Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 12

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 12


“Later’s and Satori?”


“Thanks for today, it really helped and the offer it’s amazing.”


I smile as she logs off chat and I’m just staring at her page and then smiling as Mom and Dad come in and whatever they have smells amazing.

I’m drooling as he passes me a thing of heat up yourself ramen noodles and with it a Chinese take-out bowl filled with Hot and Sour soup.

And some stuff for me to do.

Right now happiness is Hot and Sour soup and crayons and a coloring book.

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 10


I stare tears starting in the mirror and my hair’s awful and I’m not wearing make-up and thankfully I’m not hairy faced or have like shaving/beard shadow yet so I look like what I guess is what a lot of girls my age might sort of look like before they got their curves.
I look like Sarah, I look like I need a lot of work and getting this yet but just like this right now I’m looking at the right me, the real me.
The girl that can look in the mirror and not have it hurt.
And god oh god does it ever feel amazing for that to just feel like that and not hurt.

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 9

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 9


He passes Mom’s hers and she does the exact almost same thing as I did and he picks up some bags from the floor that he brought in from Sears and Walmart and sets them on the bed.

“Your Mom and I agree that until you get home and can go through your things that I’d best make a pit stop for a few things for you so here you go. Now your Mom picked the sizes and hell she picked out most of this and sent me pics of what to get on the phone so if it doesn’t fit blame her. And the rest is stuff that I picked out.”

Oh…oh wow I look in the bags and it’s clothes and things and I can see packages of underwear and stuff and I look and look and look then I look at him and I look at her and I bite my lip.

“I…I don’t know if I’ve ever dressed like this before...”

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 8

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 8


No…honey not at all there’s nothing wrong at all about being trans.”
(Sniffle-whine.) “There’s not?”
“No, not at all…you’re a girl. It’s just a pronoun, it’s just one little thing about you.”
(Sniffle.) “But I’m…I’m like…”
She is wiping at my face with a tissue now and that helps and I see this soft concerned but actually caring and maybe even happy? How? How can she be happy about this?
Here hand strokes my face and she kisses my cheek. “You’re alive Sarah. You’re still alive.”
And I start crying all of over again and it feels like this deep aching dam of stuff inside that I couldn’t really articulate like right just kind of breaks in me and lets go with this flood.
………….right now, right friggin now I’m Sarah and i…I really have a Mom.

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 7

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 7


Though I did read me saying that “I’d love it but I’d never really wear it.”
I said that a lot.
Though I can see why.
I mean there’s a lot of me that I can see as Sarah seeing Shawn never being out of the way and that had to…and does…suck.
I can even sort of feel that much.
…….I want to be pretty, to just kind of walk and feel and be that person that I feel like inside.
I absolutely do not feel like a Shawn.
Actually I feel…I feel.
I feel like I’m going to panic because now I’m inside this thing and it’s small and it’s closed in and it’s making noises and lots of them and all of a sudden I’m not there.
I’m in the car and it’s rolling and it’s rolling and every time it rolls the air is getting redder and redder and I’m screaming and screaming and it won’t move! It won’t give I can’t get out and my back hurts and I can’t get out1 “Lemme go! Lemme out, please, please let me out! Help! I’ll be good! I’ll be a good Girl! I’ll be a good Girl!”

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 6

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 6


I hug her back. “I’m different now aren’t I?”

I feel her nod in the hug. “Yeah, kind of a lot different but not…but I love you anyways.”

There’s something there…something kind of shining through. “Always?”

She sniffle nods.

“Good, cause I think I’m going to need that.”


I’m right there on the edge of saying…something, I don’t know what…but something and then the nurses are back in and with a wheelchair. “Alright Shawn you ready for your tests?”


*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 5

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 5


I look at her. “I’m like my Dad?”
“Well with like that temperament and stuff.”
I…I really don’t know how to deal with that or how to feel about it? I mean I’m Sarah right so I just kind of thought that I’d take after my Mom more or something and not my dad and I really can’t figure out if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.
“Y...Yeah kind of…it wasn’t what I was expecting to hear.”
“Yeah…I thought I’d be more like you Mom.”
I look at her and she actually has this really sort of surprised look on her face.
And…I’m really surer than ever she doesn’t know.

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 4

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 4


And there’s people that are there like me on my friends list and that are trans too and stuff and they call me Whisper or Wisp or Song but several of them…

They call me Sarah.

And even reading it, reading it with that inner voice inside…you know the one that goes on while you’re reading something and there’s that inside narrative thing?

It doesn’t feel wrong.

It doesn’t feel like Shawn.

And there’s tears starting to run down my face.

I think I’m really Sarah.

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 3

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 3


I…I don’t know what’s wrong but it’s wrong and I know she’s trying her best but I end up crying through the whole thing and even when she’s done I’m still crying and I roll over to my side as best I can and cry into the pillow.

