Jacqui and Me - Chapter 10
By Julie D Cole

Just a short chapter to see responses and decide if I should carry on'

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I felt myself becoming limp again and even though she had a strong grip she couldn’t stop me slipping out as my little soldier shrank back to small size and I felt embarrassed. Jacqui cupped him gently in her strong hand including my testicles and she rubbed me gently.

‘Mmm where has he gone?’

‘I’m sorry Jacs but I can’t help it. I’m embarrassed. I’m sorry.’

I tried to pull away so I could turn on my side so she couldn’t see the tears welling in my eyes but she was strong and really I was helpless.

‘Don’t. It’s nothing to be ashamed about. It’s normal so let’s relax and explore each other a little bit. You made me excited so he did his job.’

‘But I’ve come inside of you and I had no protection. I’ve been warned about the dangers. Do you think anything will happen? Are you on the pill?’

‘Forget it Sammy my love. I told you I’ll deal with it. You found my spot so that’s the important thing. Why the tears?’

‘It’s because I’m not man enough and yet you’ve made love with me. I never thought I’d ever make love with anybody. I’ve always felt so inferior.’

‘Oh pumpkin, don’t be so silly. There is no need to feel like that. We are all different and we all feel like you feel sometimes. You were man enough for me tonight weren’t you? Didn’t you like it?’

‘Yes I liked it a lot but I’m supposed to make love to you and it seemed like you made love to me. It was like you had the penis and you were pushing my tummy so hard.’

‘Don’t you like me to be so strong then? This is me, who I am. I’m your girlfriend who likes you as you are. Won’t you accept me as I am?’

‘Jac’s it’s just that most of the time you make me feel like I’m your girlfriend not a boyfriend. I feel so guilty because when we were just doing it I was imagining that I was a real girl and that you were a girl with a penis. I feel so awful. This is wrong.’

‘Sammy you are silly. This is just me and you together and what goes on in this bedroom stays in this bedroom if you wish. We just enjoyed ourselves didn’t we? What’s wrong with that?’

‘Well what will people say? I look more like a girl now and you’re a girl too. I can’t help how I feel just now but it’s wrong.’

‘Sammy you can’t help it and neither can I . I’ve never really been interested in boys and I always liked girls. Dad doesn’t feel comfortable about that. He wants me to marry and have one point four children like other girls. He wants to give me away one day. That’s not my style.’

‘But Jacqui I’m a boy and we just made love. I’m not a girl.’

‘Well technically you’re right Sammy but I can’t help it that you are more girl to me and that I took a fancy to you as soon as I first saw you. The others know.’

‘Oh Jac’s it’s wrong. I can’t be your girlfriend I’m a boy. My parents will kill me or at least disown me.’

‘Why? You have a girlfriend. Tick in the box. I have a boyfriend as far as Pops is concerned. Another tick in the box. Yes we have two ticks in the boxes. That means we passed doesn’t it?’

‘Yes but do you like me as I was today or more boyish as I should be? If I go around with feminine brows and my hair long and dressed like this I am more girl than boy.’

‘Well that’s how I want you to be. Would you carry on like this for me even if others were upset?

‘I don’t know if I can?’