his first aid kit and sort your elbow out. Will you be ok now?”
“I’ve bled in your jacket, it’ll be ruined, why are you being so nice to me?”
“We’ll talk tomorrow babe, don’t worry about the jacket, I’d better get back, my cousins will be worrying.”
He bent down and kissed her forehead once more and started to get up, Lini grabbed his arm. She looked into his eyes; his head was slowly moving down and hers up.
“Right, let’s have a look at that elbow Lini,” Said Harry as he walked in followed closely by Jen. Dozer stood up quickly. “That was close,” He thought, “I’ve never noticed how beautiful her eyes are before now, I nearly fell in.”
“What have you been doing sweetheart?” She asked, sounding concerned.
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I opened my eyes and looked at the clock, “Shit, I must’ve dropped off.” I thought. It was 0217am. “Now where did I get to? Oh yes, Dozer left, Harry fixed Lini’s elbow, her mum came in and kissed her goodnight blah blah, oh wait, damn, I forgot Lini’s supposed to hate her mum and dad now. Oh hell, I’m no good at this writing lark. I suspect everyone is now expecting a love triangle between Dozer, Lini and Niki. Haha, that would be funny, nah, can’t have that. I can’t think what to write now.”
I stood up and went to make a coffee, my mind blank as far as writing more of chapter 4 was concerned. I put the kettle on and went to the toilet, yeah I know, TMI, but I’ve gotta give you something to read.
I made my coffee and went back and laid on my bed, my PC is at the side of it cos I’m lazy, so I can lay in bed and type. I rolled a fag and lit it. Now, let’s see………
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Next morning was bright and sunny as Lini woke and looked out the window, she thought about the night before and considered what would have happened if Harry and her mum hadn’t walked in at that moment. Was she about to kiss her worst enemy? More to the point, was he about to kiss her? “He knows who I am,” She thought. “Oh hell, the bitch can take me shopping today, I need some clothes. Or maybe that bastard I call dad can give me some money and Jess and I can go, yeah that sounds better.”
Just as she slipped her dressing gown on her phone went “Oh oh” Just like a small child that had just done something wrong. That was her message tone. She picked her Nokia 5300 up and slid it open. It was a message from someone whose number wasn’t stored in her phone.
“Hi sxy howz U this morn?? Hope U dnt mind me txt ya, I got Ur num off Jess last nite. Pete xxx”
“Oh that’s right,” Thought Lini, “Jess text me and asked if it was ok to give Dozer my number. Wow, three kisses, what’s going on?”
She decided to reply, “I’m ok thx, thx 4 Ur concern & thx 4 Ur help last nite xxx”
She pressed send and then realised what she’d put on the end. “Oh well, he is quite dishy I guess, and we did nearly kiss last night. I’m just a little confused as to what’s going on. Maybe I should get mum to take me shopping, she does owe me big time and I’ve a feeling her and dad are gonna want to make it up to me.”
There was a tap on her door and Jess poked her head round, “Morning babe, I see you’re up, I brought you some clothes to wear and mum’s sent some make up you can have, I’ll help you put it on if you like.”
“Thanks Jess, I need some clothes, I don’t wanna wear Linford’s stuff anymore. Let me get a shower and then I’ll tell you about last night while we get me ready for the day.”
Lini went and showered and wandered back in to her room just as her phone went “Oh oh”. She slid it open and read, “It’s the least I cud do, glad Ur ok bb, neway I’m taking the girls to town, they wanna shop, U & Jess fancy coming?? xxx” Lini showed Jess the text and told her about the near kiss experience from last night.
“Wow, he’s got the hots for you sis, sounds like you like the attention too. Aaww, she’s blushing.” Teased Jess.
“Leave it out will ya, I’m confused as hell. For years I’ve had nowt but grief off Dozer and suddenly……
“Are ya gonna answer him then? I’m willing to go shopping with them.”
“Jess, this skirt’s a bit short innit? And yes I’m answering him now.”
“Yes plse, I need clothes & I need an outfit 4 Fri nite, give us half hour & we’ll cum rnd xxx”
“This is picking up a little now; do I really wanna make this a sloppy romantic thing though?” I asked myself as I closed the chapter and decided to go back to sleep.
I woke up at 8; something still wasn’t right about this story. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it but there was something missing.
