“Coming to the hospital and get a shot, feeling ill and then nothing. How long was I out? And why do I feel like I was kicked in the nuts?”
(Sam)
“Steph?” I croaked and opened my eyes
“I’m here Sam”
“Hi.” I said weekly
“How are you feeling?”
“Woozy, confused, thirsty.”
“Here, drink this. Slowly.” She said giving me a glass of water.
“Thank you.”
“I missed you so much!” she exclaimed and gave me a hug.
“Is it true?”
“What?”
“That it was your brother that did that?”
“You heard that?”
I nodded.
“Yes, it is true. I didn’t talk to him ever since. I’m glad he is away at the uni.” she said with anger.
“I’m sorry.”
“For what?”
“For not letting you explain what happened before.”
“Don’t worry about it Sam, I would have probably done the same thing if I were you.”
“Why am I in the hospital, by the way.” I asked her confused.
“What do you remember?” She asked me.
“Coming to the hospital and get a shot, feeling ill and then nothing. How long was I out? And why do I feel like I was kicked in the nuts?” I asked and her face fell.
“You were unconscious for about 24 hours.”
“Wow. Did I sleep that long?”
We better wait for your mom to come back and call the doctor to explain what happened, Sam.”
“You are scaring me, Steph. What happened. I can see it in your face that something did happen.”
“Please, Sam. It will be better if the doctor tell you what happened, I can’t really explain it to you.”
“Am I dying?” I asked worriedly.
“No Sam, you are not dying nor you are sick.”
“Then why am I in here?”
“Please Sam, just wait a few minutes, okay?” she said and hugged me tightly.
“Okay Steph, just don’t leave me alone, please.” I said pleadingly.
“Oh Sam, you have no idea how much I missed you this past year.”
“I missed you too Steph, every single day.”
“Please, promise me something, Sam.”
“What?”
“Whatever happens, lets never be apart like that again, I wouldn't be able to handle something like that again.” She said in tears.
“I promise.” I said still hugging her.
A few minutes later mom came back with Jess.
“Sweety, you are awake.” Mom said.
“SAM!” Jess yelled. “You got me so worried.” she said and hugged me REALLY tight.
“Jess.” I said
“What?”
“I can’t breath.”
“Oops, sorry.” She said and hugged me not so tightly.
“I see you and Steph made up.” Mom said.
“Yeah.” I said and Steph nodded happily.
“Mom, what happened?” I asked her.
“I better call the doctor.” She said with a sad face.
“I’ll go get my dad.” Jess said.
“Thank you, Jess.” My mom said and Jess went to find her dad.
“How are you feeling, sweety?”
“Still a little woozy and I feel like someone kicked me in the nuts.” I said
“Language, young man.” Mom admonished me.
“Sorry, mom.”
Jess came back a few minutes later with Dr. Campbell.
“Hello Sam, how are you feeling?” He asked me.
“This seems to be the question of the day Doc. Everyone keeps asking me that. I’m a bit woozy, confused and I feel like someone kicked me in the... testicles.” I said and looked at my mom. “What happened?” I asked him.
“How much do you remember, Sam?” He asked me.
“Not much, I remember coming to see you, getting a shot and feeling I’ll a few minutes later. After that, it’s a blank.”
“There is no easy way to tell you this Sam, but you had a very strong allergic reaction to the shot, going into anaphylactic shock. Later that night, you entered into another shock this time caused by your own testosterone and went into cardiac arrest.”
“You mean I almost died?” I said interrupting him.
“Yes Sam.”
“Will it happen again?” I said feeling scared.
“We had to operate you so it wouldn’t happen again.”
“Operate me? What kind of operation?”
“We had to perform a bilateral orchiectomy.”
“And that means?”
“We had to remove your testicles, Sam.” He said sadly.
“You had to do what?” I asked and I felt Jess and Steph holding my hands.
“I’m sorry Sam, if we didn’t do that you could die. You are allergic to testosterone.”
“What does it mean?” I asked feeling faint, my mother was in tears now.
“It means you can't go through a male puberty. I'm sorry.”
(Jessica)
After daddy said that he would never be able to go through a boy’s puberty, I looked at Sam and he just stood there looking at nothing for a long time.
“Sam? Are you okay?” I asked him and he just stayed there without moving.
“Sam? Can you hear me?” nothing.
“What happened?” I asked daddy.
“I think he is just in shock right now.” He said. “He will probably go out of it by himself in a few minutes. If anything happens, call me, okay?”
“Okay daddy.”
(Sam)
I don’t know how long I stayed there without moving, I could hear them talking to me, but it sounded so far away. 'What will happen to me now? Why did that have to happen to me? What did I do to deserve this?'
I then started to cry and felt Steph, Jess and Mom hugging me.
“Mom? What will happen to me now?” I asked in tears.
“Oh sweety, whatever happens it will have to be your choice. Just remember that I will support you whatever you choose.”
“We will also support you, Sam.” Jess said and Steph nodded.
“Why do I feel like my life is over?” I asked.
“It’s not over, It is just changing, sweety.” Mom said.
“Will I have to make the choice we were talking yesterday?” I asked Jess.
“I’m afraid so, Sam.” She told me.
“So it’s not really a choice is it? If I want to have a healthy normal life, I mean.”
“You will always have a choice, Sam, and I will be at your side whatever you choose.” Jess told me.
“I guess. But before I choose I need to tell you something, Jess.” I said and blushed.
“What is it?”
“I think I fell in love with you, not that it will matters now anyway, but I had to get it out of my chest.” I said and started to cry again.
She looked at me in the eyes and suddenly she kissed me on the lips.
