"Or are you still a boy that cried,
Tears now surely long since dried." -- The Who

A Life Ever Changing #32

Cry If You Want

by Angel O’Hare

She had me hold it and then she pulled out a few more things and some crinolines and we headed for her shop...

As we were heading for the door Miss Mary came up to us and said "Helen, Julia had to leave to see about her baby at home. She said Angel could remain here and Harriet would be by after ten with the other needed items that Angel needs for her comfort and recuperation. She asked if you wouldn't mind having Angel keep us company until tomorrow morning. I felt that it was an urgent matter because her sitter called and I believe she was needed right away, so I called for the car and Henry has driven her home. I'm sorry Angel, but she did want to tell you herself but she had to leave abruptly and didn't feel she had time to wait. Julia did say that if it would pose a problem or any hardship for us that Harriet would take Angel home with her when she comes by at 10:00 am."

What? This was unexpected and I was worried about Jerry! What could have happened?

Aunty Helen and Mary must have seen my worried expression; they just knew that I would be worried so Miss Mary added, "Angel, your mommy told me to tell you that it was nothing for you to worry about. Your baby brother has a fever and the babysitter was nervous about being there with a sick child. Your mommy had to go and give your brother some medicine for his fever and I want you to know that all babies get fevers a lot, but just give them some medicine and in no time they are back to normal. Ok?"

I relaxed then knowing that it wasn't serious, trusting Miss Mary and said, "Ok, Miss Mary, but can I call my mommy later on and see how my brother is?"

Aunty Helen spoke up and said, "Of course Angel, you can call your mommy right after we are done at the shop, ok?" I said ok and we headed for the shop once more.

Wow! It looked different inside this morning. Jill must have been very busy. Oh, there are others here as well. Three other women were all very busy setting up lights and getting cameras ready and even setting up a background section on a small stage. I saw a large truck outside as we were coming from the big house and that is where all this stuff was coming from. GEEZE! There was a rack of baby-style clothes and Helen's helpers were adding to it and removing others taking them in the back room. Sylvia was there as well and she had a big case on wheels that had a lot of drawers in it. It looked like I was going to have a very busy day! I was right and it started right away!

One of the ladies said, "Hi Honey, I have to get you all pretty so Jill can take your picture and you will look real good in the lights. To do this we need to put on a little heavier make-up and you have to sit very still, ok?"

I said ok and she picked me up and then set me down in a chair near a table that had a ton of make-up and stuff on it. She started by brushing my hair straight up and clipping it on top of my head. She then started painting stuff on my face and just kept going. When she was done, she did stuff to my hair, and then she shouted, "Angel's ready now."

What happened next was a blur of activity. In one outfit and Sylvia added some jewelry Jill had me get on the stage and she posed me in about ten poses, then it started all over from the beginning with make-up, hair, clothing change, jewelry, poses, and pictures. We did this over and over again for a long time until Jill said, "BREAK." Whew, I needed a break!

Aunty Harriet was watching me and smiling. She came over to me and said, "Hi Angel, I brought the items you needed and your mommy wanted me to tell you that Jerry is ok but he is real cranky so she has to stay with him. I have a few more appointments today but I should be done around three o'clock this afternoon. I really think it would be best if you stayed the night here at Helen's ok?"

I wondered why my mommy just didn't bring Jerry here. There was lots of room and even being cranky, she could still stay with him here. I didn't say anything about that though and just told Aunty Harriet that staying overnight here would be ok.

She gave me a kiss and a hug and then I saw her talking to Helen for a few minutes. I noticed she showed her an item from the bag and they both looked at me, Helen smiled and nodded and that was that.

Auntie Harriet left and I walked over to a table that had a bunch of little sandwiches and stuff on it. One of the ladies gave me a napkin, a drink, a paper plate and then she put a few of the things from the table on my plate but before I could eat any she put a bib around my neck! GEEZE!

Then it started all over again. Make-up, hair, clothes, jewelry, poses, and pictures, over and over again! Finally we were done! My clothes were removed and then my make-up and jewelry. My diapers were wet and I wasn't wearing any plastic panties anymore! GEEZE! Helen came over to me, took my hand and led me back over to the big house. All the ladies, Jill, and Sylvie said goodbye and gave me a kiss, no hugs though! I was wet and they didn't want to get themselves wet hugging me.

Miss Mary was waiting for us and I saw other ladies in the house as well. They just gave me a smile and kept on cleaning and stuff. GEEZE! I was just wearing my bra and wet diapers! They led me upstairs to the changing room and they both put on some gloves. They did what my mommy and they did earlier strapping me down and everything!