Weetabix is my favourite breakfast cereal. I put 3 biscuits in a bowl and covered them with sugar; then I poured some semi-skimmed milk on. I tucked in and soon polished off the bowl and picked up my morning cuppa.
It was a Monday, my day off work and I was looking forward to having a lazy day. The doorbell rang, goddamn it. Who’s that at this time in the morning? I went down the communal stairs and opened the door; it was the postman with a parcel for me. I signed for it and went back upstairs and locked my flat door behind me as I stepped inside.
“Hmmm, I think I know what this is,” I thought, “I’ll open it later, I’ve just had an idea to end chapter 4 or One Long Summer. Yes, it’ll be cool, haha.”
Half an hour later, Lini and Jess were knocking on the Harris’ door with the £500 that Lini’s guilt ridden mum had given Lini for clothes. She had really wanted to take her daughter and help her choose the things she wanted, but she also noted the animosity in Lini’s voice and decided not to push it. She’d give her time to come to terms with it and then they could work through this together. She didn’t know however that Lini was planning on leaving before the summer holidays were over.
“Good morning young ladies, such a lovely day today,” Maureen Harris greeted the two teens who were stood on her doorstep. “Peter, girls, your friends are here,” She shouted to the others. “Come in girls they won’t be long.”
“Thanks Mrs Harris,” Said Jess as they walked into the hall to wait for the others.
Pretty soon the five of them were seated in Dozer’s XR3i bound for town and a fun day of clothes shopping. “What am I going to do while the girls are trying stuff on?” Thought Dozer as he sped up the main road towards town. “Oh I can watch,” He smiled to himself as he imagined seeing lots of female flesh and then realised his front seat passenger was showing slightly more leg than she realised.
Lini looked over at her new hero and realised he kept glancing at her legs. She giggled as she noticed the considerable bulge in his jeans. He winked at her and their eyes met, the excited chatter in the back had stopped and the world slowed down as they gazed into each others eyes. An ear splitting high pitched scream brought him to his senses just in time for him to look up at the front of the number 97 bus as they ploughed head on into the front of it.
Chas looked at me doubtfully, “I somehow don’t think it’ll work Dan” He said dismissively.
“Course it will. I’ve tested it, but I need a second opinion.” I replied.
“I’m not getting my cock out in front of you, that would be gay.” He replied.
“Oh man, sometimes you are so thick. You can take it in the bathroom and try it.”
I handed him a condom which he begrudgingly took. It was a little over 5 mins later when he returned, without the device or condom. “It’s not working for me.” He said.
“What happened?” I asked suspiciously.
He mumbled, “I can’t get hard, no motivation.”
I pointed to my Surface Pro, “I’m sure I can find you some motivation”
“It’s not that,” he indicated, blushing slightly, “It’s just, well, you know.”
I didn’t know, when I tried it, it worked a charm, maybe not all guys are like me though. ‘Obviously, not all guys are like me.’ I thought.
“So, what do we need then?” I asked screwing my nose up at him.
“You need to make a whole torso I think, I need something to grab hold of. Or get a girl to wear it, model it. Your sister, she’d be good as a model.” He replied.
“Man, you are so perverted. Claire would kill me for even thinking that, no, it is so wrong. Another thing, what would be the point of making a torso? Might as well just buy a blow-up doll.” I was starting to lose my patience, ‘Wish I’d never told him.’ I thought as I scowled at my best friend.
“Right, this is an experiment Chas. Go fetch the device,” he disappeared in to my en suite and returned holding said device and handed it to me. I attached the device over my tight jeans with a belt and adjusted it into position.
“What the fuck?” Chas almost yelled.
“Hey, I’ve still got my jeans on.” I pointed out and knelt on the bed in front of him. I turned round getting on to all fours so we couldn’t see each other’s faces.
“What you doing man? I hope you’re not expecting me to stick my cock in there while it’s attached to you.” He complained.
I pointed out again, “I’m fully clothed man, what’s the problem?”
“That’s the problem,” he stated. “Well, that and you’re not a girl.”
“But that’s the point, you don’t need a girl if you’re using this.”
“So, I’m meant to fuck you while you’re wearing a home-made fake pussy?” I thought it was a rhetorical question. Which it turned out not to be because he continued, “Well? Is that what you want?”