I think she was rubbing my back at one point and trying to comfort me and she was replaced by Mom and there is something that is like maybe visceral there?

I know Mom’s touch, just from the way she was with me before I know the difference and I cry all the harder once it’s her.

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 2

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 2

Chapter 2


I swallow. “Am I okay?”

“We don’t know, we’ll see what the doctors say Shawn.”

I nod.

That still just doesn’t sit right with me but what can I do?

*And Now…

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 1

Hopscotch…A Jump in Life 1

Chapter 1


My throat hurts…

There’s a flicker in the darkness… a jingle of keys? Seeing them falling slowly into a hand and a feeling of excitement.

I see a blue car, a muscle car and we’re all running towards it.

We…I’m with a bunch of guys getting in the back seat.

I can feel a forward pushing me back feeling going fast.

I don’t think there was any like drinking or stuff but there was yelling.

The screech of tires and a girl screaming.


For Friends and Family Part 6

For Friends and Family Part 6 – Nichola Complete

For Friends and Family. Andy is looking for a new challenge, his current girlfriends sister has suffered a nervous break down, Andy is very similar in both size and looks, agrees to be changed into a Nichola look alike.
This is a dream for Andy who has a secret desire to live and work as a woman. In this chapter after getting his (her) teeth capped she now has the perfect smile also the hypnotic suggestions are working well. Meanwhile the real Nichola suffers another breakdown and Andy admits that he is enjoying his new life and also considers remaining a woman.

For Friends and Family Part 5

For Friends and Family Part 5 – Life as Nichola

Andy is looking for a new challenge, his current girlfriends sister has suffered a nervous break down, Andy is very similar in both size and looks, agrees to be changed into a Nichola look alike.
This is a dream for Andy who has a secret desire to live and work as a woman.
In this part surgery which transformation him into Nichola is completed and he leaves the clinic. Now he begins to learn his new life as a woman called Nichola.

I am back in sequence now after my horrific blunder


For Friends and Family Part 3

For Friends and Family Part 3 – Nichola is Reborn

I have restarted this story, the reasons I suspended it was that I was posting three separate stories at once and I was getting confused so I decided to concentrate on a single story. If you have not read parts 1 to 3 I would advise you to do so then you will see how Andy had agreed to be changed into Nichola

Mare's Tales 12

Our 5 friends are now at university researching different subjects but living together to support each others disabilities. Their progress is described and Beverly's family history is revealed. (A bit emotional in parts.) Our friend fall to discussing ways to solve their disabilities and the Sci-fi aspect of the story starts to develop.

Mare's Tales - by: Beverly Taff

Chapter 12

Wedding Daze

Kidnapped chapter one revised

Kidnapped Pt 1 Revised

By Kyle

This is my story, I posted it here around three years ago under another name. I decided to revisit this uncompleted story revised it and complete it.

My son was taken from me when he was only eight years old. That event that shattered both of our lives, but my son was hurt far worse than I was. I have been trying to heal him. He will not talk about what happened to him, but it was bad enough that it turned a kind and loving eight year old boy into a boy full of anger and hatred by the time he was thirteen.

The Tale of Tristin Diez second revision chpter one

The Tale of Tristin Diez

By Lucille Jeanette Smith

Edited by Catherine Linda Michel

In the course of life, some are chosen. Chosen to suffer more than others, to endure much more because they are strong enough to take that suffering and turn it into something amazing, like social change and progress. One such person is Tristan Diez, a young man just coming into his own as a man. Everything he's done and has endured in his relatively short life has given him the strength and wisdom to do what has to be done, no matter how wrong it might seem to others or what indignities he might have to suffer. This is his story, but it's more than just a story. It's an example that we all might learn from, and maybe make things better by following his example.

Sweet Dreams-56

Sweet Dreams-56

Chapter 56


Alex looks at me when he gets out. “You okay?”
“Yeah I’m just having that kind of hitting me again.”
“That actual feeling of home?”
“You are home.”
“But it’s still something that I never really got before Alex; everything else was kinda just a squat. I’m having that full on thing where I had no idea I missed our bed so much until I climbed in it tonight.”
He smiles that soft little secret smile of his…that one that’s only partway on his lips but all the way in his eyes and I sigh and tilt my head up to meet him as he leans down to kiss me and we do that for a while before we end up snuggling up together and actually sleeping.
I missed that too…curling up with him and spooning.
It actually takes me the better part of three quarters of an hour before sleep overtakes me.
The rest of that time I was just sort of soaking in that feeling.
Home, safe and loved.

*And Now…

X-Why-Me?...Chapter 18

X-Why-Me…Chapter 18


She looked at her dad and he waited until the cops had left and offered his hand to the bus driver who shook it and the sheriff who just looked at him and his hand and then headed towards his car. “I have to get this to evidence and do up a report, good evening all.”