There was one thing different this time though and I didn't like it one bit! Before they put more medicine on me, Mary rolled me on my side and pulled my knees toward her holding them tight. Helen smeared gooey stuff between my bottom and then stuck something far up in me! YUCK, that felt funny and weird!

Then they put the medicine on and re-diapered me with extra diapers. They were thick and were larger because they went higher up on my tummy and back. Helen pinned them tight and put a pair of real big plastic panties on me. They had pictures of pretty birdies on them she had a nightshirt with the same birdies that she pulled over my head. It only came to just above my waist.

Miss Mary said, "Honey, I have something for you to drink and then you have to take a nap before suppertime, ok?"

The clock said 2:30 so I asked her, "What time is supper, Miss Mary?"

She said, "Supper will be around six o'clock but it really depends on when you wake up, ok?"

I said ok and I drank what tasted like thick chocolate flavored chalk. YUCK! I drank it all and then Helen gave me a very little cup of something to drink. It smelled and tasted funny but not as bad as the chalky stuff. They laid me in the big crib and tucked me in kissing me and giving me a teddy bear to sleep with then lifting up the rail closing me in. It did not take long after that when I noticed I was getting real tired and sleepy and fell right to sleep. I don't remember having any dreams at all.

When I started to waken, it was very dark in the room with only a little night-light giving off a soft glow. It was a clown face and the smile, nose, and eyes were all you could really see. I giggled because it looked so funny.

But, then I felt funny. My tummy hurt and when I rolled over my diapers squished. YUCK! I was still a little woozy but I knew what I had done, I had messed my diapers! OH NO! I wanted to go in the bathroom and take a shower real fast and right then but I couldn't get out of the bed with the rails up. I tried to climb over them, but all I did was get dizzy, fall back on my bottom and SQUISH! OH YUCK!

I had to wait until Miss Mary and Helen came back. I started to smell that familiar smell and that didn't help my tummy one bit! I really didn't feel good so I lay back down and waited. I covered myself back up because it didn't smell as bad then.

I must have fallen asleep again because I woke up as I was being lifted from the crib. I looked and saw Miss Mary and another lady I had not met before. The lady said, "Hi Angel, you can call me Gwen, ok?" I just nodded and she said, "I have three children at home and two are still in diapers so your Aunty Helen asked me to help Mary because she isn't used to changing messy diapers."

She and Miss Mary chuckled as Miss Mary carried me into the bathroom. I saw the tub had just a little water in it and both Miss Mary and Gwen had plastic aprons and gloves on. They had me stand up in the tub as they slid my plastic panties down my legs and removed my shirt and bra. They then lay me back gently until I was on my back in the tub. Gwen took my plastic panties the rest of the way off, was rinsing them off with the hose attached to the shower. Then Miss Mary unpinned my diapers and slid them off pushing them toward Gwen who then rinsed them off and put them in a little pail with a cover on it. Miss Mary then rinsed me off with the hose thing and helped me stand back up. She rinsed me real well and let the water out of the tub. YUCK!

She then rinsed me again and I noticed something real different! Where my penis once had been, there was just two puffy parts. I did not even see the little hole with the skin around it anymore! What happened to me? My boobies were no longer red and sore, the nipples were pink and big and the rest was a little wrinkled looking but the redness was gone. Miss Mary separated the two puffy parts with one hand and sprayed in there with the hose thing she was holding in her other hand. It tickled a lot!

She smiled and said, "That's my girl, we have you rinsed off and now you can have a nice bubble bath." She rinsed out the tub and put the stopper in. Then she let water flow that was nice and warm she added some bubble bath that smelled like flowers and the bubbles and suds were everywhere in seconds. That felt real nice.

Gwen came back, started wetting my hair again, and then added shampoo. She massaged my head for a log time and that felt real good too. Miss Mary started washing me right after she handed me a little doll and a small washcloth. She said, "Ok, Honey, you wash your dolly while I wash you, ok?"

I said ok and washed the little dolly real good for Miss Mary, it was dusty. Gwen gave me a little shampoo to use to wash the dolly's hair and asked me what the dolly's name was. I asked Miss Mary and she said, "Angel, that is now your dolly, so you name her."

I thought for a second or two and I knew I could make them both feel good so I said, "Her name is Mary Gwen O'Hare." They both laughed and smiled. They both gave me a hug and kisses saying what a sweet young lady I was. They took turns rinsing me off as the water was let out. Miss Mary let Gwen carry me to the changing table where they put on some more gloves.

This time they did not tie me down! COOL! Miss Mary put the medicine on me real thick and said, "Angel, my darling little girl, this is the last time for the medicine and diapers. When you wake up in the morning you won't need them anymore." That made me real happy! They dressed me in another sleep set that was red and real lacy. The shirt was as short as the others had been but had a lot more lace and the plastic panties, covered in lace both front and back! GEEZE!