I sighed, “No, Chas, it’s not what I want, but I thought it might help you.”
“OK, look, I get it. Wait here,” I said taking the device off.
I slowly opened my bedroom door and listened, no sound. I crept along the landing and knocked on Claire’s door. ‘No answer’ I thought, ‘maybe she’s downstairs or out even.’ I slowly opened her door and snuck inside, my heart beating hard and fast. I slowly crept to her en suite and she wasn’t in there either. Looking through the laundry I fished out a skirt and a pair of her panties. I stashed them up my shirt and fled back to my room.
“Now what?” Asked Chas as I entered my en suite and shut the door.
“Wait.” I uttered again, peeking out before closing it again.
I Pulled my tight jeans off and lowered my underwear. ‘What the fuck am I doing?’ I asked myself in my head.
I pulled the panties up my legs and stepped into the skirt before buttoning and zipping it into place. I looked in the mirror. ‘God, I’m wearing a skirt!’ The socks didn’t look right so I slipped them off and put them in the laundry basket. Then I had to remove the panties to put the device on. Then a thought occurred to me. ‘Why did I even take the panties?’ It was a mini skirt I had, I recognised it as a sports skirt Claire uses for sports at college.
Adjusting the device into place, I quickly pulled the panties back up and made sure the pleated skirt was straight. ‘All this, just for an experiment.’ I thought as I opened the door.
A strange look crossed Chas’ face, “So you’re a tranny now then?” He asked.
“No Chas, I’m trying to get you motivated, but I’m having second thoughts.”
He leant forward and lifted the skirt and saw the knickers and what was underneath. I batted his hand away, “Give over pervert.”
“You’re the one who wants me to fuck you and I’m the pervert?”
I plonked down on his knee to wind him up a bit, he didn’t push me off which surprised me. Instead, he put his arms round me and tickled the shit out of my ribs, which left us both rolling on the floor screaming with laughter.
There was a knock on my door, “What are you two up to now?” It was my mum, oops.
“Nothing mum.” I yelled back. “We’re just messing about”, luckily; she didn’t open the door. “Just keep it down boys.” I heard her walk off and
down the stairs.
I looked at Chas and he looked at me and we just lost control. After we’d calmed down, I just wanted to put my jeans back on to avoid discovery and embarrassment. So, I legged it to my en suite. I was starting to turn to close the door when two hands grabbed my hips. Chas had followed me, he gently ushered me to the sink and slipped a hand up my skirt, slipping my panties down and I stepped out of them. He wet his fingers and started feeling for the slit where the pussy was situated, brushing my anus on its way past, my heart was beating so hard and fast I thought it was going to burst.
“What you doing?” I whispered, he shushed me and carried on.
I jumped a little when his finger started pushing against my anus, but I let him continue, it felt nice. I suddenly felt a plop as his finger slipped inside and he was sliding it in and out. That was a really strange, but nice sensation, I liked it. He removed it and replaced it with two and my head started spinning. I pushed back slightly, and he slid his fingers back out. Something else was there, something hard. I turned round to face him and planted my lips on his. Our tongues explored each other’s mouths and when we broke for air, I felt something hard pressing into my leg.
I looked down, saw, and then took hold of his cock and sank to my knees. I’d seen enough porn on my computers to know exactly what to do and after licking and sucking his shaft and balls soon had him on the edge. I stood up and reached onto the sink unit to grab the condom he hadn’t used earlier. I unwrapped it and deftly slid it down his shaft and turned back round. I used some baby oil to lubricate us both and lifting my skirt pushed my arse out to meet him and he gently slid his throbbing manhood into my tight anus. It hurt a little as he started to pump in and out, I ignored the pain though and grabbed one of his hands and clasped it over my mouth to stop me making too much noise. How he didn’t explode straight away I don’t know but after a few minutes of thrusting we both came together, and I let out a moan of ecstasy as I felt his cock throbbing inside me. He held me close for a few seconds before pulling out and disposing of the condom. Then I watched him pee, I don’t know why.
I cleaned myself up and hurriedly put my panties back on and put my jeans back on. Took the skirt off and hid it in my laundry basket intending to put it back later along with my underpants. ‘Hang on, my underpants?’ I realised what I’d done but didn’t care as I walked into my bedroom.