He left with a nod and got in his truck and drove off and the bus driver left after that saying he had to do the same after getting the bus back to the garage.

Emily looked at her sister and her Dad and her throat hurt and her mouth was dry.

“I’m so sorry you guys, I’m sorry.”

Both of them hugged her and she started crying and they hug walked her up the drive way to the house.

*And Now…

What a good boy...Chapter 25

What a good boy…Chapter 25

Chapter 25

I get up after a few minutes and head over to where Jamey is sitting and ease down into the seats. He looks over to me and he smiles ad blushes. I grin. “Looking at the pretty?”

“I uhm…” He’s turning red.

“Hey as a V-boy and new to the whole with guy’s thing too I’m seeing the same kind of yummy.”

“I…Oh damn Tracy…I can’t help it, you and me…it was so good I see them and I’m wondering and I’m not sure I want to.”

“It’s a trip.” I nod and sort of lean on his shoulder. “I was so on the fence about being attracted to you.”


“Yes you, you’re a beautiful boy.”

Are We Not Men?

An old story of mine from 1997, Are We Not Men? is an obvious homage to H.G.Wells The Island of Dr. Moreau - with a TG twist, of course. As with Embers, this is submitted in it's original form, warts and all. Please enjoy this Halloween treat.

October 31, 2013

Sweet Dreams-54 “It’s only a flesh wound.”

Sweet Dreams-54 “It’s only a flesh wound.”

Chapter 54


Ooooh ick.

I know surgery is gross and after surgery is gross but there’s red and there stains and there’s swelling and stitches and stuff. They’re checking all of that and the redress everything and I can’t help it as much as I’m grossed out and embarrassed I’m fascinated too.

It’s gone…like completely gone and everything else too.

It’s a lot to process right now but at the same time past the sort of shock to all of it is this little feeling of yay?

Of yes…finally.

*And Now…

It all started back in 1985

It all started back in 1985. I was an average 13-year-old boy. Who live in a loving home with his Mother, Father and 12-year-old kid sister. Well I had played dress up and dolls with my sister when we were younger. With that said, I never knew that our mom had taken pictures of me dressed in a dress.

Can I have some Brown Sugar for my Damper? Chapter 9.

Can I have some Brown Sugar for my Damper? Chapter 9.

Chapter 9.

I told Rudy the truth.

“I like you Rudy and that makes a lot of difference.”

It really, really does too.

I had all these thoughts and feelings of what it was like to be a transgendered woman that was really influenced by Sophie. I felt for the first time in my life right in my skin but it was missing things…feelings and connection.

I’m here tonight with Rudy and it’s just supper after a nice day out before we do the weekend and movies and Sam with us and talking and kissing and cuddling up.

Nothing you couldn’t find anyone else doing at any night of the week.

But actually I’ve never done this before.

Sweet Dreams-53 "It's only a flesh wound!"

Sweet Dreams-53 “It’s only a flesh wound!”

Chapter 53

It’s been a really good day. The sex and the food in the morning and the coffee and watching movies was just so amazing. But so was Alex's idea of laying there together and napping. And taking the day off from classes was nice even though I actually like school here it was still really, really needed, I think I did need just being with Alex like this.

I have had very little times in my life when it was just okay to stop and just do that stop. Let someone care for me in little ways.

Like a nap at eleven in the morning after watching a movie and sitting there in the sunshine with Alex spooning me and feeling that huge warm bulk of his body there and those strong arms gently circling around me.

No sex, no necking as awesome as that is just being held and sleeping.

Images 50

Images 50

Chapter 50

As much as going to see Hanna is on my mind the morning is a good morning by all of my standards. Nice waffles…I do like a good waffle, pancakes are awesome but I like the nooks and crannies thing.

I make a whole bunch and Taylor does a little scrambled eggs and a bit of bacon we don’t need much but I dig out the juice and the vitamins and take my meds and my vitamins and get Iggy hers and then Giselle’s Flintstone’s ones.

So trying to do the mommy thing.

Tay certainly makes it better with the kisses and nuzzles to my neck and places and him circling his arms around me.

I’m definitely more than blessed.

Sweet Dreams-50...Tears Of My Childhood

Sweet Dreams-50…Tears Of My Childhood

Chapter 50


Again…it’s awhile but that doesn’t matter, I lean my head against his where it’s on my shoulder and just whisper to him.

“Keep you eyes closed and just breathe okay hon…….just feel us…me holding you and you holding me and the smell of the trees, the lawns…feel the sunshine?”

He nods into my shoulder.