“I also fell in love with you Sam, and whatever you choose that wont change, I’ll be with you either way.” She said and kissed me again.
To be continued....
Comments
I would be so angry!
They talk about a choice, but there really isn't one. Yeah, I want to be a girl, but Sam's choice has been effectively made for her. I feel so sad, especially since he just found the girl he loves, and now...
This hits hard with me. After two previous marriages and painful divorces, I met the woman I should have married all along. Right after getting married, we find out that my ED problems are permanent, without any recourse. Much like Sam's situation, only Sam does have a chance at a full life. My wife and I are learning to cope, I may still have my testicles, but unless I get them tatooed as Christmas ornaments, I can't see any use for them.
Good Fiction brings out emotion. This is some damn good fiction.
Wren
Well I can see your point
Yet, to be the advocate, while Sam's choice has been effectively made for her, it were never her Mom, Jess, or Steph who made the choice. Neither those were the doctors. Sam can be angry - but there is nobody to blame.
Faraway
Big Closet Top Shelf
Where you can fool around like you want to and most you get is some bemused good ribbing!
Faraway
Big Closet Top Shelf
Where you can fool around like you want to and most you get is some bemused good ribbing!
Sam & Jess - 05
With Steph and Jess as friends, Sam has the best care possible.
May Your Light Forever Shine
May Your Light Forever Shine
Doctor Campbell..che cosa un incompetente stolto!
Potete dire querela? (What an incompetent fool! Can you say lawsuit?) Even if the boy had an allergy to his own testosterone, the radical orchiectomies would not have been necessary if the good doctor hadn't rushed his diagnosis into an ill-advised and premature administration of the hormone.
As I said previously, the doctor should have done more tests to determine why Sam's testosterone level was so low. Obviously his body was compensating for the allergy by producing less of the hormone, and a competent physician would have consulted with an endocrinologist before administering the testosterone. His actions nearly cost the boy his life, and in many places he'd be looking for another line of work. Still, Jess, along with Sam's family, will support him as he deals with this un-welcomed change. Thanks
Dio vi benedica tutti
Con grande amore e di affetto
Andrea Lena
Love, Andrea Lena
Well, then
Isn't it a good thing this is fiction, and the author isn't required to adhere to real world rules? I mean, if we start applying real world constraints to the stories appearing here, there would be nothing left on the site except a few blog posts.
I like this story, even if certain parts are implausible by RL standards. They are used to set the background to the coming story I suspect, and should not be taken as a medical treatment guide.
I can't wait for more chapters, as long as we don't see Sam and his/her mother filing suit against Jess's father. That would certainly put a crimp in a budding lesbian relationship.
I went outside once. The graphics weren' that great.
I like this story, too.
But this isn't a fantasy, and the premise for the tg girl's transition is based on a medical condition that was essentially created by a doctor's mistake; She didn't get an unnecessary appendectomy, she has just had her future inexorably altered because the doctor didn't do his job. He doesn't have to be sued; they can extend to him as much mercy and understanding as they wish. But to just look at what happened and say, oh well, it's just fiction? Really just my opinion, dear heart, nothing more.
Dio vi benedica tutti
Con grande amore e di affetto
Andrea Lena
Love, Andrea Lena
I really love
Teenage lesbian love stories.
Agreed, 100%.
Agreed, 100%.
Well, it seems there will be
Well, it seems there will be a new girl in town as Sam transitions to the other "team". Thankfully, s/he will have several good friends on her side plus her Mother. I think Jess's parents will use their new found friendship with her to help also.
Art creates emotion
The level of emotion that is created in this tale is intense. I feel a sense of sence of pity that defies description.
.. True fine art
__-=Foxxe=-__
I think Sam got a good deal!
Two balls for four girls.
Mum, Jess, Steph, herself!
LoL
Rita
Age is an issue of mind over matter.
If you don't mind, it doesn't matter!
(Mark Twain)
LoL
Rita
Along with what Drea said....
I think there are scores if not hundreds of anabolic steroids. Some might have a single group (of atoms) in a different location and some are probably fairly different from T. I think most are about as safe as T; overdosing by athletes/bodybuilders has caused the majority of problems. They don't all act the same, but they are more or less masculinizing and cause muscles to grow more easily. It would be odd if Sam were allergic to all of these compounds. If Sam went the M way, he probably would benefit form HGrowthH, too. (not that I expect that to happen in this story) He would be better off than an F2M since he already has a tool and hopefully has feeling in it!
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
Ready for work, 1992.
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
I really like this story.....
Nice job so far. I can't wait for more!
love
“I also fell in love with you Sam, and whatever you choose that wont change, I’ll be with you either way.†She said and kissed me again. I am glad Sam has someone like this, it will make it possible for him to become a her and survive it.
Many Are Assuming
Many are assuming that Dr. Campbell is to blame for what happened, but who's to say that his body wouldn't have eventually had a bad reaction to it anyway. The testes might not have been mature, but no one knows that they wouldn't have done this to him eventually anyway. I agree that maybe more tests were needed, but there is the possibility that Dr. Campbell might have saved Sam's life by what he did even if it doesn't seem like it now. The testes could have become Cancerous to the point that it might have been too late to save Sam's life if they had waited any longer. I think they should biopsy the testes to find out if they were precancerous. It would go a long way towards vindicating the doctor and his decision.
Grief and home, shock and promises
How many emotions and words are expressed at a time like this. Hopefully the friends and love surrounding Sam will last; but Sam is beginning an uncertain journey. Let us at BC remember how many times we felt alone and unique. This story is powerful at that place in our lives.
JessieC
Jessica E. Connors
Jessica Connors