We looked at each other and he grabbed my waist and pulled me onto his knee.
Our lips met again, and our tongues once again explored each other’s hot mouths. I felt his cock growing as I squirmed on his knee and moved so I could straddle his legs. Fuck it felt good.
I knew what I needed to do and slipped down between his legs and unzipped him, I reached inside his boxers and pulled his manhood out before sinking my mouth onto it. 10 or so minutes later he held the back of my head as his sticky salty sperm hit the back of my throat on it’s way to my stomach.
I really don’t know what got into me, well, I know his cock got into me, 3 times! But I don’t know how we went from A to B and how I felt about what happened. As I was laying in bed that night, I thought about how it felt and how much I really enjoyed it and the fact that I was still wearing panties under my pjs. I also wasn’t sure how it would affect our friendship. But I guess I’ll find out at school tomorrow.
Claire looked at me, I knew I’d pushed my luck. Well, how was I to know she’d be home early today.
“Daniel, or is it Danielle now? I’m confused, I’m not angry at how you’re dressed, but I am angry that you’re wearing my clothes without asking.”
I looked at the floor, so ashamed, I didn’t know what to do.
“You wearing panties too? My panties?”
She leaned forward and lifted the hem of my, erm, her dress up. Course I was wearing panties, that’s what started this in the first place. I was also wearing one of her old training bras and she has probably spotted that too.
“Take the dress off Danielle.” She ordered, although not nastily. I unzipped it and stepped out of it.
She was looking at my crotch curiously. “Take the panties off.”
I felt my face go bright red. This experiment although successful had gone terribly wrong.
She stared at my crotch, then at my face, then back at my crotch. “H-how? H-how is that possible?”
The front doorbell rang. “You’d better put something on.” She said. “Here.” She handed me her jeans and a t-shirt, as she got up to answer the door. The jeans were tighter than mine!
I slipped the t-shirt on which was a girl’s t-shirt and it left my midriff showing and was low necked. It actually looked like I had small breasts and as it was tight made me look even skinnier on the waist that I am.
I looked in her full-length mirror and saw a teenage girl looking back at me. ‘Wow’ I thought, ‘need something up top though.’
Claire came back in, she looked closer at me. “I’m still shocked.” She said walking round me. “You’d better get changed, unless you want Chas to see you like that.”
I shrugged. It obviously excites him seeing me in girls’ clothes, I walked out to the landing, leant over the bannister, and called him up.
Claire shrugged at me and shut her door, I guess she was doing girly stuff or her homework or something.
I closed my bedroom door, let out a sigh and dived on my bed. Chas swatted my arse which made me let out a girly yelp.
“Behave, I don’t want Claire knowing any more than she does. She came home early and caught me in one of her dresses.”
“So how come you’re still wearing her clothes? And how come you’re still breathing?” Asked Chaz.
“I think you turning up saved me. She had me stripped to bra and knickers and she was starting to examine my crotch when you rang the bell.”
“Seriously? Why was your sister examining your crotch? That’s so wrong on so many levels.”
I sat up and pulled my jeans off. They really were tight. I laid back down and pointed at my panties, “Go ahead, have a look, have a feel, tell me what you think.” I encouraged and he knelt down between my legs.
There was a knock on my door and Claire walked in, just as Chas was feeling my pubic area through my panties.
“Oops, sorry guys, didn’t mean to disturb you.”
Chas’ face lit up like a tomato and he quickly got up and sat back on the chair.
So, I thought ‘Why not’ and stood up, I shut the door and told them both to sit on my bed. I hooked my thumbs and slipped the panties down and they both gasped and stared and then stared at each other, then my face before turning back to my crotch.
I was shocked when Claire lurched forward and slowly opened my legs, she slipped her finger between the folds of my pussy lips and gasped at the dampness there. She got up and walked round me and then told me to lay down. So, I did.
“What the fuck have you done to yourself?” She demanded.
“It’s an experiment, I suddenly had an idea after the failed experiment with the device yesterday and decided I needed to……” The puzzled look on her face reminded me she didn’t know about the device.
So I told her, and she laughed and laughed and laughed, we were all laughing. I can’t believe I told my sister everything.
“So, you’re both gay then?”
“No sis, we’re experimenting. I needed Chas to help, I just didn’t expect us to go as far as we did.”