“Good…now just sort of picture all of that and she’s in there too…right there Alex…right there in the sunshine only she’s really smiling at you…like she used to and not because she’s bombed or high but she’s just good…she’s watching you and seeing the great guy she’s got and she’s just smiling hon…she’s just good…cause you’re good…it’s all she needs babe…it’s all she needs.”

He’s sobbing again into my shoulder but in there…muffled in there I can hear this faint little.

“I…I can see her.”


Soaring With Eagles - Conclusion

Soaring With Eagles, Part 10, Chapters 35, 36, 37 & 38

By Portia Bennett

Introduction: Their careers continue to develop at a rapid pace. With increased rank comes greatly increased responsibility. More and more what one does and where one goes is dictated by immediate needs, not long range planning. Angie finds herself thrust into a squadron commander's position in the latest war zone in the Middle East. Fred is the top pilot for Air Force One, and Matt is now a group commander for more than 1200 Security forces personnel.

The other novels in this story in the order they were written are: The Heart of the Beholder, The Narragansett Fork, Musetta's Waltz, Who is Sylvia, Five Love Stories en Brochette, The Redhead and the PM, and St. George and the Dragon.

Soaring With Eagles - Part 5 of 10

Soaring With Eagles, Part 5, Chapters 19, 20, 21, & 22

By Portia Bennett

Introduction: Angie has arrived at Aviano Air Base in northern Italy. Needless to say, Fred was surprised; however, not in a bad way. Things don't go nearly as well with her first meeting with her squadron commander. Can things get any worse? Just how easy or difficult is it going to be for Angie to be accepted? Also, there is this thing about the whole reason Angie was at Aviano in the first place. Angie has her check ride. Let's see what happens.

The other novels in this Saga in the order they were written are: The Heart of the Beholder, The Narragansett Fork, Musetta's Waltz, Who is Sylvia, Five Love Stories en Brochette, The Redhead and the PM, and St. George and the Dragon.

Soaring With Eagles - Part 4 of 10

Soaring With Eagles, Part 4, Chapters 15, 16, 17 & 18

By Portia Bennett

Introduction: The last two years at the Academy were over rather quickly, or at least it seemed they were. Matt's father swears him in, and Matt and Kate finally marry. They visit Musetta and Matt's grandfather on their way to San Antonio. As they are readying to leave Bakersfield, they are buzzed by a crop duster. Matt has an idea who the pilot is. After training in San Antonio, the young couple heads for Little Rock Air Force Base. Matt runs into Fred Bilitnikov who is starting C-130 training. It's always the same. Whenever they meet or correspond it's always "Where is Angelo?" "Have you heard anything lately from Angelo?" That's a very good question. Where exactly is Angelo?

The other novels in this saga in the order they were written are: The Heart of the Beholder, The Narragansett Fork, Musetta's Waltz, Who is Sylvia, Five Love Stories en Brochette, The Redhead and the PM, and St. George and the Dragon.

Bridges 37

Bridges 37

Chapter 37

While I’ve been busying myself with studying and catching up on a whole lot of the stuff that I’ve missed since I’ve been off. I’ve still been missing Cass even though we talk nights on the phone and we do other things it’s me just feeling…we just got together I mean really together and it’s like it’s so not been enough really.

I want my girl with me at nights to cuddle up with and do all the newly-wed couple stuff together.

Operation Rescue: The Protester

Operation Rescue: The Protester

By: LightofFury

Synopsis: Jake gets swept into a protest of the Morris Foundation by his friends. Left in doubt of his friend’s cause, he searches for answers of his own.

This story borrows the setting and a couple of characters from Operation Rescue: New Co-Ed by ElrodW. Operation Rescue is a semi-closed universe created by ElrodW. It is with his explicit permission that I created this story, and he has reviewed and approved this story for inclusion in this new story universe. Please respect his wishes to keep the universe pure to his vision. If you want to write an Operation Rescue story, contact ElrodW, and work with him.

Soaring With Eagles - Part 3 of 10

Soaring With Eagles, Part 3, Chapters 10, 11, 12, 13 & 14

By Portia Bennett

Introduction: They finally get into the swing of things, not to say that it gets any easier. Matt begins to emerge as a leader who makes few wrong decisions. Matt's strengths seem to really piss off Cadet Caldwell. A rape does take place in this part. I've tried to handle it with the least bit of violence as possible. No one gets away with anything.

The other novels in this story in the order they were written are: The Heart of the Beholder, The Narragansett Fork, Musetta's Waltz, Who is Sylvia, Five Love Stories en Brochette, The Redhead and the PM, and St. George and the Dragon.

Jasmine Takes Control: Finale

Jasmine Takes Charge: Finale

I comforted my Husband/Sister/Mistress, she had been bleeding from the surgery the Gorean had put her through, I had gotten there just as they were starting to cut on her 'clit.'. The Gorean's had already done a breast augmentation, The Goddess had come back to me, and I saved my lover.


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