They set me down on the floor and had me slip on some red fluffy slipper that had a heel! Gwen told me they had a three-inch heel so I would be real cute and walk as a young lady should. GEEZE! With the diapers on my bottom really did sway back and forth a lot! Miss Mary brushed my hair and put in two pink plastic barrettes one in each side of my hair. They held my hands, one in each of theirs as we went downstairs.

Auntie Helen was waiting for us and she gave me a big smile, bunches of hugs and kisses. She said, "Now that you have been cleaned out real good I bet you are real hungry, aren't you?"

I realized my tummy felt much better and I was real hungry so I said, "Yes, I am real hungry, Aunty Helen, please don't put anymore things in my bottom, ok?"

They all laughed and Helen said, "I won't Honey, your doctor insisted we do that because you hadn't gone poo-poo and she was worried you could get sick." Helen then thanked Gwen for her help and told her she would get a little bonus for helping clean me up. Gwen was happy and told her she was glad to help and that I was the sweetest little girl she had ever met. OH GEEZE!

We walked into a huge room with a very long table and my special chair was there. This time auntie Helen lifted me up and put me in it. She attached the little table and tied a big bib that covered my sleep set from my neck to my feet.

She sat down next to me and that is when I saw a big thick book in front of her. She opened it so I could see and it was filled with pictures of me they had taken earlier. WOW! They looked real good but I couldn't believe that little baby-girl was me with all the make-up on I looked different. Some of the pictures made me laugh like the ones that I was touching my toes in that showed off the plastic panties I was wearing real good. I was smiling in all the pictures and they did look like I was having fun in each outfit. I knew that what I was really feeling was that I couldn't wait for it all to be done and over with. Jill just kept making me laugh and she did make it fun though.

Auntie Helen was real happy the way they all had turned out. Miss Mary came in holding a platter of food that looked and smelled wonderful. She then put a plate in front of Helen along with an extra napkin and a small fork, spoon, and a sharp knife. Auntie Helen started feeding me! She said, "Sweetheart, let me feed you this one time ok?"

I said ok thinking this was what she wanted and it would make her happy. It did make her very happy and then she handed me a sippy cup! A little cup that had a lid on it and a little spout I sipped out of. When we were done with supper, she rang a little bell and Miss Mary brought in a bowl of cherry gelatin with whipped cream mixed in it. The gelatin was cut up in little squares and Aunty Helen placed it in front of me. I looked around but there was no spoon so I asked her, "Auntie Helen, where is the spoon?"

Auntie Helen then said, "Honey, I just want to take a few more pictures and I want you to eat your dessert with your fingers, ok?" Oh brother! GEEZE! I did just that and no matter how hard I tried I still got whipped cream all over my face. I went to wipe it with my bib and Auntie Helen said, "No, Angel, don't wipe your mouth and face. I will clean you up after you have eaten all of your dessert." GEEZE! I ate all my desert and I know my face was a mess and so was the bib by the time I was done. Auntie Helen was very happy with me though so I guess it was worth it. She cleaned me up and removed the bib and the little table. She helped me down, brought me over to a telephone and said I could call my mommy now.

I dialed the phone and waited but my mommy never answered the phone and I got real worried. Auntie Helen let me call my Auntie Harriet's house. No answer there either! I was real worried then! Helen saw the look on my face and she just knew something was not right so she asked me, "Honey, do you know your neighbors number?"

I DID! So I said, "YES, AUNTIE HELEN, let's call her right now!" Auntie Helen had me dial the phone number and she talked to my neighbor, thank God, she was home! I saw my Auntie Helen's face turn from a smile to one of pure concern and sorrow! OH NO! I wanted to know what was going on but Auntie Helen told Miss Mary to take me up to my room! WHY? I WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO MY MOMMY!

Miss Mary ended up carrying me upstairs to my room. I did not want to go, I wanted to stay and find out what happened to my mommy! Miss Mary stayed with me trying to keep me calm. She talked softly to me and assured me that Auntie Helen would come up and let me know what was happening and what we would do.

The wait was horrible and I felt so helpless I just started to cry and Miss Mary picked me up and held me real tight and close. I first heard and then saw Auntie Helen, she had a very sad expression on her face, and it looked like she had been crying! She held her arms out to me so I got up off of Miss Mary's lap and ran into her arms as she lifted me up and held me tight walking toward a rocking chair next to the window. She sat down with me still wrapped tightly in her arms and said, "Honey, I want you to be a very brave little girl for your mommy, and you are going to have to be strong for her, ok?"

I knew it was real bad then and I looked up into Auntie Helen's eyes and she then told me what had happened to my mommy...

Note: A continuing story series of teasing scenes, part reminiscence, part fantasy