“Ok, but what I don’t understand is, you gave him a blow job, how did that help the experiment?”
I shrugged, “I tried it, that was a different experiment.”
“So good you tried it twice? I’m not bothered you know; I know how good it feels to get a guy off with your mouth.” She blushed. “TMI I think.”
“So anyway, little bro, sis, whatever. How have you done this? There’s no sign of your, erm, not that I want to see it. There’s no sign of your cock at all.”
I don’t wanna see it either.” Chipped in Chas, who’d been extremely quiet.
So, I turned and shoved my bum in his face. “You just want this don’t ya?”
“Give over Dani,” said my sis, “I’m seeing too much of your skin today. So, come on spill.”
“I can’t get it off,” I admitted, so I can’t show you. “It’s glued on. Basically, it pulls my genitals inside and creates a cavity so that you can be fucked normally.”
“But you were damp when I put my finger in?” She queried.
“Yes,” I replied, “that was lubricant, it’s texture is like fanny fat.”
“Dani, that’s gross.”
“Sorry sis but I don’t know what else to call it.” I admitted.
“So, with this pussy on, you can be fucked properly? Have you tried it?” Asked Claire.
“No, not yet, that was the next stage of the experiment.” That got a blush from Chas.
“Look, I can’t perform on demand you know.” Mentioned Chas. He’s so embarrassed. I’m surprisingly not.
“Dani, come on, let’s do an experiment of our own while he gets warmed up.” Claire dragged me back to her room.
Once there she stripped me, shaved me, dressed me, and made me up. Oh man, I looked in the mirror, Daniel was totally gone and here was Danielle and I wasn’t tarty either. I did however look a lot like Claire, except our hair, mine’s shoulder length and brown and hers is a bit longer and dyed red, a lovely shade of red. I just knew Chas would fancy having his way with me.
“Well go on then, Miss Danielle, go get him.” She kissed me on the cheek. “You can fill me in later, I don’t want to see my sister have sex with her boyfriend. Oh, have you got condoms?”
“Yes sis. Thank you, I’m shocked I could actually look like you.” I gave her a hug. I really couldn’t say how I felt, I was wearing hold up stockings with a mini skirt, the t-shirt I had on earlier and some really sexy underwear that was black and lacey. My make-up was really good but not tarty.
I walked into my bedroom, Chas was sitting playing a game on my computer, until he saw me and nearly fell off the chair. I perched on his lap and pressed my lips against his, we snogged for some time and I felt something rising in his jeans. I suddenly realised he was playing with my nipple and it was starting to drive me crazy with lust. I had to get some sort of control back, so I slipped off his knee, pulled him up and pushed him on to my bed.
I slipped my t-shirt and bra off and he took his t-shirt off. I sat directly on the object of my desires as I straddled him and wiggled about, oh he was sweating. I slid down a bit and undid his belt with my teeth whilst locking his eyes to mine. I finished undoing the jeans and slid them down to his ankles. Still staring into his wide eyes I took hold of his cock through his boxers with my lips and gently nibbled up and down his shaft.
I was extremely horny and didn’t want to make him cum yet, but I was desperate to taste him, so I took him in my mouth and took his cock balls deep. He wasn’t too far in, he’s just the right size for me. I licked his balls as I slurped on his cock, I’d seen plenty of porn and knew what to do. It wasn’t long before he was shooting hot and salty sperm down my throat and I swallowed every last gorgeous drop.
Well I moved back up and kissed the fuck out his lips, keeping a check on his cock till he started to get hard again. I manoeuvred my shirt and panties so his cock would slide in easily and started riding him slowly. I gotta say, I wasn’t expecting much sensation but was mildly surprised when I was getting a feeling that he was all the way inside of me. He reached down and started fingering my arse, he’d found the lubricant. Not sure which hole he wanted, I got on all fours and invited him to choose. He penetrated my arse, that was a bit of a shock and we soon had a great rhythm going. I had to pull away and look for a condom and that helped us both cool down a bit.
I slipped the condom on and after sucking him hard again turned and raised my arse, I offered myself unashamedly and he took me well and truly. Alternating between one then the other and finally turning me round, he whipped the condom off and deposited a second load down my throat. We lay in heaven for a while.
“I’m home kids.” Oh shit, my mum.